Monday, September 15, 2025

you can't convert me pwb0581 Paul bundren

You can't save me 
You can't convert me
Suppressing my feelings 
Only makes me feel more down
And dislike you even more 
I come to terms 
On accepting myself the way I am 
And not trying to change 
On the likes of someone else 
Who doesn't appreciate me
I learned that I was different from a young age
I was not like the other boys 
I wasn't good at sports 
I wasn't very strong 
I used to like to draw
And play with stuffed animals
I don't know why I was weird 
And didn't fit in with my peers
I isolated myself 
Even hated myself 
For being different 
You can't save me 
You can't convert me
Suppressing my feelings 
Only makes me feel more down
And dislike you even more 
I come to terms 
On accepting myself the way I am 
And not trying to change 
On the likes of someone else 
Who doesn't appreciate me
As time passed by 
I learned to love myself 
Accept myself in the skin I am in
Should I have to be afraid for my life 
Cuz of who I am 
You can't save me 
You can't convert me
Suppressing my feelings 
Only makes me feel more down
And dislike you even more 
I come to terms 
On accepting myself the way I am 
And not trying to change 
On the likes of someone else 
Who doesn't appreciate me
Trying to change me makes me even want to defy you even more 

Saturday, September 13, 2025

I'll try to be there pwb0581 Paul bundren

When the events that are happening in the world is just too much to take 
I'll try to be there with open arms 
And try to save you from the darkness 

Sometimes life is a bitter pill to swallow 
The water is way too deep 
It feels like you are drowning
Choking gasping for air 
And there is no one there to save you 

You are getting kicked down the stairs 
Doesn't seem anyone cares 

When the wind takes you off your feet 
When you just can't seem to get by
When you run out of chances to try
When everything happening in the world is just too much 
I'll try to be there with open arms
And try to save you from the darkness 
 
This world is filled with so much hatred 
There is so much you can't relate with 
Can't slow this down 
Can't rewind 
It feels like everything is on fast forward 

Dancing with two left feet 
Walking down a dark street 
All alone 
Far from home 

Who is going to reach out  

When the wind takes you off your feet 
When you just can't seem to get by
When you run out of chances to try
When everything happening in the world is just too much 
I'll try to be there with open arms
And try to save you from the darkness 

I'll try to be there for you when the world turns dark and grey.
Understand we all have issues we are going through 
 
When the wind takes you off your feet 
When you just can't seem to get by
When you run out of chances to try
When everything happening in the world is just too much 
I'll try to be there with open arms
And try to save you from the darkness 




I would have done something pwb0581

I feel horrible 
I did nothing
As I watched you suffer
Had issues of my own 
I couldn't help you with yours 
We went to the same school with each other
For a time 
We worked at the same restaurant 
I was living with my father at the time 
Trying to get on my feet 
It wasn't easy to watch you go
If I would knew 
I would say something 
But I was trying to protect myself 
I would of been your friend 
But your life came to an end 
Before I could say goodbye 
If had a do over
I'd reach a hand 
I'd trade places
It wasn't cool of me to ignore you 
And watch you suffer 
Circling down the drain 
I was too worried about myself 
I watched you basically take your own life 
It is a regret I can't reverse 
I feel like a monster 
I was trying to look out for myself 
If I had a do over I would do something 
Say something 
Instead of watching you go 

violence is not the answer pwb0581

Two wrongs don't make a right
Just because you don't agree with someone 
Doesn't give you an excuse to kill them 
A man was taken away from his family and friends 
This is not ok
Even if you don't like someone
Even if he was a bigot and a racist 
We should not be celebrating someone's death that is just completely wrong 
It doesn't matter what side you are on
Killing is wrong there is no excuse
Violence is not the answer 
Instead of spreading hate
We should be spreading love 

it's over now pwb0581 Paul bundren

I had to block you out 
To work on myself 
I can't deal with your problems
And mine too 
Hopefully you can find someone else 
I am tired of shutting down 
So I can be with you 
It is over now 
Tired of being numb 
Tired of being down 
I want control of myself 
I am tired of someone telling me 
What to be
I am taking a different step 
A different approach 
Maybe I have to cut people out 
To work on myself 
Sorry not sorry 
For trying to fix myself 
Is it selfish 
For wanting to better myself 
I am tired of the pain 
I am tired of lying to be with you 
Tired of the fake love
I am just not happy 
Tired of being afraid to say how I feel 
It is over now
Tired of suppressing my feelings 
Tired of holding back my life
To impress someone else 
Tired of feeling like I am being taken advantage of tired of hiding from and lying to my family and my friends 
From here on out 
I am putting my foot down 
I won't be your stepping stone anymore 

Monday, September 8, 2025

lay to rest pwb0581 Paul bundren

Lay to rest 
Suffer no more
Let the dead sleep 
No more sad songs 
Only brighter days 
From here on out
Life begins again 
Lay to rest 
You will not be forgotten 
May you finally be at peace 
Sleep forever 
No more sad songs 
Only brighter days 
From here on out 
Live begins again 
In spirit you are still alive 
I keep you in my memory 
Lay to rest 
Suffer no more 
You were my friend 
But God needed you more
May you finally be at peace 
No more sad songs 
Only brighter days 
From here on out 
Lay to rest 

Monday, August 11, 2025

pwb0581- lost dog by paul bundren

howl if you hear me

howl if you are out there 

looking for a lost dog

lost friend of mine

lost America

lost beauty

lost energy

lost soul

lost pride

hope died

I was living a lie

inspiration dead

looking for a lost dog

a lost friend

can't find their way back home

turned away

I'm just a child no one wants

just a lost dog

never had a lucky day

dreams vanish and disappear

can't recognize anything

nothing as appears

people can't see my tears

looking for a lost dog

a lost friend of mine

that got forgotten

like a lost toy

kicked around along the way

that can't be recovered

I'm just a grown-up broken child

lost his best friend

looking for a lost dog

I may never find

I feel alone

I feel traumatized 

I am missing something

can't put my finger around it

lost America

lost beauty

lost energy

lost soul

lost pride

hope died

I was living a lie

inspiration dead

looking for a lost dog

a lost friend

I can't find

howl if you hear me

howl if you are out there

looking for a lost dog

lost friend of mine

Tuesday, August 5, 2025

?2025- pwb0581 paul bundren

 where to begin everything is a fucking mess lines crossed bodies buried in the sand there is no turning back no more friends no more allies everyone for themselves it is dog eat dog flesh and bone no more kings we are out to dethrone clearly we haven't learned our lesson now there is hell to pay with human lives as dollar signs when are we going to get paid for the work we did I thought slavery was outlawed  were we mislead were we the fools taken advantage of by hate and greed will I die for these words that were said I feel like we have been manipulated and bullied for way too long can we put the power back in the people's hands state the obvious this is abuse of power for corporate gain when will people are we blind why do we let a false prophet dictator criminal control us with our bodies with our minds with our money like it means a thing


Sunday, July 20, 2025

none 4 all pwb0581

I am a target for your hate and violence 
Cuz I don't agree with you 
You want to kill the other side of the argument 
For your own gain
I got news for you 
Not everyone is happy 
Some people are pissed off 
They want your head chopped off
Go deny everything is ok 
Till one day you find we are at war
If you haven't caught it 
It's none for all 
The rich gets richer
While the poor fight to survive 
On the battlefield 
March one by one by one 
To the grave

fixer upper pwb0581

We are starting from scratch 
Working with nothing 
It's rusty 
It's dusty
Don't know if it can still run
But let's give it a crank
Guess it is better than nothing 
It is a beater with a heater
It is a fixer upper 
It needs tender loving care
Trying to salvage junk in to works of art
Trying to turn old into new again 
Trying to turn rusty into shiny 
It is a fixer upper 
Let's see where we can go with nothing 
Let's build this city on ruins
I am not dead yet 
I just began 
I am just getting started 
So why it this the end
We are fixing what you destroyed 
We are not your puppets
We are not your toys
We will fix this mess you made
This will go down in history 
As the biggest comeback to happen
Back from the dead completely revived 
We are not your scapegoats
We are not your slaves
We will take our values to our grave
Fighting tooth and nail for what we believe 
Is there anybody right or wrong 
Who made you judge and jury or god
If there is a god to believe 
A lot of hate and deception 
Lies and corruption 
Nobody is innocent 
Why can't we try to fix things 
Instead of breaking things
Can we all hold our hands together and unite as a team to make this a better place for you and me to live in 
America the beautiful will thrive once again 


Saturday, July 5, 2025

pwb0581 failure

I feel like a failure 
Sorry I was not supportive 
I needed support myself 
I didn't feel like I was getting 
Sorry I didn't help you 
Sorry I wasn't there 
When you needed me 
I was a little fucked up too
I was an asshole 
I didn't have my priorities together 
I was thinking about my pain and problems and not about others 
I was careless 
I was stupid 
I basically left you by yourself 
With my mess and didn't try to fix it 
I was in the weeds and didn't go chasing after you 
If I had the opportunity to change it 
I would have tried to save you 
And sacrifice myself 
I guess I did what I could 
It wasn't good enough 
I feel like a failure 

pwb0581 throw away

Was I an unwanted child
Was I a throw away 
Am I the one you love to hate
Do you want to give me up
Why must I go on this alone 
On my own 
Sometimes it seems like I can't get help
I feel like your back is turned on me
I just don't understand 
Why it feels so cold 
I can't change who I am 
Why was I born into a world that doesn't accept me
I never asked for this 


Wednesday, April 9, 2025

Paul bundren pwb0581 lost friend

Music is a long lost friend 
Put on a song from yesterday 
It is like a drug
For my mind 
Leave my troubles in my life behind 
It is there for me when I am down and out 
It is like therapy
I put it on when I am happy 
When I want to dance 
When I am sad when I am angry 
It sometimes helps me get through the day 
I sometimes helps me carry on 
When I am feeling down and low 
Sometimes when there is nothing else 
When it seems that no one else in the world cares about me 
I turn to music it is always there
Sometimes I write stuff too 
Sometimes the things I write come out a little dark and heavy and gloomy and weird 
I apologize ahead of time if anything is explicit 
Sometimes It just comes out that way
Just trying to express myself the best way I know how 
I put myself on display for the world to see if they like to 
It is hard to explain all the meanings of the things that I write 
Some people have different perspectives 
And different points of view
You can interpret it anyway you like 


Paul bundren pwb0581 rock and roll will never die

I would like to create a song 
I would like to get on stage 
I would like to sing
Even if I make a fool of myself 
I would like to share a story 
That hopefully someone can relate to 
I just want to have fun
And for you to have fun 
And make you happy 
Take away all the troubles and the pain for the moment 
Try to make you happy 
And rock out on stage 
Forget the darkness and evil in this world 
If this is the last song I write before I die
I want to try to make it it a good one
I want to try to leave you something behind that you can remember for the rest of your life 
Something that you can share with your friends 
I want to make my mark in history 
I won't live forever 
Just want to live while I am alive 
Is that too much to ask for 
I won't live forever 
Just want to live while I am alive
Let the music play
Take the meaning of the lyrics in any way you like 
Rock and roll will never die 

Paul bundren pwb0581 don't want to be king

Not really sure that I want to be king
Not really sure that I want to be president 
And all the power and responsibility that comes with it 
Things are already fucked up 
Don't want to make it worse than it is 
Don't want my name attached to politics 
Don't want to cause a war I can't win
Don't really want to be the center of the controversy 
Yes I'd like to stand up for human rights 
I'd like to cut taxes for the poor 
And make the guilty stand trial 
And bring justice 
It doesn't mean that I want to run for office 
Not really sure that I want to be movie star
Don't think that I would be a good actor
Don't memorize lines well 
Not really sure that I would do well with reality TV
I am not the strongest physically or mentally
Not sure how I would do in challenges 
And don't think I would have a great social game plan 
Not really sure that I would be made out to be the greatest singer but I try 
Sometimes my voice is off key
I try to write stuff but a lot of it sounds the same 
Not really sure that I want to be king 
Not really sure that I want to be president 
Not really sure that I want to be famous 
And all the attention that comes with it 
I think I rather be free to just live my life 
Without people asking how much you get paid 
Not really sure that I want people following me around everywhere I go even to use the bathroom 
Not really sure that I want my private life public 
I think I just want to be free to live my life without everyone following me wherever I go
Not everyone needs to know who I am having sex with 
I feel like it is none of peoples business
Not really sure that this is what I signed up for 
Sometimes I just rather be alone than in a crowd 
Yes I like the fans but don't really want the media following me everywhere I go broadcasting everything I do 
Is it ok to ask for some alone time every once in a while 
Don't want to feel pressured into making everything public 
Sometimes I just want to go home to my family and have dinner in a private setting without people coming up to me and asking me questions without the media following me 
Without answering questions about who I am what I do or how I am supposed to be 
Sometimes i just want to live my life 
not sure that i am comfortable with getting behind a movie screen or getting in front of a crowd 
Sometimes I just want to crawl under the covers in my bed and say good night 
Leave all the troubles of the world behind 
Sometimes I just want to live my life
Is that too much to ask for 
Not really sure that I want to be king 
Not really sure that I want to be president 
Not really sure that I want to be famous 
Do I really want to sell my soul for the money and fame and power 
Is it even worth it 
I don't think so 




Paul bundren pwb0581 your drugs

I am not feeling ok
It feels like I am being drugged 
You are taking me under your wing 
I feel seduced
Under peer pressure
Your drugs you keep prescribing me are killing me 
They are making me sick 
I think I am addicted I can't stop 
Can't get off the spell I am under 
I try to quit But I Can't walk away On my own 
You keep prescribing me your killer drugs
They are killing me 
i think you got me addicted 
I need to find a way to stop
Before your drugs end up killing me
What did you slip in the drinks you keep trying to hand me 
I am not feeling alright
Not feeling like myself 
What are you trying to do to me
I feel like I can't trust you 
Your drugs they are making me sick 
I think they are killing me
You got me under your spell
I think I am addicted 
I need to find a way to stop 
Before your drugs end up killing me 







Paul bundren pwb0581 some days

Some days I don't like anybody 
And don't want anything to do with you or anybody 
Sometimes I just want to shut down 
Lock myself into my room 
And forget the world
I don't want to go outside and play 
Don't want to respond to anything 
Even on social media 
I don't make any post or comments often 
Sometimes I keep scrolling 
Usually don't find anything I like on it 
I quit browsing 
People don't have nice things to say 
I feel like I am giving my life away 
To a machine 
To a robot 
That doesn't care about my feelings 
Worse of all a lot of people are fake
Some of them are trying to fuck you over
To take advantage of you for their own greed 
Not everyone is your friend 
People killing each other for power
Some days are bad
I just try to stay to myself 
Some days I just want to quit everything and shut down 
Lock myself in my room 
And forget the world 
Don't want to go outside and play 
There are a lot of evil things going on in the world today
Some days I just want to stay in bed and do nothing 



Paul bundren pwb0581 can we get along

Why can't we get along 

Why do we have to fight 

Why must everything be so evil 

Why must everything be about money 

When did this all began 

And how do we stop this 

This isn't how we raised 

Our ancestors would roll in their grave 

If they knew what was going on 

This is not love for one another it is blasphemy 

Can we turn things around 

Can we turn back time 

Can we change this story

End this tragedy before it begins 

Can we get out of the car about to crash 

And escape our death 

Why must everything be a sad sad song 

why do we keep singing along on repeat

Why can't we get along 

Why can't we love each other 

Make this world be a more happier place to be 

Make a difference 

Make a stand 

Don't let others decide for you 

Why are we laying down and dying for hate to eat us alive and take our souls 

Can we rebuild this home 

Make it a happier place to be

Why must we fight

Can we talk this out peacefully 

Can we fix this dysfunctional family

Can we try to paint a picture that is more prettier

Can we get along 

Try to make this world a better place for you and me to live in 



Paul bundren pwb0581 invisible

Sorry that they did this to you 
I will try to not let them do it again 
I will try not to let your death be in vain 
I will try to live on in your memory
I will fight for the rights they tried to take away and the life they claimed from you 
i won't let you be forgotten 
You were someone similar to myself
Someone different from all the rest 
That struggled to fit in just like me
A small town queer kid just like me 
That didn't had much support or resources growing up 
I want you to know that you belong 
I will try to be a safe person  
For all of the community out there that is struggling 
You are not alone 
No matter how hard they try to erase us
We have been and will always be here
No matter if they try to erase us and hide us
No matter how much they bully us 
We are not invisible 


Paul bundren pwb0581 I won't tell them your name

Bombs are going off in the air
But right now we don't care 
Leave the troubles of the world behind 
And just have fun 
We go dancing in the pouring rain 
Two gay soldiers kissing 
We don't care if people are watching 
We do it anyway cuz it feels right 
Then we go back to our tents 
Then perform oral sex on each other til we both cum
Technically we are breaking conduct code
But we proceeded anyway 
Who needs to know 
They say don't ask don't tell 
I won't tell them your name 
If you Don't tell them mine 
We can remain totally discreet 
we can remain completely anonymous 
if you want to 
No one needs to know 
Our relationship status doesn't have to be shared 
It doesn't have to be made public if you don't want to 
Why are people so concerned about what we do with our bodies
As long as we both consent to it 
Isn't there more important things out there to worry about 
We should be able to love each other and marry each other if we want to 
Without people judging us and discriminating against us 

Paul bundren pwb0581 your ghost

I try to pretend I am alright 
But your ghost keeps me up at night 
Can't erase you from my memory 
Everything in you I see in me

Wish I could revive you 
And turn back time
These days have turned even more troubling 
Since you left 

Wish were here with me 
To comfort me 
To guide me along the way 
Ever since you left 
They took our lifelines away 
we have been left in the cold to defend for ourselves 
I wish I could bring you back 
The world turned dark and grey
Your ghost is all that remains 
If I can bring you back from yesterday 
Everything has gone away since you left 

The weather outside turned dark and cold and raining 
My mental health has taken a decline 
For the worse
Trying to hold on to things 
That reminds me of you 
Can't pick up the pieces left scattered behind 
The rest of the family went separate ways 
Us siblings half the time are not getting along 
We have been fighting instead of supporting one another 
We are all struggling but hide behind a mask
Pretend we are ok when we are not 

Wish were here with me 
To comfort me 
To guide me along the way 
Ever since you left 
They took our lifelines away 
we have been left in the cold to defend for ourselves 
I wish I could bring you back 
The world turned dark and grey
Your ghost is all that remains 
If I can bring you back from yesterday 
Everything has gone away since you left 

We all make mistakes 
One thing I would change 
I would appreciate the time we spent more 
I can't get that back 

Wish were here with me 
To comfort me 
To guide me along the way 
Ever since you left 
They took our lifelines away 
we have been left in the cold to defend for ourselves 
I wish I could bring you back 
The world turned dark and grey
Your ghost is all that remains 
If I can bring you back from yesterday 
Everything has gone away since you left 



Tuesday, February 11, 2025

common denominator pwb0581 Paul bundren

You are the Common denominator 
Mass manipulator 
I can't believe we are so dumb 
We are walking in to a trap
Of hate and greed
Controlled by one person taking it all 
And we are all going to pay 

When do you ever learn 
The government isn't trying to save us 
They are trying to fuck us every way they can
They try to run when confronted 
And they will tell you that you're to blame 
Anything to skate around the truth
And pin it on you
They gaslight your beliefs 
Thinking their lies are true

You put a system in place for total domination 
And shut out anyone who steps out of line 
That doesn't fit your norms
You think you have to have total control over everyone 
You think everything has to be about you 
And it is 
You are making a big example of yourself 

You are the Common denominator 
Mass manipulator 
I can't believe we are so dumb 
We are walking in to a trap
Of hate and greed
Controlled by one man (a tyrant)
And we are all going to pay 

Domination and fear 
You won't stop till you have it all
Using us as pawns to get what you want 
Knocking us out one by one by one 

We all march 
Left right left 
To our graves 

Thursday, January 30, 2025

hate in the name of god pwb0581 paul bundren

 in the name of love

trying to overcome

this hate among us

this fear inside us

this paranoia around

is it safe to go outside

feels like we are running for our lives

crawling among us are snakes in the grass

who do we trust now 

now that there are traitors among us

better watch your back this world is turning cold

who can i even count on

being betrayed by everyone

now thrown to the wolves

if i don't die

i'll become leader of the pack

got your name craved in stone

i'll drag you threw the mud

i won't put up with this anymore

i am not your slave

i am not your whore

who was really keeping score

people pitting other people against each other (entitled bullies)

this is not unity

this is animosity

spread by cowards in power

trying to control

trying to conquer the world

when confronted they come up with other scapegoats

they never take the blame for their crimes committed against us 

they never listen to what we have to say do they

they believe their own lies enough to think it is true

time to reveal who is behind the mask

time for the truth can you handle that or twist it like you do everything else

hate in the name of god

we are all going to hell

Wednesday, January 29, 2025

breaking the silence pwb0581 Paul bundren

I am breaking the silence 
I am coming out of my shell 
Fighting the resistance 
I am taking the challenge instead of backing out 
I won't give in this time 
My voice will be heard
Like it or not 

This time I will be coming in top
Or die trying
I'm not willing to be on the bottom 
This time I will be controlling my destination
Not following the path you take 
I won't let others make plans on what they want me to be
I am not your bitch 
I'm not your puppet 
I won't let you pull the strings 
You will never own me
You will never tell me what I can and cannot be

Like a tidal wave 
I won't go quietly in the night 
I won't go down without a fight
I am about to take a stand 
I've had enough this time 

I am breaking the silence 
I am coming out of my shell 
I'm fighting the resistance 
I'm taking the challenge instead of backing out 
I won't give in this time 
My voice will be heard 
Like it or not 

Try to shut me up
Try to shut me out 
I won't let you take control of me now
Try to shut me up 
Try to shut me out 
I won't stay silent 
My voice will be heard 
Like it or not 
I'm breaking the silence 

this is what you asked for pwb0581 Paul bundren

Congratulations you got played 
Artificial intelligence and robots are taking your jobs and taking control of your lives
You've been duped by the rich politicians 
They never cared about you they just take your tax money 
Guess we never learn we keep repeating ourselves
This is what you asked for 
Now you got it 
Are you happy now 
Did you sabotage yourself 
Be careful what you get yourself into 
On the brink of mass destruction 
You want to tear down what our ancestors built 
This is pure evil 
But you are in denial 
You hide behind religion to commit your crimes 
And force it down our throats 
You think you are never wrong 
You go after the minorities and the poor
The blind leading the blind 
To all of our graves
And we are all to blame 
We put these monsters in power 
And now they are going to destroy us all
They are going to kill us all
By spreading their hate
First the LGBTQ plus community 
Then the people of color
Then the Jews
Then the women 
Then you're next
Wake up
We are condoning violence 
We are going to destroy ourselves 
This is what you asked for 
Now you got it 
Are you happy now 
This is how we are going to fall 
This is how we are going to do ourselves in
This is going to be the end 
Careful what you ask for 
You just might get it 
Is this what you really wanted
Now you got it 

I don't want to be you pwb0581 Paul bundren

Be a good boy now 
What if I don't want to be good 
What if I want to be bad
Fuck some shit up
Cause some chaos
Start a riot 
I don't want to be normal 
I don't want to be you
I don't want to live your boring life
I want to be free to express myself 
Without your restraints 
Of what life is supposed to be 
Get down on your hands and knees 
Serve me worship me
No fuck you 
Who the fuck you take me for 
I am not your slave 
If you want respect it has to be earned 
I don't want to be normal 
I don't want to be you 
I don't want to live your boring life 
I want to be free to express myself 
Without your restraints 
Of what life is supposed to be 
I don't want to live a lie
I don't want to be who you want me to be
Your delusional if you think you can change me
I have already made up my mind 
You can't control me 
I don't want to be normal 
I don't want to be you 
I don't want to live your boring life 
I want to be free to express myself 
Without your restraints 
Of what life is supposed to be 
Be a good boy now 
What if I don't want to be good 
What if I want to be bad
I don't want to be who you want me to be 

Wednesday, January 22, 2025

pick a side pwb0581 paul bundren

 pick a side

either way i'm fucked

i can't be myself

being who you want me to be

i don't want to have to pick a side

i don't want to be the enemy

but we are coming to the point of a war

we are coming to a point of no return

we all agree to disagree

every time someone says something is an arguement

another fight

what ever happened to free speech

everything is bias these days

they crucify you if you don't fit the norm

When they leave you laying at the side of the road 

When they pick the meat off your bones 

whose side are you really on




wheels on the bus pwb0581 Paul bundren

You want to strike me down 
God wants to strike me down 
Cuz I'm not like the rest of you
The wheels on the bus keep on turning 
The wheels on the bus 
The wheels on the bus 
Didn't know life was a game 
Every day is a challenge to survive 
The wheels on the bus run you over 
The wheels on the bus 
The wheels on the bus 
You want to strike me down 
God wants to strike me down 
You want to hate me now 
God wants to hate me now 
Cuz I'm not like the rest of you 
The wheels on the bus keep on turning 
The wheels on the bus 
The wheels on the bus 
The wheels on the bus run you over 
The wheels on the bus 
The wheels on the bus 
I am not willing to ly down
To get ran over
I won't give you control 
The wheels on the bus run you over 
The wheels on the bus 
The wheels on the bus 
It is kill or be killed 
And I don't want to die
Not tonight 
Didn't know life was a game 
So cut throat 
People slashing each others necks
The wheels on the bus run you over 
The wheels on the bus 
The wheels on the bus 
I don't want to die 
Not tonight 

Tuesday, January 21, 2025

hollow ground pwb0581 Paul bundren

We are standing on hollow ground 
And we can't seem to find help now 
If you are different they don't care
The government is only for themselves 
Vote away my rights
Erase me
Hate me
Cuz I'm different 
Cuz you think you are better than me 
Cuz you have millions and billions 
You think you are entitled to dictate the whole world 

What if I was straight what if I was gay what if I was trans
Would you look at me the same 
What if I was black or brown or white 
Would you be prejudice against me


Thursday, January 2, 2025

I thought you should know pwb0581 Paul bundren

I thought that you should know 
Before you go ahead and proceed 
That I have been hurt and lied to
And I thought you should know 
That I have been scammed 
I have been gaslighted
I have been manipulated 
It has been hard for me to trust
Every time I pick the pieces up
I fumble on the ground 
I thought that you should know 
Before you go ahead and proceed 
That I am vulnerable 
That my heart has already been broken 
And I thought you should know 
Before you go ahead and proceed 
I have been deceived once before 
You can go ahead and try 
But I think I will be taking my time 
I have been tricked i have been played
And don't want to go through that again 
I thought that you should know 
Before you go ahead and proceed 
That I have been hurt and lied to
And I thought you should know 
That I have been scammed 
I have been gaslighted
I have been manipulated 
It has been hard for me to trust
And I thought you should know 
Before you go ahead and proceed 
I have been deceived once before 
No more games 
No more lies
No regrets 
No alibis 
I think I rather take my time 
Don't want to rush into anything 
I thought that you should know 

Wednesday, December 25, 2024

in my mind by Paul bundren pwb0581

Inside my racing mind 
Inside my conflicting mind
Things seem to be jumping out at me 
Out of my control 
Things don't seem to be getting better 
I feel like I am fighting an uphill battle 
It doesn't seem like I'm winning 
This disease is hard to manage 
And hard to understand  
Sometimes I hallucinate 
See and hear things that ain't there
Thanks for the few friends that stick around 
Sometimes I think I am crazy
That I don't belong 
Sometimes I get nervous 
Sometimes I isolate myself in my room 
Don't know what to say to people 
Sometimes people get offended over anything 
That's why half of time I say nothing 
I am the quiet kid in the corner 
Observing everything 
Sometimes I question what is real
Don't know how I feel 
Don't know what is real or what is lies
A lot of scams going on these days 

Thursday, December 12, 2024

pwb0581- place in this world

 place in this world

it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. feeling lost don't know where i fit in. it is scary feels like a war going on and i'm fighting a losing battle. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. sometimes i feel weird like i don't belong, want to run out of my skin, sometimes i just want to be someone else cuz don't feel like i fit in. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. feeling lost don't know where i fit in. it is scary feels like a war going on and i'm fighting a losing battle. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. times are changing and i am just trying to adapt to it sometimes i feel like a dot in this world do i even matter? it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. feeling lost don't know where i fit in. it is scary feels like a war going on and i'm fighting a losing battle. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world


pwb0581- bloody hands

 bloody hands

it used to be so simple now everything is so complicated. no matter what i do i am fucked. seems like i am making enemies and not friends. trying to take a step forward but instead taking steps back. no matter what i do i cant stay clean always trying to wash these bloody hands. cant seem to make peace. always trying to wash these bloody hands. it used to be easy but now it is hard. trying not to offend someone but i end up pissing people off anyway. the more i do the more they hate. i cant please everyone. no matter what i do i cant stay clean always trying to wash these bloody hands. cant seem to make peace. always trying to wash these bloody hands. 


Monday, November 11, 2024

best of pwb0581 vol 1

 best of pwb0581 vol 1

nowhere-we are going nowhere, we are going nowhere now,    it is hard to say things right, every night there is a fight we cant work it out, we are worn out, thrown out of our hearts desire, dreams are shattered, our brains are scattered, our lives are served on a silver platter promises broken, lives shoken, what is said is spoken, now we can't go back, we are going nowhere now this isn't right why do we live this way? why do we have to hurt eachother? can we love eachother? we cant work it out, we are worn out, thrown out of our hearts desire, dreams are shattered, our brains are scattered, our lives are served on a silver platter promises broken, lives shoken, what is said is spoken, now we can't go back, we are going nowhere now running back in the same direction going in circles going nowhere could we break the cycle or keep repeating the same mistakes,  why does it feel like we keep going nowhere i feel like there is nothing here. we are going nowhere, we are going nowhere now


on my own- I stare down these dark streets. how cold it gets sometimes. I think I'm feeling weak. I feel like I'd rather die. I'm alone and there is no one here. I think I'll stand here til someone walks by, cuz I need a friend, someone to reply when times get so rough and it feels  like you can't get by, when you can't make ends meet this is where I feel defeat. I am on my own and there is no one home  I am lost so where do I go I am on my own


unspoken-I guess that we can be friends I guess that we can meet again  I guess we can sit down and talk maybe you might understand if I gave you a chance but all of this time wasted as it flies by the words have been forgotten and all this left unmentioned all this unspoken it will never get said at all how funny it is sometimes the best things get left unsaid how funny it is sometimes how on my own I let things slip on by I guess that we can be friends I guess that we can meet again I guess we can sit down and talk maybe you might understand if I gave you a chance but all of this time wasted as it flies by the words have been forgotten and all this left unmentioned all this unspoken it will never get said at all if I ever see you again I want to say I'm sorry


too bad- I’m one step away from losing my nerve Please save me from going beserk There is nothing left here safe on Earth It feels like I’ve been cursed I don’t know where I am going One thing I know I’m here lost I am lost there is nowhere to go It feels like I am on my own What do you do when everything has been taken away and someone has broken your trust And nothing is ever enough to repay what was lost You wish you could bring things back to good But you can’t bring things back to good It’s a shame but we all must go on It’s too bad It’s too bad They give a F about the people they hurt  and the lives that become of them and the lives that become of us They don’t see what we see with our eyes It’s too bad that they are blind or just ignore What do you do when everything has been taken away and someone has broken your trust And nothing is ever enough to repay what was lost You wish you could bring things back to good But you can’t bring things back to good It’s a shame but we all must go on It’s too bad There are not enough answers And too many problems, Too many problems And not enough solutions too many questions and no fucking answers i ask why but get no reply can't keep waiting for a ship that will never come in


good enough-  nothing ever seems good enough for you...  I want to change But I can’t seem to throw away All of this hatred inside of me Someone please kill me It would be easier than to go Face to face with my head Oh no it goes again Switching back and forth In my head I can’t comprehend Sometimes I wanted to die Cuz I get sick of trying Feeling like nothing I do Gets appreciated And I am left on my own With no support Oh no here it goes again My thoughts are Switching back and forth In my head I can’t comprehend Because nothing is ever good enough, So why try? Nothing is ever good enough, Why should I do it for you? Nothing is ever good enough Maybe I’m moving on to something new I brace myself for another meltdown This time longer than any time before Anything I say seems to get ignored Sometimes I feel like I am half dead Is there anything to live for Because nothing is ever good enough, So why try? Nothing is ever good enough Why should I do it for you? Nothing is ever good enough I am trying to find something new


never give up- It started out simple But then things got complicated,It started out safe But then we got thrown in the crossfire It started out clean But things got messy, I wish I could fix it and make things better It started out clear Then things got blurry, It started as a dream And turned in to a nightmare I can’t turn back time To make things alright I try to be strong Even if I am losing the fight I’m never certain anymore Where anything can change when you least expect We right now could use some hope right now Cuz right now it looks glim  We right now could use a player Cuz our life is in disarrayWe try to tackle these problems alone with no help We get the cold shoulder when we are hurting the most They say grin and bear it That is what we are going to try to do We’ve been underdogs our whole lives But we are going to pull through We are here to prove them wrong Never give up! eventually we'll win They pushed and shoved us and bullied us around But guess who is getting the last laugh now What happens when you have no one left to pick on You only got yourself to blame Maybe something inside of you is hurting too We right now could use some hope Cuz right now it looks glim We right now could use a player Cuz our life is in disarray We try to tackle these problems alone with no help We get the cold shoulder when we are hurting the most They say grin and bear it That is what we are going to try to do We’ve been underdogs our whole lives But we are going to pull through We are here to prove them wrong Never give up eventually we'll win Things used to be clear but now are frayed and blurred Things used to be clean But now we got blood on our hands We lost our training wheels Now we are riding on the edge We can’t turn back now Please stay with me and don’t let go will we have each other’s backs while riding through the storm This world can be a dark cold lonely scary place no one wants to face it alone Things are unfortunately not getting any easier I feel we should hold on to eachother We right now could use some hope Cuz right now it looks glim We right now could use a player Cuz our life is in disarray We try to tackle these problems alone with no help We get the cold shoulder when we are hurting the most They say grin and bear it That is what we are going to try to do We’ve been underdogs our whole lives But we are going to pull through We are here to prove them wrong Never give up! Eventually we’ll win


disappear- how can a star shining so bright just disappear here just yesterday and now is gone running longing for the things that kept us safe they ain't here anymore gaping holes are where our hearts used to be Certainly is never clear The future is not determined Nothing is forever Everything is meant to be broken I guess everything fades Nothing is meant to be forever How can a star shining so bright disappear in a blink of an eye Here just yesterday and now is gone Running, longing for the things that kept us safe They ain’t here any more Gaping holes are where our hearts used to be Struggling to find the good Nowhere left to run from the demons that keeps following you How can a star shining so bright disappear in a blink of an eye Here just yesterday and now is gone How can a star so bright disappear How can something that seemed harmless be so bad Never know the damage caused until it is too late Can’t turn back to fix the mistakes Sometimes it is better to let it go Running longing for the things and people that kept us safe They ain’t here anymore Gaping holes are where our hearts used to be


1000 wrongs- Sometimes you have to go through 1000 wrongs until you find one right. Sometimes you have to step in the fire and burn the candle at both ends. If you want to change the scenery you have to step out of the box. The bar is the new standard. Everything is going 1000 miles per hour it is too late to slow things down. I can’t erase all the stupid things I’ve said and done. I can’t rewind to yesterday. I can only live for today Answers sometimes come from the least likely of sources Sometimes you have to dig in the trash to succeed I’ve been trying to read through the disguise Wondering through the great unknown Fighting through the pain Through whatever storms comes this way Sometimes theres no reward without pain Sometimes theres no pleasure without responsibility There are no actions without consequences Sometimes you have to keep your own head in check and edit yourself Sometimes you have to go through 1000 wrongs until you find one right I do believe that things happen for a reason I don’t believe that I am just a ghost of chance Sometimes you have to cross the line to find out where the boundary lays Sometimes you have to tear down before you start building Sometimes new beginnings come from an ending Sometimes a mistake has to be made before you can learn a lesson If you never try something you will never know Sometimes you have to go through 1000 wrongs to find one right


not love-  it is not love it is pain O baby!   It is not love it is pain. Why do you keep doing it? You are addicted to the company but when the dawn comes it turns out to be one night stands O baby it’s not love its addiction! It is not love and when the night is done you are left empty and alone You are addicted to the dick and when he cums then he goes O baby it’s not love it’s a sham its not love why do you keep coming back to the same situations You end up getting used and finding yourself alone. You don’t truly want this O baby it’s not love its fiction! Don’t fall for it. It is a scam he doesn’t love you only what he can get from you.   You should just say no and run!!!


angels- I could never heal you I could never help you I could never understand what was killing you I could never solve your issues or your problems cuz I had my share of my own I could never be the one to heal your pain It eats me up now that you are gone felt like I could have should have done something and I didn’t May the angels lift you up cuz I wasn’t able to May the angels love you cuz my heart was empty May the angels give you peace from this war down below And may the angels give you closure ease the confusion and chaos and take it all away Reminisce from all of my family that came and past my biggest regret is I wish I could have been there for them when they needed me More emotionally than physically I get the sense that none of them know me anymore I left you alone abandoned only to hear about you years later after I found out you died May the angels ease your pain cuz I was never able to. I could never figure out what was wrong May the angels lift you up cuz I wasn’t able to May the angels love you cuz my heart was empty May the angels give you peace from this war down below And may the angels give you closure ease the confusion and chaos and take it all away


you don't own me- you dont own me i am not your toy i am not your puppet i am not your gopher stop demanding all these things that you want from me nothing is for free i am not your slave you want me to just lay down and die well i am not going to do that i dont belong to you get that straight get your fucking hands off of me i dont belong to you all that you want is to take without giving back i am not down with that it doesnt matter what sexual orientation or gender i am it is my body my rules get your fucking hands off of me i dont belong to you. you dont own me you are not going to tell me what to do with or cant do with my body its my body and i'll do whatever i want with it


i have a dream- i have a dream that we are on a permanent vacation to an island far far away.  where it is always sunny and 75 away from the drama away from the hate drinking margarittas and watching the sunset and that we never have to die we never get old we can stay forever young we can be kids forever never grow up sing at the top of our lungs to music so loud it is blowing all our speakers there are no parents there are no rules we can stay up all night long and sleep all day nobody gives a fuck as long as you are having fun we can dance all night to the dj and go streaking naked there will be no pissed off neighbors to call the cops just me and you we can live forever happy ever after and the party will never end we can live forever and the party will never end i have a dream lets make it reality lets pack our bags and leave before the sun comes up we can live forever and the party will never end we can live forever and the party will never end


apology- i am so empty (so empty) simply incomplete i am breaking down and there is no one to save when i fall i don't know i thought you'd lead right through me i was deeply mistakened to think that way

and i was liable for all of the failures everything that didnt go right was account of me i brought your world down and turned it upside down and there is no way now to bring things back to good you probably hate me for my taking when i shouldnt have but there is no apology that'll ever bring things back to good i was liable for all of the failures everything that didnt go right was account of me i brought this world down and turned it upside down and there is no way now to bring things back to good if i could take back everything, if i could change everything, i would.   if i could erase everything,i would


key to my heart- Turning on wasted dead end,Washed up on shore on remote island,Never to be found Driving for miles in circles,Still lost Seems to be the same story Going home alone every time I gave you the key to my heart And you threw it in the bay I gave you the key to my heart Then you just left me to drown I guess I’m empty emotionless Feel like nobody really gives a damn So I secluded myself So nobody can hurt me again I gave you the key to my heart And you threw it in the bay I gave you the key to my heart Then you just left me to drown I should not have put my faith In someone elses hands They always seem to crush it every time I gave you the key to my heart And you threw it in the bay I gave you the key to my heart Then you left me to drown I gave you the key to my heart And you threw it in the bay I gave you the key to my heart And you left me To watch me drown


distance- maybe i need some distance from this place sometimes distance is needed sometimes distance is good sometimes silence is an answer sometimes it is better to leave and not fix everyones messes sometimes there is no practice you just jump into it hands on with no introduction i cant put myself in your shoes sometimes the distance is closer than you think sometimes it is just harder by what you made things out to be sometimes me too i tend to overthink but need to put the past in the past new day forward,ride off in the distance (just ride) just ride off in the night changes are coming


good good night- good good night. may all of your unintentional wrongs turn to rights good good night. may all of your wars turn to peace i hope you can find some source of comfort amidst the chaos good good night sometimes it is better to let go than to hold on so good good night good good night dont let the aching suffer anymore and don't sign up to be somebodys whore with nothing to gain if it aint a two way street then it is an dead end. your gut usually has the answer. dont force it. dont fight it. dont let yourself suffer anymore good good night i hope you sleep peacefully and whatever meant to be will come its way good good night i hope that tomorrow something comes better. good good night.....   good good night.


falling farther- all of this time was wasted away, all of this time i was focused on someone else. i lost track of myself trying to follow someone else (walking in thier shoes) so I keep on falling, falling farther than I ever wanted to go. I keep on falling, falling farther than I ever wanted to go,  cuz I spend too much time worrying/thinking about you sometimes I don't know how to live my life sometimes I dont know cuz I never had a life of my own. I tryed to live my life like you not knowing myself trying to be like someone else trying to bring myself back again, stop trying to please everybody else.  can i bring myself back again, back to me, stop trying to make everyone happy  while living a life thats not mine over+over again repeating the same mistakes


might have been- i never meant 2 say goodbye but time flies & passes by i don't worry anymore about the might have been cuz there is nothing about it that i can change i always wanted for things to be good but things never worked out. i dont worry anymore about the past have been i just worry about what I can do today the pieces fall everywhere I cant tell them apart I dont think i can mend your broken heart i feel like we are 1000 miles apart the confusion sets in and I feel disconnected but we were in this together we should have been able to work this out, but I dont know how I dont know why it got this way all i could say i can only be your friend i tremble 1000 times my brain keeps going back to memories that i shouldn't have but somehow they won't go away they get stuck on my mind i get lost in time but we were in this together we should have been able to work this out but I dont know how I dont know why it got this way all i could say i can only be your friend i get lost over & over again but I dont want to pretend i just want to be as honest as I possably can neither one of us were ready we needed more time to sort things out but we were in this together we should have been able to work this out but I dont know how I dont know why it got this way all i could say i can only be your friend i never meant to say goodbye but time flies and passes by i dont worry anymore about the might have been cuz there is nothing about it i can change i always wanted for things to be good but things didnt work out that way i dont worry anymore about the might have been i just worry about today i never meant to disappear but things seem that way lost in a blur fighting to fill the hole in our lives


new start- Lets get away, Leave for a while, Maybe never come back.  Drive aimlessly into the sunset With no planned destination Things haven’t been working out for a very long time Can’t force something if it ain’t there Sometimes you can’t fix everything that is broken There are days where I go in circles Making no progress I just want to be anywhere but here I got off on the wrong exit And can’t find my way back to the road the I was on, I got lost again The future is as blurry as ever I don’t know what lies ahead Days have been rockyThey are still rocky ahead I am just looking for a brand new start I am just looking for a way to get by Will you come with me Are you with me or not Things aren’t getting as easier as time goes on I have been trying to find the light I have been trying to get back on the right page I am trying to find the hope I lost I don’t know where I am going Things happen unexpectedly The future can be unpredictable Days have been rocky They are still rocky ahead I am just looking for a fresh new start


new life-  I need a new job, I need a new car, I need a new life,Quit judging me I need new friends, I need a new family,I need to move to a new town I need a new body, A new everything Some days I am like fuck off Leave me alone. I just want to block off the world  There are some things I would like to change but is beyond my control so i just let it ride wish i could throw my old self away and come back as a totally different person. i dont like myself anymore. things are never simple anymore. i need a new life


ch 16-pwb0581 by paul bundren

 ch 16

never again

this love was over before it ever began i swear never again screaming from my bed this love was over before it ever begin i was never yours your words and actions don't represent me what you say and do don't define me one day when you reach the door i wont be answer it is my way of saying no


don't touch

back up don't touch you are out of bounds i have better things to do than being tied down to you please excuse me this bird is getting free from his cage this plane is about to take off without you


blow me away

wind, wind blow me away away from this place away from the pain no more sorrow no hard feelings one day you may wake up and i'll be gone wind, wind blow me away some place safe in gods hands to a place where i belong and i'll never get hurt again


stay on your side of the fence

you may think you know me one day the next day you don't allies turn to enemies over boundries crossed so keep your feet planted on your side of the fence keep your hands off me or i may have to inituate self defence i dont love being told what to do keep your dick in your pants keep your tanks in your territory or we are going to have a problem stay on your side of the fence


this ain't love

i want to leave there is nothing you can do to stop me tomorrow i will be gone bye bye this aint love it is torture you need attention i can't give i am sorry i am not the answer to your ongoing problems i have issues too that need fixing i cant fix you i have to fix myself i don't want to spent the rest of my life being your caregiver there is no tomorrow we are done. i have a life i would like to live before i die. do i need a reason why to say goodbye. i have goals and dreams just like you. i have a vision i'd like to see instead of trying to furfill yours so bye bye this can't go on forever i have places i would like to see i can't let you hold me back this ain't love it is torture you need attention i can never give and it breaks my heart. goodbye i'm on my way to find my place in this world i don't see your support in my hope and dreams you want me to fix you and not fix me sorry but i don't think that is how love is supposed to work so bye bye this can't go on forever i have places i would like to see i can't let you hold me back this ain't love it is torture you need attention i can never give to you. you need an answer i can never give


i don't want

i dont want to be hidden i dont want to be the second option i want to feel like i belong i dont want to be silenced i dont want to live my life in a closet i want to be out and proud i want to take charge of my life not sit on the sidelines and watch life pass me by i don't want to be the place you run to when you burned your welcome somewhere else. i dont want to be in a secret.


gotta keep trying

it is hard to go on but i must sometimes it is hard to make choices but it is for the better gotta keep moving though some days are hard gotta keep trying though some days i want to quit my parents up in heaven would want me to keep trying to follow my dreams so that is what i am going to do i am going to fight to the bitter end gotta keep trying even when i want to quit

place in this world

it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. feeling lost don't know where i fit in. it is scary feels like a war going on and i'm fighting a losing battle. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. sometimes i feel weird like i don't belong, want to run out of my skin, sometimes i just want to be someone else cuz don't feel like i fit in. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. feeling lost don't know where i fit in. it is scary feels like a war going on and i'm fighting a losing battle. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. times are changing and i am just trying to adapt to it sometimes i feel like a dot in this world do i even matter? it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. feeling lost don't know where i fit in. it is scary feels like a war going on and i'm fighting a losing battle. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world


look out for number one

i cant let you drag me down. i cant let you pull me under. sorry if i cut you off. i gotta look out for myself before i can look out for others. this show is over before it starts. i dont want to play the part of a losing game. sorry not sorry i got look out for number one. got no time to waste. tomorrow is not promised. birds drop out of the sky. i cant let you control me. i have to take charge of my destiny. got no more time to waste. i have to look out for myself. i have look out for number one. sorry if i sound selfish i have to look out for myself cuz if i dont who else will. people looking for favors without giving back no offense but i am like fuck that. from here on out i have to look out for myself. i have look out for number one.


bloody hands

it used to be so simple now everything is so complicated. no matter what i do i am fucked. seems like i am making enemies and not friends. trying to take a step forward but instead taking steps back. no matter what i do i cant stay clean always trying to wash these bloody hands. cant seem to make peace. always trying to wash these bloody hands. it used to be easy but now it is hard. trying not to offend someone but i end up pissing people off anyway. the more i do the more they hate. i cant please everyone. no matter what i do i cant stay clean always trying to wash these bloody hands. cant seem to make peace. always trying to wash these bloody hands. 


the future is here

saying goodbye is the hardest part but it opens up a new beginning. i cant dwell on my past mistakes if i do they will eat me alive. time to turn the page never looking back cuz i dont want to live in the past. i am only focused on now. what can i do to improve meself for the future. like it or not the future is here. everything is changing. and if you dont adapt you wont last.


Thursday, October 31, 2024

pwb0581- look out for number one by paul bundren

 look out for number one-i cant let you drag me down. i cant let you pull me under. sorry if i cut you off. i gotta look out for myself before i can look out for others. this show is over before it starts. i dont want to play the part of a losing game. sorry not sorry i got look out for number one. got no time to waste. tomorrow is not promised. birds drop out of the sky. i cant let you control me. i have to take charge of my destiny. got no more time to waste. i have to look out for myself. i have look out for number one. sorry if i sound selfish i have to look out for myself cuz if i dont who else will. people looking for favors without giving back no offense but i am like fuck that. from here on out i have to look out for myself. i have look out for number one.


Sunday, September 22, 2024

pwb0581- words that kill

 what are you going to do when you reached the bridge you burned that you needed to cross

what are you going to do when you reach that deathbed is it too late to reverse the mistakes

what are you going to do when you reach a fork in the road you cant be perfect

some might say i have made some bad choices

i am just trying to play the hand i was dealt with

i cant please everyone

half of the time i am not happy myself

trying to make people content while sacrificing myself

checking out all my feelings at the door

sometimes it feels like i dont matter anymore

if this is the last song i write

i want it to be something special not this

physically i am not dead but your words they killed me

i don't have a defense to your manipulative games

say what you like but i'm not listening


Sunday, September 1, 2024

pwb0581-alive again

 alive again- if i can wake up, if i can wake up feels like i've been sleeping my whole damn life, if i can wake up what is wrong with me

no energy 1000 cups of coffee will never be enough to pull me through if i can wake up why does everything seem so dead and gone

is there a way to make things alive again afraid to say happiness hit a record drought though i try to hide it. it is clear everything is not ok

there is an elephant in the room i think it is pretty obvious as much as you try to avoid it you can't look away

do you feel alone honestly i feel alone do you feel scared honestly i feel scared like nothing can save me at all

do you feel defeated and can't get ahead not even making it through

is there a way to make things alive again can we make things alive again these days everything seem so dark and gloom

is there a way to make things alive again i don't mean to sound so demanding but it seems so fatally desperate

Tuesday, August 27, 2024

pwb0581 woke up this morning

Be happy I woke up this morning 
I didn't want to 
Just wanted to go back to bed
Didn't want to get moving 
Sometimes coffee and red bull
 is not enough to get me going 
Just want to crawl back under the covers 
Not looking forward to work
But I guess I have to make money somehow 
If I had my way I would stay in bed
I feel like I am dragging along
Not really functioning right
Sometimes not myself 

Monday, August 26, 2024

pwb0581- bored and alone

 i dont mind being naked in front of and blowing complete strangers

but sometimes i get nervous talking about me in public settings

most of the time i try to be the quiet kid in the corner

cuz i dont like getting picked on

but i end up getting made fun of anyways

cuz i am weird

sometimes i stay up way too late

then sleep in the middle of the day

end up jerking off alone

sometimes i like company sometimes i dont

sometimes maybe i am not sure what i want

i think i want friends to hang out with (and not just for sex)

but sometimes i chase them away

i do know it is no fun to be bored and alone






Sunday, August 11, 2024

untitled 2024 pwb0581 paul bundren

yesterday we were in a place we can understand

but now shit is fucked up and harder

we are on level 99 going on 100

this is no tetris this is real life

our lives are on the line

the future is blurry

and the past is history

but we do got right now

we are putting a chair leg on the hope button

guess that is all we got left

i am on life # 9

this could be my last chapter

what would i like my story to be like

each and every day is a new struggle a new fight

somehow i have made it by

what does god have in store for me

i dont know but i'll go in this battle with my sword drawn

living each day like it is my last day

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it is so lifeless

it is so spineless

things have gotten out of hand

now we are second guessing who are our real friends

imposters lies and scams plague society 

cant tell whos real and whos fake

everything i come to know is questioned

who are you?

i dont trust you

everything i come to know is false

who are you?

i dont know you

dont come at me with that sugarcoated bullshit

cuz i'm not buying

these days i dont believe anyone anymore

one thing is true is keep your back eyes open

and never blink

they'll come for you any second

everything i come to know is questioned

who are you?

i dont trust you

everything i come to know is false

who are you?

i dont know you

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Tuesday, August 6, 2024

pwb0581- letter from a fan

 letter from a fan


all of your sadness all of your pain all of your anger all of your tears they are ours now 

we lost a legend we lost our hero there is no getting back to the way things used be 

we lost a friend someone everyone looked up to things will never be the same without you 

all of your songs they hit me hard in the soul and there is no getting back what was taken from us 

i wished that i could have seen one of your concerts i got your poster on my wall 

it has been years since your death yet it still hits me today 

i'll never get the chance to see the dream of seeing you live cuz you are gone 

i was one of your biggest fans 

if i could bring you back if i could trade your place if i can see you on stage i would  

i would do anything to see you again


Thursday, August 1, 2024

pwb0581-dear dad

A part of me is missing 
A part of me has gone away
When you left you took a piece of my heart with you
You were my hero now i am lost without you
I never know what I needed until it was gone
I never knew when I needed a hand to hold until you left this world
I am empty hollow and weak
when you gone away i lost a friend 
I lost my hero
I lost the person I looked up to

Unfortunately now i have to be the one who is strong 
Everybody is leaning on me and wants me to pull through
I will never be able to fill your shoes
You were the glue that held everything together now everything fell apart 

I just want to make you proud
I don't think i can be half the man that you were
I wish that I listened to your advice
Unfortunately half of the things went out the other ear and to waste
I wish i could be a better son
A better brother 
A better friend 
If I could I would go back in time and take back the bad things I said 
I could have handled things better than I did
I am sorry but I can't take back the stupid things I said and done



pwb0581-sirons

 sirons-  why did you go back?, when they left you bleeding, they did it again, didnt they?

why did you allow this, why did you let them in, why couldn't you see this was a trap. yet you keep falling for it again and again

can you hear the sirons,the sirons coming for you nevermind you dug your hole now youre buried alive slipped too far can't get out, why did you go there?

you wondered alone, defiant, thinking you could recover, but you have failed and your scared, wont tell whats going on, buried in secrets, burying you alive

can you hear the sirons,the sirons coming for you nevermind you dug your hole now youre buried alive slipped too far can't get out, why did you go there?

can you hear the sirons,the sirons does this raise an alarm in your head?!?

pwb0581-doormat

 doormat- No solutions only complications.  No apologies just declarations (of war). Don’t slow down just speed up! (rush) Take the money and run!

Instead of trying to find a vaccination. You’re spreading the infection. Sugarcoat it with candy covered lies. 

How am I supposed to believe when you twist it time after time. YO!

You’re the ignorance of compliance. Doing what the man said so. to set his grandkids retirement. while you labor til you die.

do you even see everytime he robs you blind, yet you keep coming back, can't you see you look like a fool. you did it to yourself

follow but don’t lead. don’t you see youre planting the seed. 

U try to create chaos & confusion to mislead people to try to trick them in trying to get what U want but it is failing & U will be the one who ends up losing....  

UR abrasive and divisive, contradicting and controlling, but don’t know how to react when the cycle breaks in your face, YO!

cuz you keep coming back to the bed you burned. sucked me dry and left me on the curb. what makes you think you deserve me.

after all of the times you went behind my back to assist the people who kept selling you out.

did U see they didnt care they were holding U down and i am through with giving myself away to ppl who just dont care

pwb0581-end to begin

 end 2 begin-End to begin,Finish to start,Crawl to walk,Stop to go,Tear down to build,Die to live,Say goodbye to say hello,End to begin

Should I love thy neighbor?!?..  They say treat each other with respect But some put the knife to your back. Be careful b4 you cast your stones.

Cuz everybody wants to rule the world But don’t want to take on the blame. Everybody wants to play the game But doesn’t want to lose

Everybody wants their share But nobody wants to get their hands dirty. everybody wants to shoot but Nobody wants to be a target. Find another scapegoat to label Cuz we all try to act so innocent

There is some things people do and say That I feel crosses the line But most of the time I try to keep my mouth shut Cuz I don’t want to be in the spotlight

Bullies bullying bullies Most of the time I try to hide in the corner (under the radar) But sometimes even I was the instigator

Everybody wants to rule the world But nobody wants to take the blame. Everybody wants to play the game But don’t want to lose.

Everybody wants their share But nobody wants to get their hands dirty. everybody wants to shoot but nobody wants to be a target  find another scapegoat to label cuz we all try to act so innocent

We all feel like pawns trying to be king, kings trying to take out pawns, just be careful,Know thy enemy, Keep all eyes open at all times Even at the back of your head

Just remember nothing and nobody is safe and no time is promised (war4peace)

End to begin,Finish to start,Crawl to walk,Stop to go,Tear down to build,Die to live,Say goodbye to say hello,End to begin, it must end for things to begin again

pwb0581- ups and downs

 ups & downs- would anyone be willing to stick around through my ups and downs can i find balance in the instabilty can i find organization in the disarray can i find normally in the dysfunction

would anybody be willing to ride this rollercoaster would anybody want to stick around through my ups and downs

I have been inconsistant sometimes i can be good sometimes i can be bad sometimes i can be happy sometimes i can be mad would anybody want to stick around and deal with my shit

I never seem to be able to find peace would anybody be willing to take the time and deal with my impatience

if anybody knew all of the halfs and the truths would they stay or leave would anybody be willing to stick around through all of the ups and downs

pwb0581- distance

 distance-maybe i need some distance from this place sometimes distance is needed sometimes distance is good

sometimes silence is an answer sometimes it is better to leave and not fix everyones messes

sometimes there is no practice you just jump into it hands on with no introduction i cant put myself in your shoes

sometimes the distance is closer than you think sometimes it is just harder by what you made things out to be sometimes me too i tend to overthink

but need to put the past in the past new day forward

ride off in the distance (just ride) just ride off in the night changes are coming

pwb0581- not extinct

 not extinct-You thought you killed me You thought you got the best of me You thought you broke me down  But you only made me see That I’m still alive

You didn’t break my heart You didn’t crush my soul You almost finished me When you left me bleeding But I’m going to show you That I’m not extinct I’m not dead Not at all

You had me for a fall You caught me while I was blind But never again Will I take your side You played me to the left And almost got my best But I’m going to show you That I’m still around

I’m not fossilized I’m just experienced I’m not extinct I’m not dead

You didn’t break my heart You didn’t crush my soul You almost finished me When you left me bleeding  But I’m going to make you realize That I’m still alive I won’t let you kill me I’m not dead,Not at all

pwb0581- trash( the song) by paul bundren

 trash

one mans trash is another mans treasure 

what one sees as ugly someone else sees as beautiful 

we all got different tastes that is the world we are living in 

don't knock it til you try it 

here we are in a world of make believe 

we can be anything if we want to be 

never say never 

times are changing including the weather 

beautiful trash recycled into works of art 

why throw away our dreams 

try to recover what we thought was lost and could never be seen 

hope is only dead if you dont believe in yourself

pwb0581-cool stuff by paul bundren

 cool stuff- 


there's a lot of places to go in this journey of life. 

there's a lot of things to do. 

i dont know what to do. 

i dont know where to go.

i got lost in my own mind thinking what cool stuff i should have in my life. 

like ADIDAS response tennis shoes, 

everlast whitey ford sings the blues 

dont know what to choose britney christina or you.  

dont know which place to go should a go to pluto?

i dont know what to do should i sing to you?

what should i do with all of this cool stuff, 

what should i choose i dont even know, 

what should i do with all of this cool stuff, 

what should i choose britney christina or you

now in my lexus convertable 

i'm going 95 in a school zone

not paying attention to the road. 

a truck driver honked his horn. 

i just heard somebody cuss.

i'm playin limp bizkit on the radio.

talkin'n'textin on my cell phone, 

then i say "oh no, fuck " a cop is coming down the road

he pulls me over and rips up my license 

and he give me a fine 

and he impounded my car. 

now i have nowhere to go 

and nothing to do

and all of this cool stuff 

i cherished so much was just a drag

pwb0581-so long goodbye

 so long goodbye- so long goodbye if i could find you in a different life you cant see how much i need you so long goodbye i wish i had another chance to tell you i love you it hurts so much so long goodbye i keep saying 1000 times every day i cant forgive myself for the mistakes that were made i wish i spent more time with you now i dont have anyone to talk to i feel like i have taken things for granted didnt relize how much i need you now but you are gone til next time so long goodbye

pwb0581-if

 if i asked 4 help would anyone come 

if i was layiing on the side of the road 

would u run me over again

if had my back to the wall 

would be by my side or strike at me 

sometimes i dont feel like i got anybody at all

ppl quick 2 take but when i need something doesnt seem to be anybody who cares

if i was on my last life my last leg would you be my crutch or put the bullet in my head

pwb0581- cuddle buddy

 cuddle buddy looking 4 a cuddle buddy looking 4 some1 to spend time with will u be my teddy bear be my valentine looking 4 a sweetheart not a 1 night stand

deep down what i really what is a soulmate more than just giving quick fixes looking for a cuddle buddy looking a hugger

will you be my cuddle buddy will you be my teddy bear will you be my valentine that will last a lot longer than the month of february

i don't care if it snows as long as i am tucked warm safe inside with you

will you be my cuddle buddy will you be my teddy bear will you be my valentine that will last a lot longer than the month of february

pwb0581- frozen cold

  frozen coldO baby! It feels so frozen cold what you do to me. You promise me forever then give me a 1 night stand

O baby it feels so frozen cold and I’m all alone I was better off alone than to be led by fake love

O baby it feels so frozen cold how when you are alone no one sticks up for you They believe others word before yours

O baby it feels so frozen cold in some way I guess I was probably asking for it

I never really bothered to answer back so I guess it is expecting for you to do the same to me I guess I know the reasons why and I’m to blame

Walking alone in a winter storm with hurricane winds I should have known I was the fool

O baby it feels so frozen cold what you do to be.  You promise me forever then give me a 1 night stand

pwb0581- stand alone

 -stand alone- mothers weeping after she buries her young signs ignored society of disreguard Junkies O.D. on a highway to nowhere why did we get this far

We are giving away the pills. It is like we are intentionally throwing it in peoples faces Does anybody even bother? Does anybody care? I do even if I stand alone

Walking on the surface trying to find the core of the rot in the mirror the reflection is me I guess I cant expect something to get done tomorrow if I don’t start today

Maybe that is part of the problem doing nothing results in nothing Don’t handout cheap trills to those who steal your pride

Don’t let is get this far do something fight back even if you stand alone Ooo, I stand , I stand alone, Ooo I stand, I stand alone

pwb0581-it's not love

 not love- it is not love it is pain O baby!   It is not love it is pain. Why do you keep doing it?

You are addicted to the company but when the dawn comes it turns out to be one night stands O baby it’s not love its addiction!

It is not love and when the night is done you are left empty and alone You are addicted to the dick and when he cums then he goes

O baby it’s not love it’s a sham its not love why do you keep coming back to the same situations

You end up getting used and finding yourself alone. You don’t truly want this O baby it’s not love its fiction!

Don’t fall for it. It is a scam he doesn’t love you only what he can get from you.   You should just say no and run!!!

pwb0581-push away

 push away- -how can i love you if you push away how can you love me if i push away how can we love eachother when we keep pushing eachother away keep breaking apart i am starting to believe this wasnt love from the start.  i wanted somebody to hold on to  somebody to make sure everything is going to be alright someone to protect me but i had false impressions of what i visioned of you how can i love you if you push away how can you love me if i push away how can we love eachother when we keep pushing eachother away push away push away

pwb0581- the crash down

 the crash down- should i step up or lay low trying to suck this up but on the edge of another breakown people hate dont really care and i'm afraid that is why we stand here (divided)

there are no brakes should i slam on the gas it is already inevitable for the nuclear war there are no alliences only enemies got 2 take you out before you get me

faster faster on the wake of the crash down faster faster theres no return faster faster just stop

does anybody look? is anybody even paying attention? this is a perfect recipe for a fatal disaster

tensions colliding and we are fueling the fire how much more? it is only a matter of time (watch everything explode)

faster faster on the wake of the crash down faster faster theres no return faster faster just stop

think about it is it right 4 U is is right 4 anybody to keep mongering this hatred we can't keep holding this inside it is eating us alive isnt it time to just let this go

pwb0581-with you

 with you- if i ly with you would 1/2 way thru the night i find the bed 1/2 way empty if i ly with you would it be sincere or would i be led on

did lust take over again instead of winning i was losing the whole fucking time i dont know why i fell for this when i saw this coming from a mile away

if i ly with you would i be wasting my time ending up with hearts left broken. if i ly with you would 1/2 way thru the night i find the bed 1/2 way empty

if i ly with you would i end up getting destroyed (getting sold out) if i ly with you i almost dont want any part of this

i feel like there is nowhere to turn to noone to talk to that is real or would even understand but quick to take the knife to my back

if i ly with you would i be wasting my time ending up with hearts left broken. if i ly with you would 1/2 way thru the night i find the bed 1/2 way empty

if i ly with you would it be sincere or would i be led on if i ly with you would i end up getting destroyed (getting sold out) if i ly with you... if i ly with you...

pwb0581-angels by paul bundren

 angels-I could never heal you I could never help you I could never understand what was killing you

I could never solve your issues or your problems cuz I had my share of my own I could never be the one to heal your pain

It eats me up now that you are gone felt like I could have should have done something and I didn’t

May the angels lift you up cuz I wasn’t able to May the angels love you cuz my heart was empty May the angels give you peace from this war down below

And may the angels give you closure ease the confusion and chaos and take it all away

Reminisce from all of my family that came and past my biggest regret is I wish I could have been there for them when they needed me

More emotionally than physically I get the sense that none of them know me anymore

I left you alone abandoned only to hear about you years later after I found out you died

May the angels ease your pain cuz I was never able to. I could never figure out what was wrong

May the angels lift you up cuz I wasn’t able to May the angels love you cuz my heart was empty May the angels give you peace from this war down below

And may the angels give you closure ease the confusion and chaos and take it all away