Monday, September 15, 2025
you can't convert me pwb0581 Paul bundren
Saturday, September 13, 2025
I'll try to be there pwb0581 Paul bundren
I would have done something pwb0581
violence is not the answer pwb0581
it's over now pwb0581 Paul bundren
Monday, September 8, 2025
lay to rest pwb0581 Paul bundren
Monday, August 11, 2025
pwb0581- lost dog by paul bundren
howl if you hear me
howl if you are out there
looking for a lost dog
lost friend of mine
lost America
lost beauty
lost energy
lost soul
lost pride
hope died
I was living a lie
inspiration dead
looking for a lost dog
a lost friend
can't find their way back home
turned away
I'm just a child no one wants
just a lost dog
never had a lucky day
dreams vanish and disappear
can't recognize anything
nothing as appears
people can't see my tears
looking for a lost dog
a lost friend of mine
that got forgotten
like a lost toy
kicked around along the way
that can't be recovered
I'm just a grown-up broken child
lost his best friend
looking for a lost dog
I may never find
I feel alone
I feel traumatized
I am missing something
can't put my finger around it
lost America
lost beauty
lost energy
lost soul
lost pride
hope died
I was living a lie
inspiration dead
looking for a lost dog
a lost friend
I can't find
howl if you hear me
howl if you are out there
looking for a lost dog
lost friend of mine
Tuesday, August 5, 2025
?2025- pwb0581 paul bundren
where to begin everything is a fucking mess lines crossed bodies buried in the sand there is no turning back no more friends no more allies everyone for themselves it is dog eat dog flesh and bone no more kings we are out to dethrone clearly we haven't learned our lesson now there is hell to pay with human lives as dollar signs when are we going to get paid for the work we did I thought slavery was outlawed were we mislead were we the fools taken advantage of by hate and greed will I die for these words that were said I feel like we have been manipulated and bullied for way too long can we put the power back in the people's hands state the obvious this is abuse of power for corporate gain when will people are we blind why do we let a false prophet dictator criminal control us with our bodies with our minds with our money like it means a thing
Sunday, July 20, 2025
none 4 all pwb0581
fixer upper pwb0581
Saturday, July 5, 2025
pwb0581 failure
pwb0581 throw away
Wednesday, April 9, 2025
Paul bundren pwb0581 lost friend
Paul bundren pwb0581 rock and roll will never die
Paul bundren pwb0581 don't want to be king
Paul bundren pwb0581 your drugs
Paul bundren pwb0581 some days
Paul bundren pwb0581 can we get along
Why can't we get along
Why do we have to fight
Why must everything be so evil
Why must everything be about money
When did this all began
And how do we stop this
This isn't how we raised
Our ancestors would roll in their grave
If they knew what was going on
This is not love for one another it is blasphemy
Can we turn things around
Can we turn back time
Can we change this story
End this tragedy before it begins
Can we get out of the car about to crash
And escape our death
Why must everything be a sad sad song
why do we keep singing along on repeat
Why can't we get along
Why can't we love each other
Make this world be a more happier place to be
Make a difference
Make a stand
Don't let others decide for you
Why are we laying down and dying for hate to eat us alive and take our souls
Can we rebuild this home
Make it a happier place to be
Why must we fight
Can we talk this out peacefully
Can we fix this dysfunctional family
Can we try to paint a picture that is more prettier
Can we get along
Try to make this world a better place for you and me to live in
Paul bundren pwb0581 invisible
Paul bundren pwb0581 I won't tell them your name
Paul bundren pwb0581 your ghost
Tuesday, February 11, 2025
common denominator pwb0581 Paul bundren
Thursday, January 30, 2025
hate in the name of god pwb0581 paul bundren
in the name of love
trying to overcome
this hate among us
this fear inside us
this paranoia around
is it safe to go outside
feels like we are running for our lives
crawling among us are snakes in the grass
who do we trust now
now that there are traitors among us
better watch your back this world is turning cold
who can i even count on
being betrayed by everyone
now thrown to the wolves
if i don't die
i'll become leader of the pack
got your name craved in stone
i'll drag you threw the mud
i won't put up with this anymore
i am not your slave
i am not your whore
who was really keeping score
people pitting other people against each other (entitled bullies)
this is not unity
this is animosity
spread by cowards in power
trying to control
trying to conquer the world
when confronted they come up with other scapegoats
they never take the blame for their crimes committed against us
they never listen to what we have to say do they
they believe their own lies enough to think it is true
time to reveal who is behind the mask
time for the truth can you handle that or twist it like you do everything else
hate in the name of god
we are all going to hell
Wednesday, January 29, 2025
breaking the silence pwb0581 Paul bundren
this is what you asked for pwb0581 Paul bundren
I don't want to be you pwb0581 Paul bundren
Wednesday, January 22, 2025
pick a side pwb0581 paul bundren
pick a side
either way i'm fucked
i can't be myself
being who you want me to be
i don't want to have to pick a side
i don't want to be the enemy
but we are coming to the point of a war
we are coming to a point of no return
we all agree to disagree
every time someone says something is an arguement
another fight
what ever happened to free speech
everything is bias these days
they crucify you if you don't fit the norm
When they leave you laying at the side of the road
When they pick the meat off your bones
whose side are you really on
wheels on the bus pwb0581 Paul bundren
Tuesday, January 21, 2025
hollow ground pwb0581 Paul bundren
Thursday, January 2, 2025
I thought you should know pwb0581 Paul bundren
Wednesday, December 25, 2024
in my mind by Paul bundren pwb0581
Thursday, December 12, 2024
pwb0581- place in this world
place in this world
it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. feeling lost don't know where i fit in. it is scary feels like a war going on and i'm fighting a losing battle. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. sometimes i feel weird like i don't belong, want to run out of my skin, sometimes i just want to be someone else cuz don't feel like i fit in. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. feeling lost don't know where i fit in. it is scary feels like a war going on and i'm fighting a losing battle. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. times are changing and i am just trying to adapt to it sometimes i feel like a dot in this world do i even matter? it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. feeling lost don't know where i fit in. it is scary feels like a war going on and i'm fighting a losing battle. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world
pwb0581- bloody hands
bloody hands
it used to be so simple now everything is so complicated. no matter what i do i am fucked. seems like i am making enemies and not friends. trying to take a step forward but instead taking steps back. no matter what i do i cant stay clean always trying to wash these bloody hands. cant seem to make peace. always trying to wash these bloody hands. it used to be easy but now it is hard. trying not to offend someone but i end up pissing people off anyway. the more i do the more they hate. i cant please everyone. no matter what i do i cant stay clean always trying to wash these bloody hands. cant seem to make peace. always trying to wash these bloody hands.
Monday, November 11, 2024
best of pwb0581 vol 1
best of pwb0581 vol 1
nowhere-we are going nowhere, we are going nowhere now, it is hard to say things right, every night there is a fight we cant work it out, we are worn out, thrown out of our hearts desire, dreams are shattered, our brains are scattered, our lives are served on a silver platter promises broken, lives shoken, what is said is spoken, now we can't go back, we are going nowhere now this isn't right why do we live this way? why do we have to hurt eachother? can we love eachother? we cant work it out, we are worn out, thrown out of our hearts desire, dreams are shattered, our brains are scattered, our lives are served on a silver platter promises broken, lives shoken, what is said is spoken, now we can't go back, we are going nowhere now running back in the same direction going in circles going nowhere could we break the cycle or keep repeating the same mistakes, why does it feel like we keep going nowhere i feel like there is nothing here. we are going nowhere, we are going nowhere now
on my own- I stare down these dark streets. how cold it gets sometimes. I think I'm feeling weak. I feel like I'd rather die. I'm alone and there is no one here. I think I'll stand here til someone walks by, cuz I need a friend, someone to reply when times get so rough and it feels like you can't get by, when you can't make ends meet this is where I feel defeat. I am on my own and there is no one home I am lost so where do I go I am on my own
unspoken-I guess that we can be friends I guess that we can meet again I guess we can sit down and talk maybe you might understand if I gave you a chance but all of this time wasted as it flies by the words have been forgotten and all this left unmentioned all this unspoken it will never get said at all how funny it is sometimes the best things get left unsaid how funny it is sometimes how on my own I let things slip on by I guess that we can be friends I guess that we can meet again I guess we can sit down and talk maybe you might understand if I gave you a chance but all of this time wasted as it flies by the words have been forgotten and all this left unmentioned all this unspoken it will never get said at all if I ever see you again I want to say I'm sorry
too bad- I’m one step away from losing my nerve Please save me from going beserk There is nothing left here safe on Earth It feels like I’ve been cursed I don’t know where I am going One thing I know I’m here lost I am lost there is nowhere to go It feels like I am on my own What do you do when everything has been taken away and someone has broken your trust And nothing is ever enough to repay what was lost You wish you could bring things back to good But you can’t bring things back to good It’s a shame but we all must go on It’s too bad It’s too bad They give a F about the people they hurt and the lives that become of them and the lives that become of us They don’t see what we see with our eyes It’s too bad that they are blind or just ignore What do you do when everything has been taken away and someone has broken your trust And nothing is ever enough to repay what was lost You wish you could bring things back to good But you can’t bring things back to good It’s a shame but we all must go on It’s too bad There are not enough answers And too many problems, Too many problems And not enough solutions too many questions and no fucking answers i ask why but get no reply can't keep waiting for a ship that will never come in
good enough- nothing ever seems good enough for you... I want to change But I can’t seem to throw away All of this hatred inside of me Someone please kill me It would be easier than to go Face to face with my head Oh no it goes again Switching back and forth In my head I can’t comprehend Sometimes I wanted to die Cuz I get sick of trying Feeling like nothing I do Gets appreciated And I am left on my own With no support Oh no here it goes again My thoughts are Switching back and forth In my head I can’t comprehend Because nothing is ever good enough, So why try? Nothing is ever good enough, Why should I do it for you? Nothing is ever good enough Maybe I’m moving on to something new I brace myself for another meltdown This time longer than any time before Anything I say seems to get ignored Sometimes I feel like I am half dead Is there anything to live for Because nothing is ever good enough, So why try? Nothing is ever good enough Why should I do it for you? Nothing is ever good enough I am trying to find something new
never give up- It started out simple But then things got complicated,It started out safe But then we got thrown in the crossfire It started out clean But things got messy, I wish I could fix it and make things better It started out clear Then things got blurry, It started as a dream And turned in to a nightmare I can’t turn back time To make things alright I try to be strong Even if I am losing the fight I’m never certain anymore Where anything can change when you least expect We right now could use some hope right now Cuz right now it looks glim We right now could use a player Cuz our life is in disarrayWe try to tackle these problems alone with no help We get the cold shoulder when we are hurting the most They say grin and bear it That is what we are going to try to do We’ve been underdogs our whole lives But we are going to pull through We are here to prove them wrong Never give up! eventually we'll win They pushed and shoved us and bullied us around But guess who is getting the last laugh now What happens when you have no one left to pick on You only got yourself to blame Maybe something inside of you is hurting too We right now could use some hope Cuz right now it looks glim We right now could use a player Cuz our life is in disarray We try to tackle these problems alone with no help We get the cold shoulder when we are hurting the most They say grin and bear it That is what we are going to try to do We’ve been underdogs our whole lives But we are going to pull through We are here to prove them wrong Never give up eventually we'll win Things used to be clear but now are frayed and blurred Things used to be clean But now we got blood on our hands We lost our training wheels Now we are riding on the edge We can’t turn back now Please stay with me and don’t let go will we have each other’s backs while riding through the storm This world can be a dark cold lonely scary place no one wants to face it alone Things are unfortunately not getting any easier I feel we should hold on to eachother We right now could use some hope Cuz right now it looks glim We right now could use a player Cuz our life is in disarray We try to tackle these problems alone with no help We get the cold shoulder when we are hurting the most They say grin and bear it That is what we are going to try to do We’ve been underdogs our whole lives But we are going to pull through We are here to prove them wrong Never give up! Eventually we’ll win
disappear- how can a star shining so bright just disappear here just yesterday and now is gone running longing for the things that kept us safe they ain't here anymore gaping holes are where our hearts used to be Certainly is never clear The future is not determined Nothing is forever Everything is meant to be broken I guess everything fades Nothing is meant to be forever How can a star shining so bright disappear in a blink of an eye Here just yesterday and now is gone Running, longing for the things that kept us safe They ain’t here any more Gaping holes are where our hearts used to be Struggling to find the good Nowhere left to run from the demons that keeps following you How can a star shining so bright disappear in a blink of an eye Here just yesterday and now is gone How can a star so bright disappear How can something that seemed harmless be so bad Never know the damage caused until it is too late Can’t turn back to fix the mistakes Sometimes it is better to let it go Running longing for the things and people that kept us safe They ain’t here anymore Gaping holes are where our hearts used to be
1000 wrongs- Sometimes you have to go through 1000 wrongs until you find one right. Sometimes you have to step in the fire and burn the candle at both ends. If you want to change the scenery you have to step out of the box. The bar is the new standard. Everything is going 1000 miles per hour it is too late to slow things down. I can’t erase all the stupid things I’ve said and done. I can’t rewind to yesterday. I can only live for today Answers sometimes come from the least likely of sources Sometimes you have to dig in the trash to succeed I’ve been trying to read through the disguise Wondering through the great unknown Fighting through the pain Through whatever storms comes this way Sometimes theres no reward without pain Sometimes theres no pleasure without responsibility There are no actions without consequences Sometimes you have to keep your own head in check and edit yourself Sometimes you have to go through 1000 wrongs until you find one right I do believe that things happen for a reason I don’t believe that I am just a ghost of chance Sometimes you have to cross the line to find out where the boundary lays Sometimes you have to tear down before you start building Sometimes new beginnings come from an ending Sometimes a mistake has to be made before you can learn a lesson If you never try something you will never know Sometimes you have to go through 1000 wrongs to find one right
not love- it is not love it is pain O baby! It is not love it is pain. Why do you keep doing it? You are addicted to the company but when the dawn comes it turns out to be one night stands O baby it’s not love its addiction! It is not love and when the night is done you are left empty and alone You are addicted to the dick and when he cums then he goes O baby it’s not love it’s a sham its not love why do you keep coming back to the same situations You end up getting used and finding yourself alone. You don’t truly want this O baby it’s not love its fiction! Don’t fall for it. It is a scam he doesn’t love you only what he can get from you. You should just say no and run!!!
angels- I could never heal you I could never help you I could never understand what was killing you I could never solve your issues or your problems cuz I had my share of my own I could never be the one to heal your pain It eats me up now that you are gone felt like I could have should have done something and I didn’t May the angels lift you up cuz I wasn’t able to May the angels love you cuz my heart was empty May the angels give you peace from this war down below And may the angels give you closure ease the confusion and chaos and take it all away Reminisce from all of my family that came and past my biggest regret is I wish I could have been there for them when they needed me More emotionally than physically I get the sense that none of them know me anymore I left you alone abandoned only to hear about you years later after I found out you died May the angels ease your pain cuz I was never able to. I could never figure out what was wrong May the angels lift you up cuz I wasn’t able to May the angels love you cuz my heart was empty May the angels give you peace from this war down below And may the angels give you closure ease the confusion and chaos and take it all away
you don't own me- you dont own me i am not your toy i am not your puppet i am not your gopher stop demanding all these things that you want from me nothing is for free i am not your slave you want me to just lay down and die well i am not going to do that i dont belong to you get that straight get your fucking hands off of me i dont belong to you all that you want is to take without giving back i am not down with that it doesnt matter what sexual orientation or gender i am it is my body my rules get your fucking hands off of me i dont belong to you. you dont own me you are not going to tell me what to do with or cant do with my body its my body and i'll do whatever i want with it
i have a dream- i have a dream that we are on a permanent vacation to an island far far away. where it is always sunny and 75 away from the drama away from the hate drinking margarittas and watching the sunset and that we never have to die we never get old we can stay forever young we can be kids forever never grow up sing at the top of our lungs to music so loud it is blowing all our speakers there are no parents there are no rules we can stay up all night long and sleep all day nobody gives a fuck as long as you are having fun we can dance all night to the dj and go streaking naked there will be no pissed off neighbors to call the cops just me and you we can live forever happy ever after and the party will never end we can live forever and the party will never end i have a dream lets make it reality lets pack our bags and leave before the sun comes up we can live forever and the party will never end we can live forever and the party will never end
apology- i am so empty (so empty) simply incomplete i am breaking down and there is no one to save when i fall i don't know i thought you'd lead right through me i was deeply mistakened to think that way
and i was liable for all of the failures everything that didnt go right was account of me i brought your world down and turned it upside down and there is no way now to bring things back to good you probably hate me for my taking when i shouldnt have but there is no apology that'll ever bring things back to good i was liable for all of the failures everything that didnt go right was account of me i brought this world down and turned it upside down and there is no way now to bring things back to good if i could take back everything, if i could change everything, i would. if i could erase everything,i would
key to my heart- Turning on wasted dead end,Washed up on shore on remote island,Never to be found Driving for miles in circles,Still lost Seems to be the same story Going home alone every time I gave you the key to my heart And you threw it in the bay I gave you the key to my heart Then you just left me to drown I guess I’m empty emotionless Feel like nobody really gives a damn So I secluded myself So nobody can hurt me again I gave you the key to my heart And you threw it in the bay I gave you the key to my heart Then you just left me to drown I should not have put my faith In someone elses hands They always seem to crush it every time I gave you the key to my heart And you threw it in the bay I gave you the key to my heart Then you left me to drown I gave you the key to my heart And you threw it in the bay I gave you the key to my heart And you left me To watch me drown
distance- maybe i need some distance from this place sometimes distance is needed sometimes distance is good sometimes silence is an answer sometimes it is better to leave and not fix everyones messes sometimes there is no practice you just jump into it hands on with no introduction i cant put myself in your shoes sometimes the distance is closer than you think sometimes it is just harder by what you made things out to be sometimes me too i tend to overthink but need to put the past in the past new day forward,ride off in the distance (just ride) just ride off in the night changes are coming
good good night- good good night. may all of your unintentional wrongs turn to rights good good night. may all of your wars turn to peace i hope you can find some source of comfort amidst the chaos good good night sometimes it is better to let go than to hold on so good good night good good night dont let the aching suffer anymore and don't sign up to be somebodys whore with nothing to gain if it aint a two way street then it is an dead end. your gut usually has the answer. dont force it. dont fight it. dont let yourself suffer anymore good good night i hope you sleep peacefully and whatever meant to be will come its way good good night i hope that tomorrow something comes better. good good night..... good good night.
falling farther- all of this time was wasted away, all of this time i was focused on someone else. i lost track of myself trying to follow someone else (walking in thier shoes) so I keep on falling, falling farther than I ever wanted to go. I keep on falling, falling farther than I ever wanted to go, cuz I spend too much time worrying/thinking about you sometimes I don't know how to live my life sometimes I dont know cuz I never had a life of my own. I tryed to live my life like you not knowing myself trying to be like someone else trying to bring myself back again, stop trying to please everybody else. can i bring myself back again, back to me, stop trying to make everyone happy while living a life thats not mine over+over again repeating the same mistakes
might have been- i never meant 2 say goodbye but time flies & passes by i don't worry anymore about the might have been cuz there is nothing about it that i can change i always wanted for things to be good but things never worked out. i dont worry anymore about the past have been i just worry about what I can do today the pieces fall everywhere I cant tell them apart I dont think i can mend your broken heart i feel like we are 1000 miles apart the confusion sets in and I feel disconnected but we were in this together we should have been able to work this out, but I dont know how I dont know why it got this way all i could say i can only be your friend i tremble 1000 times my brain keeps going back to memories that i shouldn't have but somehow they won't go away they get stuck on my mind i get lost in time but we were in this together we should have been able to work this out but I dont know how I dont know why it got this way all i could say i can only be your friend i get lost over & over again but I dont want to pretend i just want to be as honest as I possably can neither one of us were ready we needed more time to sort things out but we were in this together we should have been able to work this out but I dont know how I dont know why it got this way all i could say i can only be your friend i never meant to say goodbye but time flies and passes by i dont worry anymore about the might have been cuz there is nothing about it i can change i always wanted for things to be good but things didnt work out that way i dont worry anymore about the might have been i just worry about today i never meant to disappear but things seem that way lost in a blur fighting to fill the hole in our lives
new start- Lets get away, Leave for a while, Maybe never come back. Drive aimlessly into the sunset With no planned destination Things haven’t been working out for a very long time Can’t force something if it ain’t there Sometimes you can’t fix everything that is broken There are days where I go in circles Making no progress I just want to be anywhere but here I got off on the wrong exit And can’t find my way back to the road the I was on, I got lost again The future is as blurry as ever I don’t know what lies ahead Days have been rockyThey are still rocky ahead I am just looking for a brand new start I am just looking for a way to get by Will you come with me Are you with me or not Things aren’t getting as easier as time goes on I have been trying to find the light I have been trying to get back on the right page I am trying to find the hope I lost I don’t know where I am going Things happen unexpectedly The future can be unpredictable Days have been rocky They are still rocky ahead I am just looking for a fresh new start
new life- I need a new job, I need a new car, I need a new life,Quit judging me I need new friends, I need a new family,I need to move to a new town I need a new body, A new everything Some days I am like fuck off Leave me alone. I just want to block off the world There are some things I would like to change but is beyond my control so i just let it ride wish i could throw my old self away and come back as a totally different person. i dont like myself anymore. things are never simple anymore. i need a new life
ch 16-pwb0581 by paul bundren
ch 16
never again
this love was over before it ever began i swear never again screaming from my bed this love was over before it ever begin i was never yours your words and actions don't represent me what you say and do don't define me one day when you reach the door i wont be answer it is my way of saying no
don't touch
back up don't touch you are out of bounds i have better things to do than being tied down to you please excuse me this bird is getting free from his cage this plane is about to take off without you
blow me away
wind, wind blow me away away from this place away from the pain no more sorrow no hard feelings one day you may wake up and i'll be gone wind, wind blow me away some place safe in gods hands to a place where i belong and i'll never get hurt again
stay on your side of the fence
you may think you know me one day the next day you don't allies turn to enemies over boundries crossed so keep your feet planted on your side of the fence keep your hands off me or i may have to inituate self defence i dont love being told what to do keep your dick in your pants keep your tanks in your territory or we are going to have a problem stay on your side of the fence
this ain't love
i want to leave there is nothing you can do to stop me tomorrow i will be gone bye bye this aint love it is torture you need attention i can't give i am sorry i am not the answer to your ongoing problems i have issues too that need fixing i cant fix you i have to fix myself i don't want to spent the rest of my life being your caregiver there is no tomorrow we are done. i have a life i would like to live before i die. do i need a reason why to say goodbye. i have goals and dreams just like you. i have a vision i'd like to see instead of trying to furfill yours so bye bye this can't go on forever i have places i would like to see i can't let you hold me back this ain't love it is torture you need attention i can never give and it breaks my heart. goodbye i'm on my way to find my place in this world i don't see your support in my hope and dreams you want me to fix you and not fix me sorry but i don't think that is how love is supposed to work so bye bye this can't go on forever i have places i would like to see i can't let you hold me back this ain't love it is torture you need attention i can never give to you. you need an answer i can never give
i don't want
i dont want to be hidden i dont want to be the second option i want to feel like i belong i dont want to be silenced i dont want to live my life in a closet i want to be out and proud i want to take charge of my life not sit on the sidelines and watch life pass me by i don't want to be the place you run to when you burned your welcome somewhere else. i dont want to be in a secret.
gotta keep trying
it is hard to go on but i must sometimes it is hard to make choices but it is for the better gotta keep moving though some days are hard gotta keep trying though some days i want to quit my parents up in heaven would want me to keep trying to follow my dreams so that is what i am going to do i am going to fight to the bitter end gotta keep trying even when i want to quit
place in this world
it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. feeling lost don't know where i fit in. it is scary feels like a war going on and i'm fighting a losing battle. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. sometimes i feel weird like i don't belong, want to run out of my skin, sometimes i just want to be someone else cuz don't feel like i fit in. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. feeling lost don't know where i fit in. it is scary feels like a war going on and i'm fighting a losing battle. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. times are changing and i am just trying to adapt to it sometimes i feel like a dot in this world do i even matter? it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. feeling lost don't know where i fit in. it is scary feels like a war going on and i'm fighting a losing battle. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world
look out for number one
i cant let you drag me down. i cant let you pull me under. sorry if i cut you off. i gotta look out for myself before i can look out for others. this show is over before it starts. i dont want to play the part of a losing game. sorry not sorry i got look out for number one. got no time to waste. tomorrow is not promised. birds drop out of the sky. i cant let you control me. i have to take charge of my destiny. got no more time to waste. i have to look out for myself. i have look out for number one. sorry if i sound selfish i have to look out for myself cuz if i dont who else will. people looking for favors without giving back no offense but i am like fuck that. from here on out i have to look out for myself. i have look out for number one.
bloody hands
it used to be so simple now everything is so complicated. no matter what i do i am fucked. seems like i am making enemies and not friends. trying to take a step forward but instead taking steps back. no matter what i do i cant stay clean always trying to wash these bloody hands. cant seem to make peace. always trying to wash these bloody hands. it used to be easy but now it is hard. trying not to offend someone but i end up pissing people off anyway. the more i do the more they hate. i cant please everyone. no matter what i do i cant stay clean always trying to wash these bloody hands. cant seem to make peace. always trying to wash these bloody hands.
the future is here
saying goodbye is the hardest part but it opens up a new beginning. i cant dwell on my past mistakes if i do they will eat me alive. time to turn the page never looking back cuz i dont want to live in the past. i am only focused on now. what can i do to improve meself for the future. like it or not the future is here. everything is changing. and if you dont adapt you wont last.
Thursday, October 31, 2024
pwb0581- look out for number one by paul bundren
look out for number one-i cant let you drag me down. i cant let you pull me under. sorry if i cut you off. i gotta look out for myself before i can look out for others. this show is over before it starts. i dont want to play the part of a losing game. sorry not sorry i got look out for number one. got no time to waste. tomorrow is not promised. birds drop out of the sky. i cant let you control me. i have to take charge of my destiny. got no more time to waste. i have to look out for myself. i have look out for number one. sorry if i sound selfish i have to look out for myself cuz if i dont who else will. people looking for favors without giving back no offense but i am like fuck that. from here on out i have to look out for myself. i have look out for number one.
Sunday, September 22, 2024
pwb0581- words that kill
what are you going to do when you reached the bridge you burned that you needed to cross
what are you going to do when you reach that deathbed is it too late to reverse the mistakes
what are you going to do when you reach a fork in the road you cant be perfect
some might say i have made some bad choices
i am just trying to play the hand i was dealt with
i cant please everyone
half of the time i am not happy myself
trying to make people content while sacrificing myself
checking out all my feelings at the door
sometimes it feels like i dont matter anymore
if this is the last song i write
i want it to be something special not this
physically i am not dead but your words they killed me
i don't have a defense to your manipulative games
say what you like but i'm not listening
Sunday, September 1, 2024
pwb0581-alive again
alive again- if i can wake up, if i can wake up feels like i've been sleeping my whole damn life, if i can wake up what is wrong with me
no energy 1000 cups of coffee will never be enough to pull me through if i can wake up why does everything seem so dead and gone
is there a way to make things alive again afraid to say happiness hit a record drought though i try to hide it. it is clear everything is not ok
there is an elephant in the room i think it is pretty obvious as much as you try to avoid it you can't look away
do you feel alone honestly i feel alone do you feel scared honestly i feel scared like nothing can save me at all
do you feel defeated and can't get ahead not even making it through
is there a way to make things alive again can we make things alive again these days everything seem so dark and gloom
is there a way to make things alive again i don't mean to sound so demanding but it seems so fatally desperate
Tuesday, August 27, 2024
pwb0581 woke up this morning
Monday, August 26, 2024
pwb0581- bored and alone
i dont mind being naked in front of and blowing complete strangers
but sometimes i get nervous talking about me in public settings
most of the time i try to be the quiet kid in the corner
cuz i dont like getting picked on
but i end up getting made fun of anyways
cuz i am weird
sometimes i stay up way too late
then sleep in the middle of the day
end up jerking off alone
sometimes i like company sometimes i dont
sometimes maybe i am not sure what i want
i think i want friends to hang out with (and not just for sex)
but sometimes i chase them away
i do know it is no fun to be bored and alone
Sunday, August 11, 2024
untitled 2024 pwb0581 paul bundren
yesterday we were in a place we can understand
but now shit is fucked up and harder
we are on level 99 going on 100
this is no tetris this is real life
our lives are on the line
the future is blurry
and the past is history
but we do got right now
we are putting a chair leg on the hope button
guess that is all we got left
i am on life # 9
this could be my last chapter
what would i like my story to be like
each and every day is a new struggle a new fight
somehow i have made it by
what does god have in store for me
i dont know but i'll go in this battle with my sword drawn
living each day like it is my last day
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it is so lifeless
it is so spineless
things have gotten out of hand
now we are second guessing who are our real friends
imposters lies and scams plague society
cant tell whos real and whos fake
everything i come to know is questioned
who are you?
i dont trust you
everything i come to know is false
who are you?
i dont know you
dont come at me with that sugarcoated bullshit
cuz i'm not buying
these days i dont believe anyone anymore
one thing is true is keep your back eyes open
and never blink
they'll come for you any second
everything i come to know is questioned
who are you?
i dont trust you
everything i come to know is false
who are you?
i dont know you
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Tuesday, August 6, 2024
pwb0581- letter from a fan
letter from a fan
all of your sadness all of your pain all of your anger all of your tears they are ours now
we lost a legend we lost our hero there is no getting back to the way things used be
we lost a friend someone everyone looked up to things will never be the same without you
all of your songs they hit me hard in the soul and there is no getting back what was taken from us
i wished that i could have seen one of your concerts i got your poster on my wall
it has been years since your death yet it still hits me today
i'll never get the chance to see the dream of seeing you live cuz you are gone
i was one of your biggest fans
if i could bring you back if i could trade your place if i can see you on stage i would
i would do anything to see you again
Thursday, August 1, 2024
pwb0581-dear dad
pwb0581-sirons
sirons- why did you go back?, when they left you bleeding, they did it again, didnt they?
why did you allow this, why did you let them in, why couldn't you see this was a trap. yet you keep falling for it again and again
can you hear the sirons,the sirons coming for you nevermind you dug your hole now youre buried alive slipped too far can't get out, why did you go there?
you wondered alone, defiant, thinking you could recover, but you have failed and your scared, wont tell whats going on, buried in secrets, burying you alive
can you hear the sirons,the sirons coming for you nevermind you dug your hole now youre buried alive slipped too far can't get out, why did you go there?
can you hear the sirons,the sirons does this raise an alarm in your head?!?
pwb0581-doormat
doormat- No solutions only complications. No apologies just declarations (of war). Don’t slow down just speed up! (rush) Take the money and run!
Instead of trying to find a vaccination. You’re spreading the infection. Sugarcoat it with candy covered lies.
How am I supposed to believe when you twist it time after time. YO!
You’re the ignorance of compliance. Doing what the man said so. to set his grandkids retirement. while you labor til you die.
do you even see everytime he robs you blind, yet you keep coming back, can't you see you look like a fool. you did it to yourself
follow but don’t lead. don’t you see youre planting the seed.
U try to create chaos & confusion to mislead people to try to trick them in trying to get what U want but it is failing & U will be the one who ends up losing....
UR abrasive and divisive, contradicting and controlling, but don’t know how to react when the cycle breaks in your face, YO!
cuz you keep coming back to the bed you burned. sucked me dry and left me on the curb. what makes you think you deserve me.
after all of the times you went behind my back to assist the people who kept selling you out.
did U see they didnt care they were holding U down and i am through with giving myself away to ppl who just dont care
pwb0581-end to begin
end 2 begin-End to begin,Finish to start,Crawl to walk,Stop to go,Tear down to build,Die to live,Say goodbye to say hello,End to begin
Should I love thy neighbor?!?.. They say treat each other with respect But some put the knife to your back. Be careful b4 you cast your stones.
Cuz everybody wants to rule the world But don’t want to take on the blame. Everybody wants to play the game But doesn’t want to lose
Everybody wants their share But nobody wants to get their hands dirty. everybody wants to shoot but Nobody wants to be a target. Find another scapegoat to label Cuz we all try to act so innocent
There is some things people do and say That I feel crosses the line But most of the time I try to keep my mouth shut Cuz I don’t want to be in the spotlight
Bullies bullying bullies Most of the time I try to hide in the corner (under the radar) But sometimes even I was the instigator
Everybody wants to rule the world But nobody wants to take the blame. Everybody wants to play the game But don’t want to lose.
Everybody wants their share But nobody wants to get their hands dirty. everybody wants to shoot but nobody wants to be a target find another scapegoat to label cuz we all try to act so innocent
We all feel like pawns trying to be king, kings trying to take out pawns, just be careful,Know thy enemy, Keep all eyes open at all times Even at the back of your head
Just remember nothing and nobody is safe and no time is promised (war4peace)
End to begin,Finish to start,Crawl to walk,Stop to go,Tear down to build,Die to live,Say goodbye to say hello,End to begin, it must end for things to begin again
pwb0581- ups and downs
ups & downs- would anyone be willing to stick around through my ups and downs can i find balance in the instabilty can i find organization in the disarray can i find normally in the dysfunction
would anybody be willing to ride this rollercoaster would anybody want to stick around through my ups and downs
I have been inconsistant sometimes i can be good sometimes i can be bad sometimes i can be happy sometimes i can be mad would anybody want to stick around and deal with my shit
I never seem to be able to find peace would anybody be willing to take the time and deal with my impatience
if anybody knew all of the halfs and the truths would they stay or leave would anybody be willing to stick around through all of the ups and downs
pwb0581- distance
distance-maybe i need some distance from this place sometimes distance is needed sometimes distance is good
sometimes silence is an answer sometimes it is better to leave and not fix everyones messes
sometimes there is no practice you just jump into it hands on with no introduction i cant put myself in your shoes
sometimes the distance is closer than you think sometimes it is just harder by what you made things out to be sometimes me too i tend to overthink
but need to put the past in the past new day forward
ride off in the distance (just ride) just ride off in the night changes are coming
pwb0581- not extinct
not extinct-You thought you killed me You thought you got the best of me You thought you broke me down But you only made me see That I’m still alive
You didn’t break my heart You didn’t crush my soul You almost finished me When you left me bleeding But I’m going to show you That I’m not extinct I’m not dead Not at all
You had me for a fall You caught me while I was blind But never again Will I take your side You played me to the left And almost got my best But I’m going to show you That I’m still around
I’m not fossilized I’m just experienced I’m not extinct I’m not dead
You didn’t break my heart You didn’t crush my soul You almost finished me When you left me bleeding But I’m going to make you realize That I’m still alive I won’t let you kill me I’m not dead,Not at all
pwb0581- trash( the song) by paul bundren
trash
one mans trash is another mans treasure
what one sees as ugly someone else sees as beautiful
we all got different tastes that is the world we are living in
don't knock it til you try it
here we are in a world of make believe
we can be anything if we want to be
never say never
times are changing including the weather
beautiful trash recycled into works of art
why throw away our dreams
try to recover what we thought was lost and could never be seen
hope is only dead if you dont believe in yourself
pwb0581-cool stuff by paul bundren
cool stuff-
there's a lot of places to go in this journey of life.
there's a lot of things to do.
i dont know what to do.
i dont know where to go.
i got lost in my own mind thinking what cool stuff i should have in my life.
like ADIDAS response tennis shoes,
everlast whitey ford sings the blues
dont know what to choose britney christina or you.
dont know which place to go should a go to pluto?
i dont know what to do should i sing to you?
what should i do with all of this cool stuff,
what should i choose i dont even know,
what should i do with all of this cool stuff,
what should i choose britney christina or you
now in my lexus convertable
i'm going 95 in a school zone
not paying attention to the road.
a truck driver honked his horn.
i just heard somebody cuss.
i'm playin limp bizkit on the radio.
talkin'n'textin on my cell phone,
then i say "oh no, fuck " a cop is coming down the road
he pulls me over and rips up my license
and he give me a fine
and he impounded my car.
now i have nowhere to go
and nothing to do
and all of this cool stuff
i cherished so much was just a drag
pwb0581-so long goodbye
so long goodbye- so long goodbye if i could find you in a different life you cant see how much i need you so long goodbye i wish i had another chance to tell you i love you it hurts so much so long goodbye i keep saying 1000 times every day i cant forgive myself for the mistakes that were made i wish i spent more time with you now i dont have anyone to talk to i feel like i have taken things for granted didnt relize how much i need you now but you are gone til next time so long goodbye
pwb0581-if
if i asked 4 help would anyone come
if i was layiing on the side of the road
would u run me over again
if had my back to the wall
would be by my side or strike at me
sometimes i dont feel like i got anybody at all
ppl quick 2 take but when i need something doesnt seem to be anybody who cares
if i was on my last life my last leg would you be my crutch or put the bullet in my head
pwb0581- cuddle buddy
cuddle buddy looking 4 a cuddle buddy looking 4 some1 to spend time with will u be my teddy bear be my valentine looking 4 a sweetheart not a 1 night stand
deep down what i really what is a soulmate more than just giving quick fixes looking for a cuddle buddy looking a hugger
will you be my cuddle buddy will you be my teddy bear will you be my valentine that will last a lot longer than the month of february
i don't care if it snows as long as i am tucked warm safe inside with you
will you be my cuddle buddy will you be my teddy bear will you be my valentine that will last a lot longer than the month of february
pwb0581- frozen cold
frozen cold- O baby! It feels so frozen cold what you do to me. You promise me forever then give me a 1 night stand
O baby it feels so frozen cold and I’m all alone I was better off alone than to be led by fake love
O baby it feels so frozen cold how when you are alone no one sticks up for you They believe others word before yours
O baby it feels so frozen cold in some way I guess I was probably asking for it
I never really bothered to answer back so I guess it is expecting for you to do the same to me I guess I know the reasons why and I’m to blame
Walking alone in a winter storm with hurricane winds I should have known I was the fool
O baby it feels so frozen cold what you do to be. You promise me forever then give me a 1 night stand
pwb0581- stand alone
-stand alone- mothers weeping after she buries her young signs ignored society of disreguard Junkies O.D. on a highway to nowhere why did we get this far
We are giving away the pills. It is like we are intentionally throwing it in peoples faces Does anybody even bother? Does anybody care? I do even if I stand alone
Walking on the surface trying to find the core of the rot in the mirror the reflection is me I guess I cant expect something to get done tomorrow if I don’t start today
Maybe that is part of the problem doing nothing results in nothing Don’t handout cheap trills to those who steal your pride
Don’t let is get this far do something fight back even if you stand alone Ooo, I stand , I stand alone, Ooo I stand, I stand alone
pwb0581-it's not love
not love- it is not love it is pain O baby! It is not love it is pain. Why do you keep doing it?
You are addicted to the company but when the dawn comes it turns out to be one night stands O baby it’s not love its addiction!
It is not love and when the night is done you are left empty and alone You are addicted to the dick and when he cums then he goes
O baby it’s not love it’s a sham its not love why do you keep coming back to the same situations
You end up getting used and finding yourself alone. You don’t truly want this O baby it’s not love its fiction!
Don’t fall for it. It is a scam he doesn’t love you only what he can get from you. You should just say no and run!!!
pwb0581-push away
push away- -how can i love you if you push away how can you love me if i push away how can we love eachother when we keep pushing eachother away keep breaking apart i am starting to believe this wasnt love from the start. i wanted somebody to hold on to somebody to make sure everything is going to be alright someone to protect me but i had false impressions of what i visioned of you how can i love you if you push away how can you love me if i push away how can we love eachother when we keep pushing eachother away push away push away
pwb0581- the crash down
the crash down- should i step up or lay low trying to suck this up but on the edge of another breakown people hate dont really care and i'm afraid that is why we stand here (divided)
there are no brakes should i slam on the gas it is already inevitable for the nuclear war there are no alliences only enemies got 2 take you out before you get me
faster faster on the wake of the crash down faster faster theres no return faster faster just stop
does anybody look? is anybody even paying attention? this is a perfect recipe for a fatal disaster
tensions colliding and we are fueling the fire how much more? it is only a matter of time (watch everything explode)
faster faster on the wake of the crash down faster faster theres no return faster faster just stop
think about it is it right 4 U is is right 4 anybody to keep mongering this hatred we can't keep holding this inside it is eating us alive isnt it time to just let this go
pwb0581-with you
with you- if i ly with you would 1/2 way thru the night i find the bed 1/2 way empty if i ly with you would it be sincere or would i be led on
did lust take over again instead of winning i was losing the whole fucking time i dont know why i fell for this when i saw this coming from a mile away
if i ly with you would i be wasting my time ending up with hearts left broken. if i ly with you would 1/2 way thru the night i find the bed 1/2 way empty
if i ly with you would i end up getting destroyed (getting sold out) if i ly with you i almost dont want any part of this
i feel like there is nowhere to turn to noone to talk to that is real or would even understand but quick to take the knife to my back
if i ly with you would i be wasting my time ending up with hearts left broken. if i ly with you would 1/2 way thru the night i find the bed 1/2 way empty
if i ly with you would it be sincere or would i be led on if i ly with you would i end up getting destroyed (getting sold out) if i ly with you... if i ly with you...
pwb0581-angels by paul bundren
angels-I could never heal you I could never help you I could never understand what was killing you
I could never solve your issues or your problems cuz I had my share of my own I could never be the one to heal your pain
It eats me up now that you are gone felt like I could have should have done something and I didn’t
May the angels lift you up cuz I wasn’t able to May the angels love you cuz my heart was empty May the angels give you peace from this war down below
And may the angels give you closure ease the confusion and chaos and take it all away
Reminisce from all of my family that came and past my biggest regret is I wish I could have been there for them when they needed me
More emotionally than physically I get the sense that none of them know me anymore
I left you alone abandoned only to hear about you years later after I found out you died
May the angels ease your pain cuz I was never able to. I could never figure out what was wrong
May the angels lift you up cuz I wasn’t able to May the angels love you cuz my heart was empty May the angels give you peace from this war down below
And may the angels give you closure ease the confusion and chaos and take it all away