ch 16-pwb0581 by paul bundren

 ch 16

never again

this love was over before it ever began i swear never again screaming from my bed this love was over before it ever begin i was never yours your words and actions don't represent me what you say and do don't define me one day when you reach the door i wont be answer it is my way of saying no

don't touch

back up don't touch you are out of bounds i have better things to do than being tied down to you please excuse me this bird is getting free from his cage this plane is about to take off without you

blow me away

wind, wind blow me away away from this place away from the pain no more sorrow no hard feelings one day you may wake up and i'll be gone wind, wind blow me away some place safe in gods hands to a place where i belong and i'll never get hurt again

stay on your side of the fence

you may think you know me one day the next day you don't allies turn to enemies over boundries crossed so keep your feet planted on your side of the fence keep your hands off me or i may have to inituate self defence i dont love being told what to do keep your dick in your pants keep your tanks in your territory or we are going to have a problem stay on your side of the fence

this ain't love

i want to leave there is nothing you can do to stop me tomorrow i will be gone bye bye this aint love it is torture you need attention i can't give i am sorry i am not the answer to your ongoing problems i have issues too that need fixing i cant fix you i have to fix myself i don't want to spent the rest of my life being your caregiver there is no tomorrow we are done. i have a life i would like to live before i die. do i need a reason why to say goodbye. i have goals and dreams just like you. i have a vision i'd like to see instead of trying to furfill yours so bye bye this can't go on forever i have places i would like to see i can't let you hold me back this ain't love it is torture you need attention i can never give and it breaks my heart. goodbye i'm on my way to find my place in this world i don't see your support in my hope and dreams you want me to fix you and not fix me sorry but i don't think that is how love is supposed to work so bye bye this can't go on forever i have places i would like to see i can't let you hold me back this ain't love it is torture you need attention i can never give to you. you need an answer i can never give

i don't want

i dont want to be hidden i dont want to be the second option i want to feel like i belong i dont want to be silenced i dont want to live my life in a closet i want to be out and proud i want to take charge of my life not sit on the sidelines and watch life pass me by i don't want to be the place you run to when you burned your welcome somewhere else. i dont want to be in a secret.

gotta keep trying

it is hard to go on but i must sometimes it is hard to make choices but it is for the better gotta keep moving though some days are hard gotta keep trying though some days i want to quit my parents up in heaven would want me to keep trying to follow my dreams so that is what i am going to do i am going to fight to the bitter end gotta keep trying even when i want to quit

place in this world

it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. feeling lost don't know where i fit in. it is scary feels like a war going on and i'm fighting a losing battle. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. sometimes i feel weird like i don't belong, want to run out of my skin, sometimes i just want to be someone else cuz don't feel like i fit in. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. feeling lost don't know where i fit in. it is scary feels like a war going on and i'm fighting a losing battle. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. times are changing and i am just trying to adapt to it sometimes i feel like a dot in this world do i even matter? it is me alone trying to find a place in this world. feeling lost don't know where i fit in. it is scary feels like a war going on and i'm fighting a losing battle. it is me alone trying to find a place in this world

look out for number one

i cant let you drag me down. i cant let you pull me under. sorry if i cut you off. i gotta look out for myself before i can look out for others. this show is over before it starts. i dont want to play the part of a losing game. sorry not sorry i got look out for number one. got no time to waste. tomorrow is not promised. birds drop out of the sky. i cant let you control me. i have to take charge of my destiny. got no more time to waste. i have to look out for myself. i have look out for number one. sorry if i sound selfish i have to look out for myself cuz if i dont who else will. people looking for favors without giving back no offense but i am like fuck that. from here on out i have to look out for myself. i have look out for number one.

bloody hands

it used to be so simple now everything is so complicated. no matter what i do i am fucked. seems like i am making enemies and not friends. trying to take a step forward but instead taking steps back. no matter what i do i cant stay clean always trying to wash these bloody hands. cant seem to make peace. always trying to wash these bloody hands. it used to be easy but now it is hard. trying not to offend someone but i end up pissing people off anyway. the more i do the more they hate. i cant please everyone. no matter what i do i cant stay clean always trying to wash these bloody hands. cant seem to make peace. always trying to wash these bloody hands. 

the future is here

saying goodbye is the hardest part but it opens up a new beginning. i cant dwell on my past mistakes if i do they will eat me alive. time to turn the page never looking back cuz i dont want to live in the past. i am only focused on now. what can i do to improve meself for the future. like it or not the future is here. everything is changing. and if you dont adapt you wont last.