freak pwb0581 Paul bundren

Sometimes I freak myself out 

Not sure what I am capable of doing 

Sometimes I surprise myself 

I am not really sure how I am feeling 

Things are shape shifting so fast and unexpectedly 

Tough times are bringing out the different sides of people including me 

I could feel one way now 

And it could be something completely different later

Things have become unpredictable 

We have all been going through changes

Sometimes I don't know how to word this 

Sometimes things don't come out the right way 

Sometimes I studder

Sometimes I stumble and fall over myself 

Sometimes it is me that gets in the way 

In the most uncomfortable weird ways 

Sometimes I look over my shoulder 

And pace the floors

Second guessing myself trying not to repeat the same mistakes 

Sometimes I overthink things 

If I had do overs or take backs from the past maybe there would be a few things that I would change but can't dwell on it and let it hold me back 

Sometimes I feel out of place and out of line 

Born into a world where not everyone is kind or wants you here and and can be cruel feels like people are competing against each other and tries to pick out your flaws even things that you can't control or change 

I have never felt 100 percent comfortable in my skin 

I have always felt weird from right from the beginning at birth like I never fit in anywhere like I have always been a misfit a reject a non conformity an outcast an oddball everywhere I go feeling like I don't belong here 

Sometimes I choke to find the right things to say

I fuck things up time and time again

Sometimes I would rather leave than to explain to what feels like to strangers and critiques I don't really know 

Sometimes I am my biggest critic myself

Is this just my imagination 

And things are not as hard or bad as they seem 

Sometimes this world seems to be like one big nightmare 

Is it all just in my mind 

Was I screwed from right from the start

I always feel like there is more pieces of the puzzle than what I was handed here

And it feels like a dog eat dog world

And we are all starving and nobody wants to be eaten alive 

Sometimes there is so much going on 

Demanding a lot of attention 

Been trying not to let things get the best of me 

Been trying not to let anything drag me down

I will say this even if it causes controversy I would rather go out with a bang taking risks even if it doesn't pay off than to lay low and doing nothing and wondering what could have should have would have might have been

I think I would rather be a freak than to be normal 

What is normal anyway 

be careful what you wish for pwb0581 Paul bundren

WTF! They are trying to build a data center without our consent?!

Not in my backyard!

Do we get a say in this?

This could be my unpopular opinion 

But it seems like a lot of people are looking for ways to knock people down than to help a poor man out 

Instead of fixing the problems often they are adding insult to injury 

Sorry not sorry 

I see you trying to save your own ass

By trying to paint other people guilty for your crimes 

There is still a lot of bias and discrimination here today just in different shapes and forms

And often invisible 

I feel like you are trying to use me as a scapegoat 

Gaslighting and twisting words 

And weaponizing information against people

To your advantage 

Catfish scammers using other peoples pictures without permission robbing and exploiting mostly vulnerable unsuspecting hard working honest kind people like me it makes me sick 

Often you don't realize that you are the victim til it is too late leaving you paying and trying to clean up the mess often for a lifetime 

Bullies posting anonymously on social media 

Trolling people 

I wish these cowards would show their face and be exposed 

It seems like little or nothing is being done about it 

Sometimes I feel so isolated and not really sure what do or say to confront the situation without it coming back to bite me and getting attacked for it

Big tech companies trying to buy up all the property including farmland to build data centers to stalk on you and giving our jobs to ai and robots we can't afford food or rent or utilities leaving us evicted and starving and penniless on the street with no shelter

And can't drive cuz cost of gas and insurance is insane and rising above our income 

What do you care more about your followers or the dollar signs

Are we all brainwashed 

It seems like we are in the land of the no longer free

I am sure a wealthy CEO probably disagrees 

What are you going to do 

Block me fire me erase me sue me imprison me kill me

Be careful what you wish for 

Will you wake up laughing when tomorrow they try to do the same to you 

keep going in your memory pwb0581 Paul bundren

Life is getting hard 

With you not around 

I keep longing for what is gone and don't exist anymore 

Open arms trying to hug empty air 

Wish I could pull you down from the clouds

Things used to be simple 

But now things are more complex and harder to relate than ever 

I feel like I am alone 

And got nowhere to turn to

I missed all of your advice 

Things will never be the same ever again 

Wish I could grow wings and drag you out of heaven but I can't 

Guess God needed you more 

Things have turned cold and unforgiving since you have gone away 

Honestly I'm am scared what the future will be with everything uncertain and unpredictable

There is a lot of fear and anxiety 

Sometimes I don't want to be around anymore 

But some of your last words were to keep fighting never give up don't lay down and die don't let others drag you down so I will try to keep going in your memory 

overkill pwb0581 Paul bundren

This is killing with a capital K

I understand that life is hard 

And nothing is fair but 

I love how you keep changing the rules in your favor where nobody can win and keep fucking the rest of us 

I love the way you take take take and never give 

I love how you always make me pay but when it is your turn you play ding dong ditch

I love the way you kill me how do you do it without blood on your hands staying so clean 

You had me laying down held on the side of the road to get ran over and left for dead

And if wasn't deceased you put the bus in reverse then back in forward then run me over again 

I guess I should have seen the warning signs 

Your charm was misleading into something more sinister I should have seen right through you 

Red flags were waving from miles away 

Guess I had a poor taste of judgement 

Went against my own advice 

Kept Second guessing myself

I had some concerns 

But gave the benefit of the doubt

And got fooled time and time again 

I should have went with my gut

I was left hook line and sinker 

I was just your flavor of the week 

While you left me for dead for you next fix only to probably do the same to them

I wish there was a way to pull the mask off your face and reveal who you truly are 

But you remain anonymous behind a blank screen 

I wish I was paying more attention 

Instead of ending up in a situation like this 

Where people are taken advantage including me 

The damage is done and it is almost too late to recover from 

I do believe what comes around usually goes around 

I hope someday you get your turn 

I hope people see you for who you are 

Just tired of laying down and being walked on by people like you 

You used me and discarded me like trash 

I hope you get what you put me through 

Black and blue 

Who really deserves this 

Is this really a life to live 

Is there any remorse