pwb0581-chapter 11-crisis
1-intro-911 (operator- 911 what is your emergency?) something is obviously off obviously wrong dont know how to fix it or talk about it why do i feel so alone? why cant i break from this spell?
feel stuck by chains i guess i put myself into why does it feel like everybody is out to get me
like they are expecting something from me when i really dont have anything to give but i feel like an animal in a corner timid and petrified
i know i cant dance, i am a dog with no tricks i guess i am useless and I cant please you (i dont matter to you) i know i cant sing feel stuck off pitch on this broken record for days for years
2-sirons- why did you go back?, when they left you bleeding, they did it again, didnt they?
why did you allow this, why did you let them in, why couldn't you see this was a trap. yet you keep falling for it again and again
can you hear the sirons,the sirons coming for you nevermind you dug your hole now youre buried alive slipped too far can't get out, why did you go there?
you wondered alone, defiant, thinking you could recover, but you have failed and your scared, wont tell whats going on, buried in secrets, burying you alive
can you hear the sirons,the sirons coming for you nevermind you dug your hole now youre buried alive slipped too far can't get out, why did you go there?
can you hear the sirons,the sirons does this raise an alarm in your head?!?
3-overdozage- you think ur so goody goody putting everyone else down think you got to always be in the spotlight taking someone elses shine
overdozage of entitlement you think you are always the best of the best and everyone else is the lowest of the low of the slime
well if you got to knock everyone else down it shows how tall you are (so low) and if you think the world revolves around you it shows how delusional you are
congratulations you think you own the world until it turns against you overdosage of power(overdosage of denial) you may have overstepped your boundries this time
feed(sell) us another lie til we are drawn off(distracted)as it was the truth we got addicted to fictional claims cuz we are tired of whats real
overdosage,overdosage, i'm afraid it is too late. we overdosed on you and there is no cure we overdosed and we are all going to die
4-detox- try to detox. try to fix my life. cut the cord. kill the cancer. kill the cancer. kill the cancer.
i seem to be attracted to the very things hurting me i dont know why i throw myself back into the troublesome situtations
need to break these chains that tie me down it is so hard seems so complicated try to simplify take easy steps but things seem to blow up and i fall back down,down,down,down
trying to remove these poisonous thoughts but they seem to creep back in trying to turn the tide to my upside down life
trying to take baby steps try not to get myself into something bigger than i can chew trying to keep calm even though the world is a madhouse
need to break these chains that tie me down it is so hard seems so complicated try to simplify take easy steps but things seem to blow up and i fall back down,down,down,down
i seem so late to catch on until it is almost too late try to get a grip but things seem to keep slipping
try to detox. try to fix my life. cut the cord. kill the cancer. kill the cancer. kill the cancer. remove the toxic thoughts things people from my life
5-bankruptcy- do you look at this and think why did this happen to me? it seems so clear where this is heading
do you remember how she left you astrayed? how he left you astrayed? how everybody left you astrayed now you are the lone wolf
scavanger for meat off dry bones there is no more blood to get on your hands let another relationship vanish like it meant anything anyway except the time and effort lost
you put all your faith on one person and lost and your soul is bankrupt cant find a way to begin again heres how start dating yourself
do you remember how she left you astrayed? how he left you astrayed? how everybody left you astrayed now you are the lone wolf all your love is all gone everythings all wrong
do you remember how you critized everything how you rejected everything now you have become the rejected(declined) now do you have anybody left to love
you kept tossing your lovers like toys is it any wonder why they've gotten bitter now the tables seem to have turned. give no love get none in return.
do you remeber how she left you astrayed? how he left you astrayed? how everybody left you astrayed now you are the lone wolf you are all alone
do you remeber how she left you astrayed? how he left you astrayed? how everybody left you astrayed now you are the lone wolf do u have anybody left 2 love? heart of bankruptcy
6-recovery- i am trying to think about what is it that i care about. trying to think about the best way to not fall in the same traps again. just trying to think do i over analyze waste too much time
now i have fallen behind again swore i wouldnt do it again. trying to improve myself end up making horrible decisions.
i am trying to think what is really my purpose trying to make a recovery in a world with stacked odds is there anything i can do to trying to make this world a better place
i know i seem to fuck everything up and you probably dont like me cuz i am not who you want me to be
everyday i am reaching for something simular to a new drug to kill the pain cuz at times life just dont seem tolerable god help me now if there is a god and pray for a recovery
7- the crash down- should i step up or lay low trying to suck this up but on the edge of another breakown people hate dont really care and i'm afraid that is why we stand here (divided)
there are no brakes should i slam on the gas it is already inevitable for the nuclear war there are no alliences only enemies got 2 take you out before you get me
faster faster on the wake of the crash down faster faster theres no return faster faster just stop
does anybody look? is anybody even paying attention? this is a perfect recipe for a fatal disaster
tensions colliding and we are fueling the fire how much more? it is only a matter of time (watch everything explode)
faster faster on the wake of the crash down faster faster theres no return faster faster just stop
think about it is it right 4 U is is right 4 anybody to keep mongering this hatred we can't keep holding this inside it is eating us alive isnt it time to just let this go
8-in love- your not in love with me. your in love with my money. your not in love with me. your just playing me. your not in love with me. your not in love.
you werent really that sweet you were sour and salty you werent really that nice you tryed to trick and use me
you werent really my friend you were a foe dont know why i was so dumb so naive to get lured in
your not in love with me. your in love with my money. your not in love with me. your just playing me. your not in love with me. your not in love.
I was just a stupid boy just a stupid toy just a stupid boy just a stupid toy
9-square one- i dont know why i stook around, i never thought i'd fall this far down idk why i keep repeating the same mistakes now i am back again at square one
i dont know why i stook around, i never thought i'd fall this far down if i was smart i would have walked away it was not worth the pain, agony and suffering (why did i go for it?)
got so close i thought that i was doing ok then things got out of hand and slided back down and i am back at square one
i dont know why i stook around, i never thought i'd fall this far down idk why i keep repeating the same mistakes now i am back again at square one
i dont know why i stook around, i never thought i'd fall this far down if i was smart i would have walked away it was not worth the pain, agony and suffering
i dont know why i ended up here i guess it all goes back the the start
10-miscalculations- oops!, fuck it let it go. what is really wrong? i guess everything. it is way too late to fix it made one too many mistakes. sorry cant be perfect like you
miscalculations and assumtions guess i am just as guilty as you do we cry over over the spilled milk when we cant put it back in the bottle
one two step electric slide back to square one skipped more than a few beats fucked up the track but who really cares
who is really counting or grading this paper (expell me) and if i even asked for your opinion (fuck you)
11-what for- do you see the cycle the enableler and the abuser and the instigator do you see the pattern if so why do you keep feeding into it
do you see this war will keep carrying on if you do nothing about it so please dont ask me to bail you out after you threw me in the ocean
i know two wrongs dont make a right but it is hard with all these things going on and not to have thoughts feelings and reactions to them
there is really no excuses not really a solution just my observation maybe i'll never understand why
but the world keeps fighting it keeps getting more grave what for? maybe i am not supposed 2 know
12-expendable intro- i'll take myself out if it makes you happy i never felt welcome or accepted ever anyway i'll take myself out if you want if it makes you happy
i feel the sense of urgency to take myself out of here feel like i was never wanted or needed here
i feel the sense of urgency to leave like i was never welcome or even invited to even my own life
it seems like everybody owns me and i dont know what kind of say i have even our my own body i am public property living under survailance & microphones & micro chips
feeling like i'm being controlled feeling like i'm a puppet & i dont get a say or an input on anything just used up burned out & thrown away was it worth it to you or was i just expendable to you
laugh at the site of someone else failing so you can take advantage and capitalize falsely verify yourself denying someone else who worked to get you here is it even right
i felt set up to drown walking a slim plank carrying a 1000lb weight tied to my ankles it almost felt like i was being set up. i hope you like watching my own funeral
i get it you want me to cry alone in the corner of my room make me lose all my friends. give me the guilt trip again
i see, you can never go wrong paint the biggest target on me while you fly under the radar
i see you think everybody owes you and you dont have to pay a thing use us as scapegoats i was your sheep not no more
the system you create it was like rape it was all 4 u and none 4 everybody else but the tables got to turn someday dont they? wash us out, erase us did we even stood a chance
i wont even challenge you cuz you can never go wrong are you even ashamed do you even have 1/2 a heart or just laugh while we suffer and die as you cash your check at the bank
13-welcome to war- questioned answers lines drawn in the sand blood drawn collecting casualites with no apologies
i had feelings but that is gone with misdirection and confusion promises you never meant to keep (you played me and fucked me)
i'm afraid there is no return descisions made that cant be reversed i dont know what is right or wrong things always getting construed
didnt know the rules to your game i dont want to play anymore
sometimes my memory goes black but i still remember how dirty you left me i try not to fall for another person like you
is my depth perception not right keep falling in the cracks walking on quicksand still tasting the bitterness welcome to war
14-not invited (empty&hollow)- account of the things i did & what i should have done tally the score & the strikes against me
it was confirmed i was never invited nobody cares & everything i i do (dont do) is a grave mistake
so empty so hollow d'you have any idea how you make me feel i wonder why i even come over
i never felt invited i never felt welcome i felt staged and taken advantage of
d'you have any idea of where all the sadness and anger is coming from all i feel is resentment and ashamed of taking part of this and letting you make me look like an idiot
my whole life is a just a lie nothing in my surroundings seem real everytime i write it just seems so empty so hollow there is nothing left i feel
do you even know me anymore i dont know me anymore walk away/run away/drift away i'm no longer here run away/ far away my mind has disappeared
this is obviously not me my vision has turned dead and black blind to reality there is nobody here anymore
i'll sell my life to everybody for free but who would even buy there is nothing inside so empty so hollow i guess i have nothing to show so empty so hollow
send me on a long cold slow death do you ever look back and think if you ever need me it seems clear my life never mattered to you you made sure you got what you need then ditched me
i hope my ghost haunts you in your dreams. nobody cares and even breathing is a grave mistake it's like you probably never look back at all
15-ignite- if i can get things right nevermind, it is too late it dont matter now cant figure out what i did that set you off but whats the use i cant fix it now
i cant change it even if i wanted to you should know i lost sleep over this, probably in vein but i will still fight for you even if i throw myself away
i will still walk in the fire for you even if you ignite the flames i'd let you burn me
forgot what i needed to do i let my days turn into nights off track and disorganized i cant promise you anything except everything is crazy and all fucked up
i'd lay myself down on the road for you even if you were driving the bus take the bullet for you even if you were the shooter
throw the match and watch me ignite in a sick way i'd let you do it to me
16 army of one- guess i knew i was alone all along what really matters anyway why does it seem like i throw it all away for nothing oh well guess just start over with nothing
i knew something was off like i was set up from the beginning so why do i oh why do i try marching off a cliff
i am an army of one off against a cruel world doesnt seem to be anybody who cares except me
so why do i oh why do i keep marching i wont go down as a quiter will continue to sail the ship even if it is sinking
oh why do i oh why do i go on cuz i am a soldier even if i am fighting against the world alone left right left no white flags here
17-echo- hello is there anybody there, i am calling is there anybody out there listening hello all i hear is an echo is the sound, so lonely everybody 4 themselves
running in a pack of wolves where do i stand trying not to get eaten love is lost merely forgotten and all that seems to be left is hate in this world
it is hard to get by (too hard to get by) you can try and still fail
what is worth living for what is there left to see what is left fighting for it feels like i am coming up empty of reasons
hello is there anybody there? is there anybody to cling on to when i feel down. is there anybody that cares, somebody that is not going to use you and put you down
18 with you- if i ly with you would 1/2 way thru the night i find the bed 1/2 way empty if i ly with you would it be sincere or would i be led on
did lust take over again instead of winning i was losing the whole fucking time i dont know why i fell for this when i saw this coming from a mile away
if i ly with you would i be wasting my time ending up with hearts left broken. if i ly with you would 1/2 way thru the night i find the bed 1/2 way empty
if i ly with you would i end up getting destroyed (getting sold out) if i ly with you i almost dont want any part of this
i feel like there is nowhere to turn to noone to talk to that is real or would even understand but quick to take the knife to my back
if i ly with you would i be wasting my time ending up with hearts left broken. if i ly with you would 1/2 way thru the night i find the bed 1/2 way empty
if i ly with you would it be sincere or would i be led on if i ly with you would i end up getting destroyed (getting sold out) if i ly with you... if i ly with you...
19-alive again- if i can wake up, if i can wake up feels like i've been sleeping my whole damn life, if i can wake up what is wrong with me
no energy 1000 cups of coffee will never be enough to pull me through if i can wake up why does everything seem so dead and gone
is there a way to make things alive again afraid to say happiness hit a record drought though i try to hide it. it is clear everything is not ok
there is an elephant in the room i think it is pretty obvious as much as you try to avoid it you can't look away
do you feel alone honestly i feel alone do you feel scared honestly i feel scared like nothing can save me at all
do you feel defeated and can't get ahead not even making it through
is there a way to make things alive again can we make things alive again these days everything seem so dark and gloom
is there a way to make things alive again i don't mean to sound so demanding but it seems so fatally desperate
20 what is your legendcy- if you throw it all away it'd all be in vein why build it if you are just going to tear it down seems so pointless to me
so i try to wrap my head around the shit i can't understand try to fight to go on cuz i believe life matters why kill myself for others who dont care
i know giving up is never an option my family is counting on me why let some dumb fuck stranger fuck my life up for me worse than it already is
i'll never lay down and die,i'll never lay down and die,that is my legendcy i'll never lay down and die,i'll never lay down and die,that is my legendcy
so what do you say now do you build to throw it away or do you try to add on if you die now what would you leave behind what is your legendcy?
21 bury- where in the world is pwb0581 have you seen him???.....
lost my head somewhere way too long ago gave myself up for you let the old me die my soul is dead. why don't you bury me? why don't you bury me?
you took my soul and cashed out are you really happy being dead in anothers eyes. why dont you bury me? why don't you bury me?
you got want you want and literally killed me off. where is the fuck is pwb0581 have you seen him? nevermind he is deceased
22-don't go looking for me- are you off to to next town on the next train to meet your new flame after you blew me out
i think i discovered your jackpot of secrets you were just looking for somebody you can use and control dont worry if you come back looking for me again i wont be here i wont answer the door
i am more than the box you put me in, the labels you place on me and i just cant allow myself to get treated this way off with the old in with the new
23-outro-
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