paralyzed pwb0581 Paul bundren

I feel like I am blacking out 

I am spazzing out

I think I am shell shocked in disbelief 

So many things happening so fast 

And unexpectedly beyond control 

I am not really sure how I feel about it 

It feels like there is a lot of things that are being passed around 

It is getting harder to tell what is real anymore

There is a lot of dread

A lot of false high hopes 

It sort of feels like I am paralyzed 

And it doesn't seem like there is a way to wake up from this 

The unexpected has become the new norm

Will there even be a tomorrow 

strained pwb0581 Paul bundren

Lately things have been strained 

There were some things that I would have liked to do 

There was things that I would have liked to build and create 

But I couldn't see things getting in the way 

i guess that it wasn't meant to be 

I don't know if I can be able to keep the promises that I made back so long ago 

Time has gone by 

Everything has changed 

And things have shifted 

We are not the same people anymore 

And things have become unrecognizable 

There are some things that you are into that I am not 

And some things that I am into that you are not 

It looks like we are not compatible 

And everyone is absent 

We are at a non agreement 

Consent is everything 

And can be backed out of at any time 

It can't be forced or manipulated 

It has to be an agreement with everyone involved 

Not a one way street 

It has been harder to find the light in the darkness

Just wish I could find somebody someone to help me through this 

Is there anything out there for me

In a world full of craziness and confusion 

Is there any way to simplify things 

Why must everything be so complicated 

Why does it feel like I am on my own in this

And walking alone 

Things don't seem right and are not making sense 

I hate to leave things on bad terms 

But Sometimes things are beyond repair 

And not worth fixing 

Sometimes it is better to walk away 

driven pwb0581 Paul bundren

My latest episode may send me to the psych ward

They may say that I lost my mind 

That I am crazy 

But I feel like you made me 

I am a product of my environment 

I feel like I have been driven here

This can't be undone

It is burned forever in my memory 

Now I am dealing with the aftermath 

Of what you created 

Things running through my head I can't understand to this day 

I felt like I got tricked manipulated and used 

You put me here 

Why can't you fix this

You leave me behind 

Dealing with the mess you made 

I hope I don't end up like you 

With all of your hate

But the rage is driving me insane 

I need to leave this place 

And never come back 

Why is everything so creepy crawling back in my head again it feels like I can't escape 

It feels like your voice is still in my head screaming at me 

It feels hard to block it out