pwb0581-ch 14

 pwb0581 -ch 14

1-extreme weather- let me feel the burn let me feel the burn i want to feel the extreme weather let your rain pour on me let you blizzard bury me for days i want you even if you are bad for me i want to get caught in the eye of your hurricane

2 push away- -how can i love you if you push away how can you love me if i push away how can we love eachother when we keep pushing eachother away keep breaking apart i am starting to believe this wasnt love from the start.  i wanted somebody to hold on to  somebody to make sure everything is going to be alright someone to protect me but i had false impressions of what i visioned of you how can i love you if you push away how can you love me if i push away how can we love eachother when we keep pushing eachother away push away push away

3-anxiety- what i feel i dont feel anymore what i see i cant ignore distracted by my surroundings i cant help myself its so overwelming i like to say i have it under control but the truth is i dont i am on pins and needles hoping this dont fall apart i am walking a tight rope in a circus i am like the fish out of water i am like a puzzle with missing pieces if there was any way of describing my anxiety

4-so long goodbye- so long goodbye if i coud find you in a diffrent life you cant see how much i need you so long goodbye i wish i had another chance to tell you i love you it hurts so much so long goodbye i keep saying 1000 times every day i cant forgive myself for the mistakes that were made i wish i spent more time with you now i dont have anyone to talk to i feel like i have taken things for granted didnt relize how much i need you now but you are gone til next time so long goodbye

5-i dont know why but i feel like shit days i cant stay awake nights i cant fall asleep my mind keeps going nonstop sometimes i feel like i am better off dead i feel like most of the time nobody cares about me only ask what they want from me and leave i end up feeling broken why do i allow this to continue the feelings of being lost and lonely are eating me alive i end up feeling empty afterwards, spent

6-you make me feel so powerless you think you are better than me you try to take everything and leave me with nothing and never pay back

you think you are better than everyone else but sooner or later what are you going to do when people catch on to you. you can only blame yourself. did you run out of scapegoats? what is your next crutch? too bad i will no longer feed into your disease.

7-empty lies- your empty lies eat you alive your empty lies see right through your disguise your empty lies expose you

what happened did you think we wouldn't catch on you tryed to say we are the ones who were wrong tryed to come up with more excuses

8- so tired so hopeless so down feel like i cant bounce back i let it gone too far for way too long dont know if i can get help i feel so hollow and defenseless there is not much you can say or do to knock me down i feel so confused and wasted sucked dry on energy i feel like i dont have what it takes to fight this anymore

9-i am up all night trying to think though this dont have a clear answer i am lost you got me down on all fours trying to rebound and i get kicked back down again one time i might not get back up again it is getting harder and harder to breathe it kind of feels like you got your hands around me and i cant escape

10-burned out- you give up you're burned out you've had enough you are burned out you're overloaded and exhausted you're burned out. 

cant catch your breath cant catch a break as so as you let your guard down all hell breaks out no mercy no relief

cant catch your breath cant catch a break as soon as you sit down your seat is on fire you're strained and tired no mercy no relief

maybe no is the best answer cant fight this no more the pain and suffering aint worth the reward aint worth killing yourself for

11-everybody wants me to be the hero and save them but when i need saved no one comes i feel like i started another world war by just being myself why do you hate me why cant we get along why we cant spread love instead of animosity

12-in this world of hatred cant tell what is real anymore all i feel is fakeness who is really genuwine anymore i run from everything scared of everything i try to do good but dont always get treated good back i'm tired of being the good guy i just want to withdraw. i've lost interest i'm not enjoying life anymore. lifes a chore i dont see the upside everything just seems to get worse. i am stuck in reverse not moving forward. it feels like i keep sliding back

13- i left myself behind to become you i left my dreams behind to forfill yours and what payback i get

i feel nothing anymore just stuff it down i pretend nothing happened but deep down the anger is eating me making me a monster

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