freak pwb0581 Paul bundren

Sometimes I freak myself out 

Not sure what I am capable of doing 

Sometimes I surprise myself 

I am not really sure how I am feeling 

Things are shape shifting so fast and unexpectedly 

Tough times are bringing out the different sides of people including me 

I could feel one way now 

And it could be something completely different later

Things have become unpredictable 

We have all been going through changes

Sometimes I don't know how to word this 

Sometimes things don't come out the right way 

Sometimes I studder

Sometimes I stumble and fall over myself 

Sometimes it is me that gets in the way 

In the most uncomfortable weird ways 

Sometimes I look over my shoulder 

And pace the floors

Second guessing myself trying not to repeat the same mistakes 

Sometimes I overthink things 

If I had do overs or take backs from the past maybe there would be a few things that I would change but can't dwell on it and let it hold me back 

Sometimes I feel out of place and out of line 

Born into a world where not everyone is kind or wants you here and and can be cruel feels like people are competing against each other and tries to pick out your flaws even things that you can't control or change 

I have never felt 100 percent comfortable in my skin 

I have always felt weird from right from the beginning at birth like I never fit in anywhere like I have always been a misfit a reject a non conformity an outcast an oddball everywhere I go feeling like I don't belong here 

Sometimes I choke to find the right things to say

I fuck things up time and time again

Sometimes I would rather leave than to explain to what feels like to strangers and critiques I don't really know 

Sometimes I am my biggest critic myself

Is this just my imagination 

And things are not as hard or bad as they seem 

Sometimes this world seems to be like one big nightmare 

Is it all just in my mind 

Was I screwed from right from the start

I always feel like there is more pieces of the puzzle than what I was handed here

And it feels like a dog eat dog world

And we are all starving and nobody wants to be eaten alive 

Sometimes there is so much going on 

Demanding a lot of attention 

Been trying not to let things get the best of me 

Been trying not to let anything drag me down

I will say this even if it causes controversy I would rather go out with a bang taking risks even if it doesn't pay off than to lay low and doing nothing and wondering what could have should have would have might have been

I think I would rather be a freak than to be normal 

What is normal anyway