freak pwb0581 Paul bundren

Sometimes I freak myself out 

Not sure what I am capable of doing 

Sometimes I surprise myself 

I am not really sure how I am feeling 

Things are shape shifting so fast and unexpectedly 

Tough times are bringing out the different sides of people including me 

I could feel one way now 

And it could be something completely different later

Things have become unpredictable 

We have all been going through changes

Sometimes I don't know how to word this 

Sometimes things don't come out the right way 

Sometimes I studder

Sometimes I stumble and fall over myself 

Sometimes it is me that gets in the way 

In the most uncomfortable weird ways 

Sometimes I look over my shoulder 

And pace the floors

Second guessing myself trying not to repeat the same mistakes 

Sometimes I overthink things 

If I had do overs or take backs from the past maybe there would be a few things that I would change but can't dwell on it and let it hold me back 

Sometimes I feel out of place and out of line 

Born into a world where not everyone is kind or wants you here and and can be cruel feels like people are competing against each other and tries to pick out your flaws even things that you can't control or change 

I have never felt 100 percent comfortable in my skin 

I have always felt weird from right from the beginning at birth like I never fit in anywhere like I have always been a misfit a reject a non conformity an outcast an oddball everywhere I go feeling like I don't belong here 

Sometimes I choke to find the right things to say

I fuck things up time and time again

Sometimes I would rather leave than to explain to what feels like to strangers and critiques I don't really know 

Sometimes I am my biggest critic myself

Is this just my imagination 

And things are not as hard or bad as they seem 

Sometimes this world seems to be like one big nightmare 

Is it all just in my mind 

Was I screwed from right from the start

I always feel like there is more pieces of the puzzle than what I was handed here

And it feels like a dog eat dog world

And we are all starving and nobody wants to be eaten alive 

Sometimes there is so much going on 

Demanding a lot of attention 

Been trying not to let things get the best of me 

Been trying not to let anything drag me down

I will say this even if it causes controversy I would rather go out with a bang taking risks even if it doesn't pay off than to lay low and doing nothing and wondering what could have should have would have might have been

I think I would rather be a freak than to be normal 

What is normal anyway 

be careful what you wish for pwb0581 Paul bundren

WTF! They are trying to build a data center without our consent?!

Not in my backyard!

Do we get a say in this?

This could be my unpopular opinion 

But it seems like a lot of people are looking for ways to knock people down than to help a poor man out 

Instead of fixing the problems often they are adding insult to injury 

Sorry not sorry 

I see you trying to save your own ass

By trying to paint other people guilty for your crimes 

There is still a lot of bias and discrimination here today just in different shapes and forms

And often invisible 

I feel like you are trying to use me as a scapegoat 

Gaslighting and twisting words 

And weaponizing information against people

To your advantage 

Catfish scammers using other peoples pictures without permission robbing and exploiting mostly vulnerable unsuspecting hard working honest kind people like me it makes me sick 

Often you don't realize that you are the victim til it is too late leaving you paying and trying to clean up the mess often for a lifetime 

Bullies posting anonymously on social media 

Trolling people 

I wish these cowards would show their face and be exposed 

It seems like little or nothing is being done about it 

Sometimes I feel so isolated and not really sure what do or say to confront the situation without it coming back to bite me and getting attacked for it

Big tech companies trying to buy up all the property including farmland to build data centers to stalk on you and giving our jobs to ai and robots we can't afford food or rent or utilities leaving us evicted and starving and penniless on the street with no shelter

And can't drive cuz cost of gas and insurance is insane and rising above our income 

What do you care more about your followers or the dollar signs

Are we all brainwashed 

It seems like we are in the land of the no longer free

I am sure a wealthy CEO probably disagrees 

What are you going to do 

Block me fire me erase me sue me imprison me kill me

Be careful what you wish for 

Will you wake up laughing when tomorrow they try to do the same to you 

keep going in your memory pwb0581 Paul bundren

Life is getting hard 

With you not around 

I keep longing for what is gone and don't exist anymore 

Open arms trying to hug empty air 

Wish I could pull you down from the clouds

Things used to be simple 

But now things are more complex and harder to relate than ever 

I feel like I am alone 

And got nowhere to turn to

I missed all of your advice 

Things will never be the same ever again 

Wish I could grow wings and drag you out of heaven but I can't 

Guess God needed you more 

Things have turned cold and unforgiving since you have gone away 

Honestly I'm am scared what the future will be with everything uncertain and unpredictable

There is a lot of fear and anxiety 

Sometimes I don't want to be around anymore 

But some of your last words were to keep fighting never give up don't lay down and die don't let others drag you down so I will try to keep going in your memory 

overkill pwb0581 Paul bundren

This is killing with a capital K

I understand that life is hard 

And nothing is fair but 

I love how you keep changing the rules in your favor where nobody can win and keep fucking the rest of us 

I love the way you take take take and never give 

I love how you always make me pay but when it is your turn you play ding dong ditch

I love the way you kill me how do you do it without blood on your hands staying so clean 

You had me laying down held on the side of the road to get ran over and left for dead

And if wasn't deceased you put the bus in reverse then back in forward then run me over again 

I guess I should have seen the warning signs 

Your charm was misleading into something more sinister I should have seen right through you 

Red flags were waving from miles away 

Guess I had a poor taste of judgement 

Went against my own advice 

Kept Second guessing myself

I had some concerns 

But gave the benefit of the doubt

And got fooled time and time again 

I should have went with my gut

I was left hook line and sinker 

I was just your flavor of the week 

While you left me for dead for you next fix only to probably do the same to them

I wish there was a way to pull the mask off your face and reveal who you truly are 

But you remain anonymous behind a blank screen 

I wish I was paying more attention 

Instead of ending up in a situation like this 

Where people are taken advantage including me 

The damage is done and it is almost too late to recover from 

I do believe what comes around usually goes around 

I hope someday you get your turn 

I hope people see you for who you are 

Just tired of laying down and being walked on by people like you 

You used me and discarded me like trash 

I hope you get what you put me through 

Black and blue 

Who really deserves this 

Is this really a life to live 

Is there any remorse 

shut down pwb0581 Paul bundren

Sometimes people suck 

That could be why I am crawling back in my shell 

I try to brace myself for this 

But I feel like I am succumbing under the pressure 

It feels like the more you give the more they take and the more they expect without even asking 

And they don't care if you get hurt 

And are even mean about it and backlash if they don't get their way 

When is enough enough 

Sometimes I feel like shutting down

This ain't me anymore 

I lost my personality trying to impress people who don't care about me 

Only seeing what they can get out of me then leaving me with nothing and dragging my name in the mud

I should have seen this coming

But I was blind 

I don't know why I allowed this 

I Guess I felt like I was at rock bottom

And thought I had nothing to lose 

But it seems like the pain outweighed the prize and I am still paying for it

I feel like I am losing my breath trying to keep up 

I don't know if this is beneficial to me to keep going 

ghosted pwb0581 Paul bundren

I feel like I am dangling by a thread

Feeling like I got no one who can help me at all 

Feeling left in the dark 

Without all the pieces to the puzzle 

You broke this 

Why can't you fix this  

I feel like I was lead on

Why do you leave me chasing

hanging High and dry for the 100th time 

You throw it in my face 

Then take it all away 

I was too trusting in you 

Only to let my guard down 

And everything unravels at the seams 

Guess I took a chance 

Knowing that there was a risk of losing everything 

I try to prepare myself for this 

But there is really no way of knowing 

I feel like everything is falling apart 

Dying in my hands 

Dying In my hands 

Now I am lost

Back at square one 

I thought the answer was in you

But now I'm questioning everything 

Were you even being true

Or playing me and lying to me just seeing what you can get from me 

Sometimes I feel spent and defeated 

I think think I am looking for something more long term than being left in the middle of the night 

But sometimes my mind plays tricks on me 

And nothing is for certain 

Sometimes I wonder if there will ever be a tomorrow 

You leave me reading in between the lines while you ghost me 

final resting place pwb0581

There is a lot of things that I would like to state

I feel like something is happening here

I am not really sure if it is a good thing or a bad thing 

I'm trying to process everything 

And look at the whole picture

My brain is working overtime on overdrive 

It keeps me awake at night and sick to my stomach 

There A lot of things that are misunderstood

 and is penetrating skull fucking my mind 

I feel like I am in a vulnerable position naked strapped down but not in a consensual way 

It feels like my soul has been murdered 

I don't mean to confuse you with all of these crazy things jumping out all of a sudden 

It kind of feels like we are all caught off guard

The only thing that is predictable is uncertainty living in a world of madness 

Full of hate and greed and chaos 

I don't think that this is gods plan 

If there is even a god

This feels like a curse in vain 

The rules are always changing 

So you don't know where you stand 

So before we go any further I want my share

Tired of being directed behind the bush 

In the weeds

Only to get screwed time and time again 

Just to point things out 

There is a lot of wolves dressed as sheep  

It is getting harder to recognize the threats

Who are cons

That often come up when you least expect and don't realize what is happening til it's too late this is obviously a scam 

This is rape and robbery of everything that we thought we knew and loved 

Even a blind man can see this from over a mile away coming in crystal clear 

They try to kill you and say it is justified 

Erase you and act if you never existed 

Question is where do we go from here 

And how do we fix this 

There don't seem to be a simple solution 

The system is broken 

People keep coming up with scapegoats

I feel like nobody is innocent 

And we are all to blame 

Is this how things are supposed to end 

The rich taking it all from the poor

Leaving the rest in poverty and starvation 

Forcing extinction 

I wish I could dream that this would be over with that I could run away and escape reality 

Does anybody hear the cries for help 

Or are the signs ignored 

You wonder if anyone cares at all 

The forecast looks like it is calling for world war weather 

Things are seeming like they are turning nuclear 

Don't really know what to say about it without offending someone and getting bombs dropped on me

Don't really know how to answer to this

Things have become unpredictable and hostile 

People are expecting quick sudden responses trying to catch you off guard 

And fueling off the chaos 

But there are so many questions 

Is this even the right move to react with the bullies getting a kick off it and painting you as the bad guy 

Why do we have to kill each other

Who does this even benefit 

I keep saying the same things over and over time and time again and getting ignored does my voice even matter or do you throw me away like a piece of trash

Do I just sit back and watch this whole thing unravel and fall apart

The world is on fire and looking for something 

We can't put a finger on

C'mon throw a dog a bone 

Please don't leave me in the dark 

It doesn't seem like we are trying to fix the problems only aggravating and making things worse 

This is not only evil it should be a crime

And of course the rich make to poor to pay for this 

Your money or your life 

As your life is served on a platter

Flashing right in front of your eyes 

What did you accomplish 

What did you stood for and 

Do you have any regrets 

What would you like to leave behind 

Not sure if I am dead or dying yet

I'm no hero I'm no saint 

But I think I would like to try to leave things in a better place 

Will this be our final resting place 

Will this be a new genocide 

I hope that this is not true 

Will there be another tomorrow 

Are we just living for today 

 

total control pwb0581

You wanted total control you got it 

It seems like some of the worst of my fears are confirmed 

I am getting the sense of impending doom

They are trying to control and manipulate all of us 

They are replacing freedom with surveillance and totalitarianism

Trying to watch everything 

If you are not 2 moves ahead 

You are 3 steps behind 

These days if you even look at someone wrong they are butthurt 

I am trying to not be on the wrong side of things and get attacked for it 

Most of the time I just try to go with the flow 

Instead of against the grain

Honestly I don't really trust most people as far as I can throw them anymore 

But most of the time I have stayed on the sidelines and not tried to question authority 

But is our best interest even in mind

Am I even allowed to defend myself

It seems like you have to be careful what you say or do cuz they try to twist it and pin it on you without a way to back out of 

I see you trying to broadcast my mistakes publicly on Main Street 

Trying to make me the talk of the town

While trying to act like you were never wrong 

While trying to blackmail me

I hope you get what comes around 

Ten fold

We all know no one was innocent here 

But the weight of the shoulders fall on me 

This is not happiness it is forced compliance 

They are trying to eliminate the next one who is out of line 

Til no one is left standing

Do you feel big and tall by picking on someone less fortunate 

Is this how it has got to be 

Guess we will see which side lady karma is on in history 

paralyzed pwb0581 Paul bundren

I feel like I am blacking out 

I am spazzing out

I think I am shell shocked in disbelief 

So many things happening so fast 

And unexpectedly beyond control 

I am not really sure how I feel about it 

It feels like there is a lot of things that are being passed around 

It is getting harder to tell what is real anymore

There is a lot of dread

A lot of false high hopes 

It sort of feels like I am paralyzed 

And it doesn't seem like there is a way to wake up from this 

The unexpected has become the new norm

Will there even be a tomorrow 

strained pwb0581 Paul bundren

Lately things have been strained 

There were some things that I would have liked to do 

There was things that I would have liked to build and create 

But I couldn't see things getting in the way 

i guess that it wasn't meant to be 

I don't know if I can be able to keep the promises that I made back so long ago 

Time has gone by 

Everything has changed 

And things have shifted 

We are not the same people anymore 

And things have become unrecognizable 

There are some things that you are into that I am not 

And some things that I am into that you are not 

It looks like we are not compatible 

And everyone is absent 

We are at a non agreement 

Consent is everything 

And can be backed out of at any time 

It can't be forced or manipulated 

It has to be an agreement with everyone involved 

Not a one way street 

It has been harder to find the light in the darkness

Just wish I could find somebody someone to help me through this 

Is there anything out there for me

In a world full of craziness and confusion 

Is there any way to simplify things 

Why must everything be so complicated 

Why does it feel like I am on my own in this

And walking alone 

Things don't seem right and are not making sense 

I hate to leave things on bad terms 

But Sometimes things are beyond repair 

And not worth fixing 

Sometimes it is better to walk away 

driven pwb0581 Paul bundren

My latest episode may send me to the psych ward

They may say that I lost my mind 

That I am crazy 

But I feel like you made me 

I am a product of my environment 

I feel like I have been driven here

This can't be undone

It is burned forever in my memory 

Now I am dealing with the aftermath 

Of what you created 

Things running through my head I can't understand to this day 

I felt like I got tricked manipulated and used 

You put me here 

Why can't you fix this

You leave me behind 

Dealing with the mess you made 

I hope I don't end up like you 

With all of your hate

But the rage is driving me insane 

I need to leave this place 

And never come back 

Why is everything so creepy crawling back in my head again it feels like I can't escape 

It feels like your voice is still in my head screaming at me 

It feels hard to block it out 

self care pwb0581 Paul bundren

Self care and self love I feel is not a bad thing 

The world may be dark cold and grey

But stay true to yourself 

Never lose who you are due to someone else's coldness 

Never let them see you sweat 

Never let them see you fold under pressure 

Sometimes it is ok to take a step back 

And respect your boundaries 

You don't have to change who you are for the likes of someone else 

cutthroat pwb0581 Paul bundren

It feels like Someone turned things from easy into a 100 in a blink of an eye 

The environment has turned hostile cuz of hate

Lifelines are gone 

Pickens are getting slim

It is complete chaos 

We are losing our homes

And digging through garage cans 

Not that sanitary 

What ever happened to love 

We are now living in induced misery 

The fire is freezing 

The drive that we once had had stalled 

This isn't the American dream that I grew up hearing about 

You can no longer afford to survive 

The rich want it all and want it now 

The fortune the fame the power 

And leave us scavenging for what is left 

Unfortunately it seems to be everyone for themselves and people are taking each other out one by one 

Does everything have to be a competition 

Does everything have to be a game 

Does everything have to be a race against time 

It feels like everyone is emotionally drained 

And checked out including myself 

Is the prize even worth the pain endured

clean pwb0581 Paul bundren

How do I get clean again 

I feel like I have been off track 

For far too long 

How can I be myself again 

I feel like I have been going under 

How do I find my way 

Through so many twisted paths

I feel like there is so much going on 

It is hard to understand and process all of it 

One wrong move can cost me everything

How do I get my hands clean again 

I think I drawn a line in the sand

It feels like there is no coming back from 

Can't change mistakes made in the past can only try to avoid them in the future

Is it too late to make amends

How do I get clean 

It feels like things are stained 

Permanently tarnished 

Can't go back to the way things used to be 

How do I get clean 

It feels like a constant ongoing battle that never ends 

when a heart breaks pwb0581 Paul bundren

This is not a storybook romance 

More like a disastrous nightmare 

This is hard but 

When a heart breaks 

Sometimes it doesn't break clean 

More like scattered tiny little pieces 

On the floor that can't be glued together 

I know we intended this to be a long term commitment but I think I want to back out of this 

anymore this feels forced and not consensual 

This isn't what either of us want 

This isn't what I am looking for 

And I want out of this

Sorry if I sound cold 

But I feel like this is not right for me 

I want to end this for all and not go forward 

No I do not want to start over again 

I don't want to repair this 

I don't want to fix this anymore 

I think I am through 

No more playing games 

I think I just want this to be over for good this time 

I know that this will mess with my head

And be hard to get over 

When heart breaks 

It doesn't break clean 

dead pwb0581 Paul bundren

I feel so lifeless and scared 

I don't feel like myself anymore 

It feels like people want me to react and respond to things on a little or no notice that I know nothing about and I am feeling vulnerable 

Don't really know where to turn to

It feels like I am being pointed in a lot of different directions and I feel lost 

Things feel like they have been dead for so long 

Can you please bring some life into me

Why is everything so forsaken 

It feels like we are starting on hollow ground

And the environment has become unstable 

Don't know where we stand 

When everything is changing 

I feel like there is a lot going on 

It is hard to understand and process all of this

There is a lot of chaos and confusion

I don't want to jump into something that I don't know anything about 

And be a fool or an idiot 

I would like to make educated decisions rather than emotional quick responses 

And doing something I will regret 

It is getting harder to tell what is true

When there is a lot of fakery going on 

Am I even sure that I want to buy what you are trying to sell me what is the benefits and what is the cons and is it genuine 

Things are getting harder to recognize what is real 

Why does it feel like I stand on my own 

And nobody agrees 

And we stand divided 

Is there any hope 

The feeling I get is almost like I am drowning

withdrawn pwb0581 Paul bundren

If was to leave who would notice

Who would care 

I feel like I am in the middle of a party that I wasn't invited to and I don't belong here 

I feel withdrawn

Like my soul has left my body 

I feel like my mind is racing 

So many new things being thrown at me 

That I don't understand 

Things are not slowing down actually speeding up out of control 

I do feel like a fish dead out of water sometimes out of my element 

Out of my comfort zone 

Like a deer caught in headlights 

Things are not getting any simpler 

I try to pretend and act like I am forever young

Be a kid at heart and try to keep good spirits 

But it reality it feels like I am dying 

I don't want this to be my swan song 

But nothing can last forever 

Sometimes you got to know when to fold em

And let go 

calm down pwb0581 Paul bundren

I am not a robot 

I am not a machine 

I do have feelings 

Whether or not people care

Sometimes I feel like shutting down and letting go of everything 

What is more important 

What I am putting out and giving or my health 

When being put in a situation where you are being sabotaged I don't think your best interest are in mind and the relationship is not healthy and I feel like it is probably time to end it 

Please don't tell me to calm down when everything is going on so fast speeding up all of a sudden and there is a lot of chaos and I am trying to process it 

Please don't tell me to calm down and be quiet 

After being hyper and on high alert over what has been going on 

Feeling like I am being pushed over the edge 

Please don't tell me to wait and stand by 

While being set up to fall 

I heard from somewhere that you were talking to other people and that I was just a scapegoat that I was only a back up option when your side jobs fail it makes me wonder if you ever gave a fuck about me or just using me all along 

I don't think want to continue anymore 

I think I am done 

get lost pwb0581 Paul bundren

I know what I want to do 

I have already picked my side 

Stop trying to hijack my mind 

You already had your share 

Now you want mine 

Why don't you get lost 

You sore loser

My money 

My body 

My mind 

Is not your personal property 

Why don't you get lost 

You sore loser 

You are a liar

And mad cause you didn't get your way 

I am not a puppet 

I am not a slave 

I don't work for free 

And you don't own me 

I don't want to buy whatever you are trying to pass on to me 

I am not taking your drugs 

I am not willing to be manipulated and controlled by you 

Why don't you back off and get lost 

You sore loser 

burned out pwb0581 Paul bundren

I feel like I have become burned out

Paranoid And Less trusting 

It feels like some people are trying to push me over the edge

Things seem to be getting dark and ugly 

I feel like a deer in headlights 

Can't help to stop and stare

It feels like a loss of control 

We are seeing different sides of everyone 

Got to look at everything with caution 

These days it is getting harder to tell who to trust 

What is real

What is truth or fiction 

What is changing or getting erased 

Sad to say 

Alliances are fracturing 

Can't tell who is my friend or my foe

What have I been missing 

It feels like I have been blind 

Got to constantly be paying attention 

It feels like my back is against the wall 

I feel confused 

Can't tell what is real or how I feel anymore 

I try to be cool with people and get stepped on 

It feels like everyone losses 

In God's game and we are all pawns 

Was this part of the plan 

For the world to end

no hero pwb0581 Paul bundren

I feel partially emotionally checked out Don't know why I stay trying to keep my cool under pressure 

There is a lot of things going on at once 

It doesn't seem to be time to slow down and stop to think 

I don't know which direction we are going 

But It doesn't seem to be heading in the right way 

We are back seat passengers strapped in 

It feels like we are being driven under 

In the ground 

No one is really doing anything 

So nothing really changes 

I am not sure if I can abide to it anymore 

I feel like shifting gears 

And parting ways and jumping ship

Sometimes goodbye is the only way 

I try to be careful 

But you can never be too safe

Trying not to put all my eggs in one basket 

At one time 

Do I show all my cards to an enemy 

there is a lot of things happening 

That i feel is beyond my control 

I would be lying to say that I didn't care

But I am not able to fix everything 

I am no hero 

Sometimes it is better to let things the way they lay and walk away than to try to change things 

I'm Trying to choose between going with the devil you know or going with the unknown 

These days it is getting harder to trust 

It feels like every word and action feels like an attack 

Keep all eyes open at all times 

Even at the back of your head 

If you are going to shoot 

At least go for the kill

Just please make this as quick and painless as possible 

I feel like the damage has been done and is irreversible 

Nothing will ever be as good as they were

Nothing will ever be the same again 

Crying over spilled milk won't put it back in the bottle 

Each day feels like walking on another landmine 

It almost feels like I am being set up to fall

Who really wins

Didn't know that life was a game or a race

Why can't we love each other and help each other 

Rather than waging wars

Does everything have to be a competition 

What ever happened to compassion and respect 

It seems like that is gone

 

miles apart pwb0581 Paul bundren

It feels like we are so close but miles apart 

I don't know if this is real or only a dream 

Am I making a wish on a falling star 

I never really felt any significant love or connection before 

Sometimes I feel like this is almost too good to be true like this is make believe 

Do I go with my heart 

Or do I go with my gut 

I think I should let you know that 

I have been abused cheated 

Lied to and scammed and ghosted before 

Trying not to fall in the same traps

Sometimes it feels like I keep tripping over myself again and again 

Making incorrect choices 

Is there anyone out there that is right for me 

I keep searching for something that seems hard to find 

Are you hiding in plain sight 

And have been right under my nose the whole time 

I put myself out there for the world to see 

But I can't make you like me 

I can't make you mine if you don't want me

It sometimes feels like things are cold 

Were things ever alive 

Can't tell if there is a connection 

Even though we are close together 

It feels like we are miles apart 

It kind of feels like I am walking this journey alone 

opening statement 2026 pwb0581 Paul bundren

This might be controversial and might lose friends over this but I feel like I need to say something I normally try to stay quiet and keep my mouth shut but there is so much going on this country that is bothering me I could say so much about how I feel about the government but don't really want to be a target for bullies there is so much going on most of the time I try to stay out of it but things are concerning they are going after poor people and minorities taking away our jobs replacing them with ai and robots and raising the price of everything including the rent and kicking us out on the street broke and hungry I feel like the person running this country right now is an evil mad man and not fit and should be removed from power I feel like most politicians only care for themselves and could care less about the rest of the American people especially if you are different or poor or disabled and you are not a straight or white or Christian they send ice to rip away families orphaning and arresting children and invading homes killing citizens and we are losing freedoms they want to try to take over Greenland which would probably end NATO and cause world war 3 no one will trust us or help us ever again after we betrayed our alliances we are all getting played by the government especially the president I feel like we need to wake up the alarms are ringing but does my voice or vote even matter I feel like I am just a dot in this world being swept under the rug you look away just like poverty and homelessness i feel like we are not looking for a solution only adding to the problem who is going to stand up to this It is downright scary and frightening 

dying pwb0581 Paul bundren

We are trying to stay strong while everything is dying around us and getting cancelled 

I admit that I am scared and nervous 

But I try to hide it I try not to let that show 

We all need each other now 

But we feel distant apart 

Longing for open arms 

Feeling empty 

Can't fill the gaping holes

Left in our broken hearts

All I would like is to see a smile on your face 

But it feels forced

Can't make something if it isn't there  

I guess that there is no going back 

To the way things used to be 

It is hard to admit it is over now 

And it is time to move on with our lives 

This show is over 

And we may never be on stage again 

This could be the last day of our lives 

What do we really know 

Everything we come to know is changing 

People are dying off

What would really be here 20 years from now 

Will we be gone 

I think your death is killing me 

I don't think I can get over it 

Everything is dying all around us 

And we may never be here again 

Just trying to hold on to every second we have left but time is up 

What would happen 5 seconds from now 

We could be gone

what is going on in your head pwb0581 Paul bundren

What is going on your head 

Why do you feel like everything is wrong 

And that you don't belong 

It feels like you are on the edge 

And that you have no say or control 

Maybe that is when enough is enough 

It is impossible to fix everything that is broken in the world 

But you can surely fuck everything up 

What took centuries to build 

Can be tore down in less than a day

Sometimes I want to say fuck it all 

Enough is enough 

Just walk away from everything 

I have had enough of everything 

the end pwb0581 Paul bundren

Is this spiritualing down to the end 

Does it feel like everything draining you down 

I don't really want for things to end up like this 

But sometimes there is only so much you can take before you break 

Know you are not alone 

If you go then so do I 

It has been a long hard road 

Time to find some rest 

Relieve the stress 

To let go of the pain 

No more chaos 

Leave our troubles behind 

Sometimes there is only so much we can take

Before we break down 

Do we really need a reason why to leave 

Who would really know 

We can't give everything everyone wants 

All of the time

Sometimes the pressure is so much to take

Do we really need to answer to everybody's demands

Sometimes it is too much to take 

Before we snap 

Sometimes it is better to let go

Than to hold on 

If you fold then so do I 

Do we really need a reason why 

I don't feel like we need a reason why 

There are times that I feel like dropping everything 

The weight and stress is too much 

It is hard on all of us

It feels like we all got played 

It feels like we all got used 

If this is the end there will be no hard feelings from me 

Sometimes I feel like doing the same thing 

If we leave who would know 

Who would notice 

Goodbye 

turn around pwb0581 Paul bundren

Can we turn around 

Make a u turn 

I know your old self is missing 

Wish I could bring that back 

I really miss when you smile 

Made jokes and made me laugh 

Now all I see is the sadness 

Depression sucks 

I can tell that things are not the same 

Wish there was something I could do or say 

To make things better 

I can tell you are hiding something 

You are keeping things to yourself 

All the pain and trauma is starting to show 

I want you to know that I will try to be someone to talk to 

I know we are all going through things 

I have dealt with trauma and issues of my own 

Nobody is perfect 

I will try to be more understanding 

We all have things we are going through 

I am going through things too

Just to let you know that you don't have to hide yourself from me 

I miss the old you 

Back when we were kids 

Now you keep hiding 

You never smile or talk anymore 

It has been a rough last few last years

And it is starting to take a toll

Wish there was something I can do or say to turn this around 

I'd do anything to try to get you to smile 

Can we turn things around and not drown 

Hopefully it is not too late 

I hope it is not too late 

where is the love pwb0581 Paul bundren

We are trying to play damage control 

There is so much drama

So much going on right now 

Why can't we get along 

Why is there so much hate 

It is no longer fun and games 

People are getting hurt and dying 

What the fuck have I done 

There is so much hate and violence 

These days 

Where is the love 

During these desperate times 

We are all going through pain

Sometimes we feel like abandoned children 

That was born into a world that doesn't want them here

Left to try to figure things out by ourselves 

I don't know if I would erase everything that I have done or every word that I have said 

There was a lot of mistakes along the way 

But from here on forward I would try to be a more caring person 

I would rather build something good then to tear things down I would like to leave something behind that I would be remembered for generations to come

If we can put our hands together 

And work as a team 

Can we be friends not enemies 

There is a lot of things going on wrong with the world today 

If we can stick together 

Get through this together 

One day at a time 

Sometimes we have had our share of ups and downs and we don't agree with everything 

But can we sit down and talk this out instead of fighting trying to hurt each other 

Why can't we help each other instead of hurting each other 

There are a lot of things going on that doesn't make sense 

If we can love each other instead of kill each other the world would be a better place

I know everything is upside down and twisted now and so dark and heavy 

I will try to be by your side and shine the light 

Try to help guide you along the way 

No one deserves to have to go through this journey alone 

I will try to be here for you 

Will you be here for me 

If we can be here for each other 

I think we would be better off

I think the world would be a better place 

If we stick together and be united 

Why can we be friends not enemies 

Try to end these wars instead of starting them

I think what the world needs is love

If we can all hold our hands together 

And love each other I think the world would be a happier place to be 

obligation pwb0581 Paul bundren

Obligation obligation 

Fuck your obligation

I am done 

I am not doing something that I don't want to do and not getting paid for 

Obligation obligation 

Fuck your obligations 

I am not your pushover 

How low can you go 

How dirty can you get 

Would you put the knife in the back 

Would you kill your best friend 

I think I will pass

Obligation obligation 

Fuck your obligations 

Who taught you this 

How low can you go 

How dirty can you get 

Would you put the knife in the back 

Would you kill your best friend 

I think you are a sick little pig

How could you 

I thought I could trust you 

Then you turn around and try to get me killed 

It was pretty clear you were never on my side 

Only playing me all along 

Obligation obligation 

Fuck your obligation

I am done 

the truth pwb0581 Paul bundren

I just want the truth is that too much to ask for 

Who's really there

Who really cares 

I am not buying what you are trying to pass on to me 

Crippled by your distortion 

Feeling dragged down by your hand 

I am losing trust in everything you say 

Been deceived once before 

How am I sure you won't do this again 

I feel like I can no longer abide 

While you are threatening my life 

There is nothing to gain and everything to lose 

I am letting go 

Do you hate me now 

That I stood up for myself 

Are you a selfish bitch 

Do you want it all to yourself 

And none for everyone else 

We would all like some power in our hands 

But at what price to pay to get it 

In the end Is it even worth it 

I am done with your distortion 

No more lies

Just want the truth 

But I don't feel like I can trust anything you say 

I am done being manipulated 

I am not buying what you are trying to pass on to me 

You are doing it to yourself 

You keep robbing from us never paying back 

All of your possessions are possessing you 

Do you even see it

In the end you will be the one who is a fool

We don't want your product of hate and greed 

Take that shit elsewhere 

We don't stand for your hate

We won't be tied down by your restraints 

We are not your whores

We are not your slaves 

We are human beings 

I didn't thought that I could be bought or sold anymore 

But you keep gaslighting changing the rules and breaking the ones you make 

disappointment pwb0581 Paul bundren

Did you not want me

Was I just a reject 

I never felt welcome here

i think I will run away 

Where I am free to be myself 

You turned me away

Did you not want me 

Was I a failure 

Just a disappointment 

Cuz I didn't end up like you want to be 

Does it piss you off that you can't control me 

Was I a reject 

Was I a failure 

Was I just a fucking disappointment 

Are you mad cuz I stood up for myself 

And not follow in your footsteps 

I don't want to relive your sad life 

Of misery and pain 

Let me break free and make my decisions 

Please Let me be myself for just once 

Tired of people telling me how to run my life 

yesterday pwb0581 Paul bundren

I was daydreaming about yesterday 

Back to a more happier place and time 

In our lives 

Back before everything became so complex

Need an escape need an outlet 

From this mad world we live in today

Everything has become so hateful and sensitive 

I tried my hardest to stay out of it 

Sometimes I just zone out

Want to pretend that I am someone else in another place in another time 

The world is almost not even real 

i don't even know how I feel 

What a sad world we live in today 

We all need an escape 

We all need an outlet 

Try to channel these raw emotions into something creative 

What is wrong 

Everything 

Wish I could erase everything 

Everything has been perverted

Turned to evil

Everyone is picking fights

It is a battle that cannot be won

Who is wrong or right 

Can't justify all of this hate

Let's go back to yesterday 

Before everything became so complex

And everything turned into a war

What are we really fighting for 

It feels like we are coming to the end of times 

The bridges are burning 

And we may never be able to go back here again 

To the way things were

Now all I have are memories 

That occur in my dreams 

Real life has become a nightmare 

And I am scared of what the future is going to be 

hiding pwb0581 Paul bundren

Why should I hide my love for someone 

Why do we have to go back in to hiding to make you comfortable 

Are you afraid or just plain hateful 

Why can't we love who we love 

Why must you decide who I am to and not marry 

You don't understand 

You don't live in this body of mine

Why should I have to hide

Why can't I be happy as who I am 

Without you trying to change me

Why do I have to be forced to have children 

Were we born into a world that didn't invite us 

What ever happened to my body my rules

Why can't I hold hands with the person I love 

Without being judged and persecuted 

Without looking behind my back 

Why can't I hold my breath 

Why do I have to hide to make you comfortable 

Are you afraid or just an asshole 

Why can't you let us live our lives

Without being subject to hate and violence 

did we choose violence pwb0581 Paul bundren

Why do we all hate each other 

Why can't we love each other 

Why must everything always have to be a big fight 

Why did we choose violence 

Can we please just make this stop

Let's put this for the record 

My body is not your personal property 

I am not your bitch 

You are not entitled to take advantage of me

Just to use me take everything away with out paying back leaving me with nothing 

I don't agree or consent to this 

Does this come as a bombshell 

How could you not see this coming 

This is a slap in the face 

Of everything our fathers brought to America

Of everything we stood and fought for

I hear the statue of Liberty screaming 

A cry for help

Were we against dictators

It seems like one has took over our country 

There goes our dreams

our retirement our social security 

Down the drain 

Our every effort in vein

All for nothing 

For some excuse I would not call a man

More like a coward in office 

More like a demon a criminal 

Running this country to the ground 

Telling us what we can and cannot do to our bodies and who we love and what religion to follow 

Taking money away from the poor

To fund his war against humanity and equal rights to kill us off 

One by one by one 

They don't want a woman president 

They even want the right to vote away 

Look how they treated Obama 

They tried to blame everything on him 

Would they next want to bring back slavery 

They are trying to abolish the constitution

To take power away from the people 

They don't care about us 

AI is taking our jobs and twisting reality 

All this gaslighting and misinformation on social media and tv

The billionaires get paid 

While the rest of us are on under employed on minimum wage starving and are homeless 

Is this a wake up call 

Can't say I didn't try to warn you 

Look I don't care what you believe in what religion or politics you follow as long as you don't force it down on me 

I don't care or want to know what is in your pants 

Or whoever you are sleeping with 

It is none of my business 

As long as it is with consensual adults and you are not hurting children 

Why can't we spread love instead of hate

It should not matter what color your skin is 

What gender you identify as 

Or what your sexual orientation is 

Why can't we be kind to one another 

Why do we hate each other 

Why must everything always have to be a big fight 

Why did we choose violence 

Can we please just make this stop

are you gone pwb0581 Paul bundren

Are you gone

It is hard to believe 

Are you gone 

It feels like we gotten to know you through your music 

But then you vanished 

Gone in a blink of an eye 

We never met in person 

But you were my best friend 

Hearing your story 

Listening to your songs

I relate with 

Kind of reminds you of me 

Someone dealing with trauma and a rough childhood 

Kind of resonates with me

I feel every lyric you said 

I almost wanted to be like you 

There will never be another you 

It feels like a part of me left with you 

I still can't believe that you are gone

I needed you 

You were like a best friend that I never met in person 

Please come back 

Please come back 

You are never coming back 

I can't accept that you are gone 

Are you gone 

Please come back 

Please come back 

You are never coming back 

I can't accept that you are gone 

so long pwb0581 Paul bundren

So long my brothers 

It has been so long 

Since we felt alive

We have become distant apart 

If I could get the chance for us to be together again I would take it 

The pain we held on to 

Can't replace all that was lost

Through the years 

If I had a do over 

If I could start back over again

I would not waste the time we had 

I would have loved you 

I would have been there when you needed me 

Try to be a better friend 

Wouldn't take things for granted like I did 

Wouldn't let this moment pass me by

I would stand up and try 

Instead of sitting on the sidelines 

Words left unspoken 

Work left undone 

If I had a chance to start over again 

I wouldn't let the opportunities pass me by

I would sing my heart out 

Like there is no tomorrow 

Let's face it our time is borrowed 

We are only here for so long 

If only if we could relive the days when we were young they are all but memories now 

It has been so long

Since we felt alive 

If I had a do over 

I would have listened 

Try to hold on to my brothers and not let go 

Try to be a better friend 

Let the band play 

Like this is the last show of our lives 

Live like no tomorrow 

We won't stay quiet for the likes of our critics

I hope that this is a fuck you to their faces

I had been so long since we felt alive 

We are not going to just lay down and die 

I am going to keep singing keep fighting till my last breath 

sinking ship pwb0581 Paul bundren

I kind of feel like I was dragged into this 

All of your chaos and fear mongering 

I didn't really wanted any part of this 

But I didn't contest or question your authority 

Didn't want to be your next scapegoat

I know I am at the losing end of this 

I don't know why I continue to allow this 

Let you belittle and minimize me

I feel like we are on a sinking ship 

Already in voyage if I jump off do I drown 

Damned if I do 

Damned if don't 

Too many wrongs and no rights

can we talk about it pwb0581 Paul bundren

Can we talk about it 

Instead of stuffing everything down 

It doesn't have to be like this 

Where is the love in this desperate time of war

Would you call on long lost friends that you miss 

Try to Set aside the differences for one day 

Would you drop a coin for humanity 

Build homes for the homeless 

Give hope to the hopeless 

Try to feed the hungry 

Paint a more prettier picture 

The world outside can be dark and cold 

Lets try to escape that place 

Try to create our own safe place 

Let's try to build bridges 

Instead of burning them 

It doesn't have to be like this 

We can be friends 

We can stand together 

No one deserves to walk alone 

In the freezing cold and rain 

We can help each other 

Instead of hurting each other 

Lets shine light on the darkness 

Dream of brighter days

Can we talk about it 

Instead of stuffing it all down 

All of this anger in today's world is driving us all insane 

rest in pieces pwb0581 Paul bundren

Rest in pieces

Once stood dignity and respect 

Now we are the laughing stock of the world 

The butt of our own jokes 

We never thought that this would be us

But now here we are 

You blame me 

I blame you 

We agree to disagree 

Rest in pieces 

Once stood trust 

But now nobody believes us

After we turned our backs on our friends 

They are now our enemies 

Be careful what you wish for 

You are so weak and powerless 

For picking on someone smaller than you 

Are you ashamed of yourself 

ashes to ashes pwb0581 Paul bundren

Ashes to ashes 

Dust to dust 

At the end of the day 

It doesn't matter what effort I put in 

You are just going to tear it down anyway 

You are going to have it your way 

You refuse to listen to me 

You never gave a fuck about me 

Only what you can take from me 

I wonder why I ever put my trust in you

You lied

You promised me one thing 

And did something completely else

You think it is pretty cool 

I think it is pretty evil

Ripping apart families 

And starving your people 

What ever happened to the love 

It seems like it got erased 

Replaced with hate and lies

Innocence has died 

Along with hopes and dreams 

I wonder if my vote ever counted

Or did you hack rig and stole the election

Would you put me away for treason 

Try to have me killed 

Cuz I don't agree with what you are doing to this country 

you may had your followers brainwashed 

But I see right though the corruption 

I will never belong to you 

I cannot be bought or sold 

You will never take me alive 

This is not consent more like rape

Ashes to ashes 

Dust to dust 

At the end of the day 

You are going to have us blown to smithereens are you 

You only give a fuck about yourself 

do you want more pwb0581 Paul bundren

Everything is a cluster fuck right now 

It is a huge mind sore

Most of the time I try to evade it 

But it seems to be resurfacing 

Can't seem to run away from it

The news keeps screaming propaganda 

This is an alarm call 

Cries for answers I don't have 

Why is the world suffering 

We rob from starving children to build corporate leaders mansions

We are at a race to make nuclear bomb heads

Yet we criminalize homelessness

It doesn't seem like we are trying to fix the problems 

Instead making things worse 

What am I supposed to do 

Stand by and do nothing 

Wake up America 

It seems like they are trying to destroy everything our fathers built

They tried to brainwash all of us 

The devil isn't red with horns it is threat level orange wearing a suit and tie 

Disguised as a god 

Taking all of us for a ride to hell 

So he can create his empire 

Of evil intentions 

Haven't this pig had enough 

Yet we keep bowing to his disgusting demands

Leaving us empty handed and feeling used in the end

Do you feel manipulated

Do you feel exhausted 

Welcome to the club 

You think cuz they hurt you and took advantage of you 

Means it is okay to take it out on me

You are just as low as them

Who is going to trust you 

After you turned your back on the people who had yours 

You fed us to the wolves 

Used us as scapegoats so you can get ahead 

Were we just pawns in your dirty game 

In time you will get what you deserve 

Just remember of all the things we could have been 

We could have been one and united loved one another and try to eliminate this hate

It doesn't have to be this way 

Why do they have to turn us against each other 

As we march out towards this war 

Just remember that 

You don't know what you have till it is gone

Haven't you had enough or do you want more of this chaos and confusion I try to block out 

who is keeping score pwb0581 Paul bundren

Who is keeping score 

I have gotten bored 

Sick Of the same shit from yesterday fed over and over again 

They say 

Take this lying down on all fours 

This will be painless 

Said a liar

Maybe this should be you 

You try to shift the blame 

Does this strike a nerve 

That they got the best of you 

You bit the bullet for someone else 

They took credit for the work you did 

Then they tried to erase you 

Like you are a nobody 

I never got paid for what you put me through 

I think it's your turn 

How does it feel when the tables turn 

I won't be used 

I won't be taken for granted anymore 

I am not your bitch 

Before you make me do this 

I want to get paid 

Who is keeping score

I am not your whore

I don't want to play this game anymore 

I think I'll lock my door 

Won't let you inside 

Get out of my life 

This is over 

Before this even begins 

I won't give my life away for free

I won't let you just walk all over me 

I don't want any part of your plans 

To own me 

I think that this is a gimmick 

That this is a scam 

Does this make you angry 

If you take part of this 

If you condone this 

Maybe you are part of the problem 

In the end 

We are going to destroy ourselves from within 

you are not alone pwb0581 Paul bundren

I can tell something is off 

Something is very wrong 

You are not yourself 

You keep falling 

Making the same mistakes

I can't help but sit and stare

I am struggling too 

It feels like we are so far away from home 

No safe place to run and hide

Wandering what next they are going to take away

Our lives are on the line 

And it doesn't seem they care

Can we join in each other's arms 

You don't have to walk this journey alone 

Know that you are not alone 

I'll try to be here for you 

Even though the world seems to be ending 

Getting darker every day 

Things are getting tougher to understand 

Every twist feels like a massive blindside

It feels like Repeated blows to the head

Can we join in each other's arms 

You don't have to walk this journey alone 

Know that you are not alone 

I'll try to be here for you 

You are not alone 

every day is Halloween pwb0581 Paul bundren

Dancing with spiders and snakes 

Every day is Halloween 

Maybe I am a witch 

Where is my broom 

Where is my black cat 

Frighten all the little kids at night 

I'll get you my pretty 

Going to get you and your little dog too

Parents will ban me lol

Maybe send me to jail 

If it was before the revolutionary war

People would want to burn me at the stake 

I am melting lol

Am I a trick or treat 

Hang out with Freddy Chucky and Jason 

I don't think the bakery will let me decorate a cake lol

It might look like something from a crime scene 

All bloody full of body parts 

If I had my way

Every day would be Halloween 

I'd eat all the candy 

Save none for the kids 

Am I an asshole or what lol

slow down pwb0581 Paul bundren

I think I would let you know 

That I have been hurt and lied to before 

That I have trust issues 

I am a little scared 

I am a little paranoid 

I am scared of hooking up 

I heard of past stories of things going wrong 

I am scared it could end up being me

Don't get me wrong 

I think I like you 

I am just scared 

I don't really know you very well 

I think I would like to know more about you 

Before we just get it on

It feels like things are going a bit too fast 

In a hurry 

Please slow down 

I don't know if I can handle or process this all at once 

We don't have to fuck on the first date 

I think I rather slow down 

Maybe this is going too fast 

told you so pwb0581 Paul bundren

Why does this feel like a seizure 

Why does this feel like a rape

It feels like some unseen unknown threat is out to get us unexpectedly from with in

Trying to pay attention 

Keep getting distracted 

Does anyone else feel like this is a lot to take in

Feeling like this is being forced upon 

Under no notice or consent 

Have to drop what you are doing

Pulled away and isolated from family and friends 

For someone else some unidentified stranger

Claims he is my boss that he is a king a god 

Who doesn't give a shit about you or me

Trying to make us lay on all fours 

Fucking us over 

And don't get paid for it instead taking all our money being robbed 

It doesn't feel like a job it feels like slavery 

I think I am walking out today 

Why do we condone or allow this

We are killing our own kind 

This is Holocaust 2.0

Of course they try to erase us

Arrest/Kill anyone who protest who doesn't agree

Haven't we seen this and heard this song 100 times before 

Can't wrap my head around the diabolical destruction of what we help build

We are erasing history and rights

And pointing fingers at someone else 

This is how we fall 

This is how we crawl 

Lifeless and so scared 

Does anyone have a spine 

Or are we just going to allow this to happen 

I can't help to be confused and have so many questions why 

Only to be mislead and lied to 

Denied the truth

Why do keep falling 

Why do we keep crawling 

Lifeless and so scared 

Singing the same song over and over again 

Making no progress only going back 

It seems the pedal is on reverse 

Deliberately sabotaging ourselves 

Over and over again 

Stand up and do something 

Instead of crying doing nothing and allowing this to happen 

Can't say that I told you so

But we didn't listen 

This is our fault 

Told you so 

But you didn't listen 

Now you get everything that is coming to you 

Can't say that I tried to warn you 

I don't believe pwb0581 Paul bundren

Not really sure that I believe in your God

Was your God created to fund the rich 

And exploit the poor

And try to divide the people instead of uniting each other 

Was your God created to not heal the children but to deny healthcare to the sick

And to create holy global war and condone hate 

I am not sure I believe 

I find a lot of things to be disturbing and disgusting

Please don't force politics or religion down on me 

It may not settle very well 

I find a lot of things you preach to be so hateful

I rather go my own way than the path you choose to take 

Don't try to control me

I don't believe or stand for your hate

Is your God even real 

Or is the preacher a stranger trying to hurt us

And violate us

And Who have insecurities of his own 

Is your God going to save me 

Or tell me that everything I love is a sin

why must everything be about money pwb0581 Paul bundren

2025 is such a pain in my ass

I work 40 hours a week 

Trying to choose between food or rent

Tariffs raised the price of everything 

Probably will end up evicted and homeless 

Don't really got any place to go 

I don't drive 

Can't afford a vehicle or insurance or gas 

Stunned paralyzed by what we see

Don't know who's to blame 

But we can't survive this way

More sticker shock 

And Uncle Sam wants his share

The government shuts down 

No one can agree 

Whose side are you on

Everything is corrupt 

Trying to pick the lesser of the evils

This bitch is broke

Yet they still ask for more money 

They are trying to get rid of healthcare 

And Jack the prices up on medicine 

We can't afford to live as is

Where is the love 

Why is everyone so greedy 

I wasn't born in a rich family 

Like some of the silver spoon fed blue collar people 

I Had to work for everything 

And still can't afford what you have 

Do I still get the same rights as you 

Do you even care 

Or are you stuck up 

Won't even donate a dime to charity 

It is clear to me 

We live in a world we don't understand 

Where the rich get richer

And the poor get poorer

And nobody gives a fuck about you 

Unless you have money 

we are not ok pwb0581 Paul bundren

Sometimes I am not ok

And need somebody to go to for support 

Sometimes it feels like there's nowhere to run 

The world can be an evil place 

And the weight is getting heavier 

Sometimes I need someone to talk to 

Things are feeling so dark 

Sometimes you are not ok

And need somebody to go to for support 

And that is ok

I will try to be here for you 

We can share our pain together 

You don't have to walk this journey alone

I will try to be here for you 

Sometimes we are not ok 

And that is alright

It seems like everyone is addicted to drama 

Sometimes we need a place to escape from this madness 

Sometimes we are all not ok

And that is alright 

I will try to be here for you 

We can share our pain together 

You don't have to walk this journey alone 

break pwb0581 Paul bundren

Just cause you can do something means you should sometimes I just want to put everything down and run away 

I don't know why I keep holding on

Sometimes I want to let go

Is there any hope 

I feel like I am constantly trying to catch my breath 

Always falling over myself 

I feel distracted by too many events going on in the world today 

It is hard to keep up with the pace

It feels like everyone is always expecting more from me without paying back 

The more you do the more they want 

It is hard to keep up 

What would happen if I quit 

Can you handle this

The load seems to keep piling up 

I feel like I am at my breaking point 

Can I please take a break 

I feel scared now 

What else is next 

I feel like they are trying to take my rights away 

And make me their slave 

Maybe I need a break 

Maybe I need a break 

I am asking 

Can I please take a break 

Can I take a break 

Can I take a break 

I am asking 

Can I please take a break 

the white flag ain't waving pwb0581 Paul bundren

Sinister administrator 

Wicked administrator 

Show me just how you are Mr right 

Steering us all in the ditch 

You want it all 

And want it now 

It all comes with one price 

Human lives

At your disposal 

I worked my ass off and you took credit for it 

I paid for your mistakes you lied and turned around and do this intentionally 

I hope someday you get what is coming to you 

We know we are fucked 

But we hold on 

Defiant till the end 

We won't give up 

We'll fight for our share to exist 

Let us belong here 

We ain't going nowhere 

We will step out feet down 

We won't go down without Resistance 

This won't be a swan song 

We will carry on as legends

Go ahead and take us out 

We will go down as martyrs 

There are plenty more of us

That will remember what you did to us 

You can't erase us

We will not be forgotten 

You will be the fool

In the end go down as the lowest of the low

You are no leader you are a nobody to us

How cowardly to use human shields to protect you 

You try to cover your wicked lies

One after another 

But can you keep your hands clean 

your paper trail is a mile long 

The holes in your story are starting to crack 

Who is going to believe you now 

After you sold us out to save yourself 

You want to take me out 

Go ahead 

But there are plenty more of us 

That want to take the power back in our hands 

And Clean up the mess you made

You left a big stain

How are you going to explain 

With more lies and misinformation 

No one is going to believe you 

We all know you are not sorry 

We know we are fucked 

But we hold on 

Defiant till the end 

We won't give up 

This is not our swan song 

We still have plenty of energy left 

The white flag ain't waving yet

who's crying now pwb0581 Paul bundren

We won't be your puppets anymore 

We won't be your scapegoats anymore 

Tired of walking on eggshells 

You see you can't control us anymore 

We are not your whores

I will be leaving your sorry ass behind 

And we will be seeing who is crying now

You can't manipulate me 

You can't control me 

And no you don't own me

I have a voice 

And I am using it today 

I won't be playing your games anymore 

We won't be your puppets anymore 

We won't be your scapegoats anymore 

Tired of walking on eggshells 

You see you can't control us anymore 

We are not your whores

I will be leaving your sorry ass behind 

And we will be seeing who is crying now

I am not your gopher 

I am not your guinea pig 

I am not willing to lay down and die for you 

With nothing to gain 

No more letting the wool being pulled over my eyes 

Time to wake up 

We won't be your puppets anymore 

We won't be your scapegoats anymore 

Tired of walking on eggshells 

You see you can't control us anymore 

We are not your whores

I will be leaving your sorry ass behind 

And we will be seeing who is crying now

Look who's crying now 

You are just a crazy clown 

painkiller pwb0581 Paul bundren

Need a painkiller 

Run from the pain

Run from the pain

Trying to find somewhere safe 

Need a painkiller 

Run from the pain 

Run from the pain 

Try to find somewhere safe 

My head hurts

From trying to take in all this information 

I rather not know 

I turn off the news

It is too depressing 

Same shit different day 

Stop the violence 

Need a painkiller 

Run from the pain 

Run from the pain

Trying to find somewhere safe 

Need a painkiller 

Run from the pain

Run from the pain 

Try to find somewhere safe 

Stop the violence 

Stop the noise 

Need a painkiller 

Run from the pain 

Run from the pain 

Trying to find somewhere safe 

Need a painkiller 

Run from the pain 

Run from the pain 

Try to find somewhere safe 

i walk alone pwb0581 Paul bundren

Things are confusing 

There is no one here that I know 

It feels like everyone is fake 

Life is one big facade 

Who do I trust 

I feel like I am out on a limb 

Up a creek with out a paddle 

Most people are too stuck up themselves 

So now I walk alone 

This city is no longer my home 

More like a nightmare 

Feels like everyone is screaming at me 

Things that make no sense to me 

I guess I will always be alone 

I feel like I am better off without the fake love 

Being back stabbed 

Kind of knew I was a one man army 

In this relationship 

Doing everything getting nothing out of it

I am turning away 

I am no longer interested 

Through with trying to fix everyone 

Sabotaging myself 

So now I walk alone 

This city is no longer my home 

More like a nightmare 

Feels like everyone is screaming at me 

Things that make no sense to me 

I guess I will always be alone

Rather be myself

Than in a one sided relationship 

So now I walk alone 

This city is no longer my home 

More like a nightmare 

Feels like everyone is screaming at me 

Things that make no sense to me 

I guess I will always be alone

This is not my home 

take me back pwb0581 Paul bundren

Please take me back 

Why is life such a chore

Let's go back to 1994

When I was just 13 years old 

We lived in the country 

We used to go to the doggie Lodge and get a soda from the machine on our bikes

Heard that place doesn't exist anymore 

I'd play the original final fantasy on the nes

Those days were kryptonite 

Take me back to the days when things were easy 

Now my folks most of them are long dead and gone 

It is just us now 

And we are very far apart 

We hardly talk to each other 

Shit is real

We shifted into high gear 

Counting the years

There are no brakes 

Take me back to the days when things were easy 

Back before Facebook 

Back before people got offended by everything 

We used to get dropped off in town skating till 6am unsupervised no parents 

Now the world is dark and scary 

Constantly changing 

Strangers become friends 

Friends become strangers 

Where have I been 

Why is life such a chore 

Now my back is sore 

Can't afford to retire 

Still working 

No time to watch tv

Guess I'll sleep when I am dead

Take me back to the days when things were easy 

you can't convert me pwb0581 Paul bundren

You can't save me 

You can't convert me

Suppressing my feelings 

Only makes me feel more down

And dislike you even more 

I come to terms 

On accepting myself the way I am 

And not trying to change 

On the likes of someone else 

Who doesn't appreciate me

I learned that I was different from a young age

I was not like the other boys 

I wasn't good at sports 

I wasn't very strong 

I used to like to draw

And play with stuffed animals

I don't know why I was weird 

And didn't fit in with my peers

I isolated myself 

Even hated myself 

For being different 

You can't save me 

You can't convert me

Suppressing my feelings 

Only makes me feel more down

And dislike you even more 

I come to terms 

On accepting myself the way I am 

And not trying to change 

On the likes of someone else 

Who doesn't appreciate me

As time passed by 

I learned to love myself 

Accept myself in the skin I am in

Should I have to be afraid for my life 

Cuz of who I am 

You can't save me 

You can't convert me

Suppressing my feelings 

Only makes me feel more down

And dislike you even more 

I come to terms 

On accepting myself the way I am 

And not trying to change 

On the likes of someone else 

Who doesn't appreciate me

Trying to change me makes me even want to defy you even more 

I'll try to be there pwb0581 Paul bundren

When the events that are happening in the world is just too much to take 

I'll try to be there with open arms 

And try to save you from the darkness 

Sometimes life is a bitter pill to swallow 

The water is way too deep 

It feels like you are drowning

Choking gasping for air 

And there is no one there to save you 

You are getting kicked down the stairs 

Doesn't seem anyone cares 

When the wind takes you off your feet 

When you just can't seem to get by

When you run out of chances to try

When everything happening in the world is just too much 

I'll try to be there with open arms

And try to save you from the darkness 

 

This world is filled with so much hatred 

There is so much you can't relate with 

Can't slow this down 

Can't rewind 

It feels like everything is on fast forward 

Dancing with two left feet 

Walking down a dark street 

All alone 

Far from home 

Who is going to reach out  

When the wind takes you off your feet 

When you just can't seem to get by

When you run out of chances to try

When everything happening in the world is just too much 

I'll try to be there with open arms

And try to save you from the darkness 

I'll try to be there for you when the world turns dark and grey.

Understand we all have issues we are going through 

 

When the wind takes you off your feet 

When you just can't seem to get by

When you run out of chances to try

When everything happening in the world is just too much 

I'll try to be there with open arms

And try to save you from the darkness 

I would have done something pwb0581

I feel horrible 

I did nothing

As I watched you suffer

Had issues of my own 

I couldn't help you with yours 

We went to the same school with each other

For a time 

We worked at the same restaurant 

I was living with my father at the time 

Trying to get on my feet 

It wasn't easy to watch you go

If I would knew 

I would say something 

But I was trying to protect myself 

I would of been your friend 

But your life came to an end 

Before I could say goodbye 

If had a do over

I'd reach a hand 

I'd trade places

It wasn't cool of me to ignore you 

And watch you suffer 

Circling down the drain 

I was too worried about myself 

I watched you basically take your own life 

It is a regret I can't reverse 

I feel like a monster 

I was trying to look out for myself 

If I had a do over I would do something 

Say something 

Instead of watching you go 

violence is not the answer pwb0581

Two wrongs don't make a right

Just because you don't agree with someone 

Doesn't give you an excuse to kill them 

A man was taken away from his family and friends 

This is not ok

Even if you don't like someone

Even if he was a bigot and a racist 

We should not be celebrating someone's death that is just completely wrong 

It doesn't matter what side you are on

Killing is wrong there is no excuse

Violence is not the answer 

Instead of spreading hate

We should be spreading love 

it's over now pwb0581 Paul bundren

I had to block you out 

To work on myself 

I can't deal with your problems

And mine too 

Hopefully you can find someone else 

I am tired of shutting down 

So I can be with you 

It is over now 

Tired of being numb 

Tired of being down 

I want control of myself 

I am tired of someone telling me 

What to be

I am taking a different step 

A different approach 

Maybe I have to cut people out 

To work on myself 

Sorry not sorry 

For trying to fix myself 

Is it selfish 

For wanting to better myself 

I am tired of the pain 

I am tired of lying to be with you 

Tired of the fake love

I am just not happy 

Tired of being afraid to say how I feel 

It is over now

Tired of suppressing my feelings 

Tired of holding back my life

To impress someone else 

Tired of feeling like I am being taken advantage of tired of hiding from and lying to my family and my friends 

From here on out 

I am putting my foot down 

I won't be your stepping stone anymore 

lay to rest pwb0581 Paul bundren

Lay to rest 

Suffer no more

Let the dead sleep 

No more sad songs 

Only brighter days 

From here on out

Life begins again 

Lay to rest 

You will not be forgotten 

May you finally be at peace 

Sleep forever 

No more sad songs 

Only brighter days 

From here on out 

Live begins again 

In spirit you are still alive 

I keep you in my memory 

Lay to rest 

Suffer no more 

You were my friend 

But God needed you more

May you finally be at peace 

No more sad songs 

Only brighter days 

From here on out 

Lay to rest 

pwb0581- lost dog by paul bundren

howl if you hear me

howl if you are out there 

looking for a lost dog

lost friend of mine

lost America

lost beauty

lost energy

lost soul

lost pride

hope died

I was living a lie

inspiration dead

looking for a lost dog

a lost friend

can't find their way back home

turned away

I'm just a child no one wants

just a lost dog

never had a lucky day

dreams vanish and disappear

can't recognize anything

nothing as appears

people can't see my tears

looking for a lost dog

a lost friend of mine

that got forgotten

like a lost toy

kicked around along the way

that can't be recovered

I'm just a grown-up broken child

lost his best friend

looking for a lost dog

I may never find

I feel alone

I feel traumatized 

I am missing something

can't put my finger around it

lost America

lost beauty

lost energy

lost soul

lost pride

hope died

I was living a lie

inspiration dead

looking for a lost dog

a lost friend

I can't find

howl if you hear me

howl if you are out there

looking for a lost dog

lost friend of mine