shut down pwb0581 Paul bundren

Sometimes people suck 

That could be why I am crawling back in my shell 

I try to brace myself for this 

But I feel like I am succumbing under the pressure 

It feels like the more you give the more they take and the more they expect without even asking 

And they don't care if you get hurt 

And are even mean about it and backlash if they don't get their way 

When is enough enough 

Sometimes I feel like shutting down

This ain't me anymore 

I lost my personality trying to impress people who don't care about me 

Only seeing what they can get out of me then leaving me with nothing and dragging my name in the mud

I should have seen this coming

But I was blind 

I don't know why I allowed this 

I Guess I felt like I was at rock bottom

And thought I had nothing to lose 

But it seems like the pain outweighed the prize and I am still paying for it

I feel like I am losing my breath trying to keep up 

I don't know if this is beneficial to me to keep going 

ghosted pwb0581 Paul bundren

I feel like I am dangling by a thread

Feeling like I got no one who can help me at all 

Feeling left in the dark 

Without all the pieces to the puzzle 

You broke this 

Why can't you fix this  

I feel like I was lead on

Why do you leave me chasing

hanging High and dry for the 100th time 

You throw it in my face 

Then take it all away 

I was too trusting in you 

Only to let my guard down 

And everything unravels at the seams 

Guess I took a chance 

Knowing that there was a risk of losing everything 

I try to prepare myself for this 

But there is really no way of knowing 

I feel like everything is falling apart 

Dying in my hands 

Dying In my hands 

Now I am lost

Back at square one 

I thought the answer was in you

But now I'm questioning everything 

Were you even being true

Or playing me and lying to me just seeing what you can get from me 

Sometimes I feel spent and defeated 

I think think I am looking for something more long term than being left in the middle of the night 

But sometimes my mind plays tricks on me 

And nothing is for certain 

Sometimes I wonder if there will ever be a tomorrow 

You leave me reading in between the lines while you ghost me 

final resting place pwb0581

There is a lot of things that I would like to state

I feel like something is happening here

I am not really sure if it is a good thing or a bad thing 

I'm trying to process everything 

And look at the whole picture

My brain is working overtime on overdrive 

It keeps me awake at night and sick to my stomach 

There A lot of things that are misunderstood

 and is penetrating skull fucking my mind 

I feel like I am in a vulnerable position naked strapped down but not in a consensual way 

It feels like my soul has been murdered 

I don't mean to confuse you with all of these crazy things jumping out all of a sudden 

It kind of feels like we are all caught off guard

The only thing that is predictable is uncertainty living in a world of madness 

Full of hate and greed and chaos 

I don't think that this is gods plan 

If there is even a god

This feels like a curse in vain 

The rules are always changing 

So you don't know where you stand 

So before we go any further I want my share

Tired of being directed behind the bush 

In the weeds

Only to get screwed time and time again 

Just to point things out 

There is a lot of wolves dressed as sheep  

It is getting harder to recognize the threats

Who are cons

That often come up when you least expect and don't realize what is happening til it's too late this is obviously a scam 

This is rape and robbery of everything that we thought we knew and loved 

Even a blind man can see this from over a mile away coming in crystal clear 

They try to kill you and say it is justified 

Erase you and act if you never existed 

Question is where do we go from here 

And how do we fix this 

There don't seem to be a simple solution 

The system is broken 

People keep coming up with scapegoats

I feel like nobody is innocent 

And we are all to blame 

Is this how things are supposed to end 

The rich taking it all from the poor

Leaving the rest in poverty and starvation 

Forcing extinction 

I wish I could dream that this would be over with that I could run away and escape reality 

Does anybody hear the cries for help 

Or are the signs ignored 

You wonder if anyone cares at all 

The forecast looks like it is calling for world war weather 

Things are seeming like they are turning nuclear 

Don't really know what to say about it without offending someone and getting bombs dropped on me

Don't really know how to answer to this

Things have become unpredictable and hostile 

People are expecting quick sudden responses trying to catch you off guard 

And fueling off the chaos 

But there are so many questions 

Is this even the right move to react with the bullies getting a kick off it and painting you as the bad guy 

Why do we have to kill each other

Who does this even benefit 

I keep saying the same things over and over time and time again and getting ignored does my voice even matter or do you throw me away like a piece of trash

Do I just sit back and watch this whole thing unravel and fall apart

The world is on fire and looking for something 

We can't put a finger on

C'mon throw a dog a bone 

Please don't leave me in the dark 

It doesn't seem like we are trying to fix the problems only aggravating and making things worse 

This is not only evil it should be a crime

And of course the rich make to poor to pay for this 

Your money or your life 

As your life is served on a platter

Flashing right in front of your eyes 

What did you accomplish 

What did you stood for and 

Do you have any regrets 

What would you like to leave behind 

Not sure if I am dead or dying yet

I'm no hero I'm no saint 

But I think I would like to try to leave things in a better place 

Will this be our final resting place 

Will this be a new genocide 

I hope that this is not true 

Will there be another tomorrow 

Are we just living for today 

 

total control pwb0581

You wanted total control you got it 

It seems like some of the worst of my fears are confirmed 

I am getting the sense of impending doom

They are trying to control and manipulate all of us 

They are replacing freedom with surveillance and totalitarianism

Trying to watch everything 

If you are not 2 moves ahead 

You are 3 steps behind 

These days if you even look at someone wrong they are butthurt 

I am trying to not be on the wrong side of things and get attacked for it 

Most of the time I just try to go with the flow 

Instead of against the grain

Honestly I don't really trust most people as far as I can throw them anymore 

But most of the time I have stayed on the sidelines and not tried to question authority 

But is our best interest even in mind

Am I even allowed to defend myself

It seems like you have to be careful what you say or do cuz they try to twist it and pin it on you without a way to back out of 

I see you trying to broadcast my mistakes publicly on Main Street 

Trying to make me the talk of the town

While trying to act like you were never wrong 

While trying to blackmail me

I hope you get what comes around 

Ten fold

We all know no one was innocent here 

But the weight of the shoulders fall on me 

This is not happiness it is forced compliance 

They are trying to eliminate the next one who is out of line 

Til no one is left standing

Do you feel big and tall by picking on someone less fortunate 

Is this how it has got to be 

Guess we will see which side lady karma is on in history