pwb0581 ch13- Karma with Trauma
1-karma- I’m gonna get U I’m gonna get U 10X worse than U got me I’m
gonna get U I gonna get U. Oooo.. U are gonna wish U never fucked with me
O lets go!
Bang bang
hammer head this is gonna stay in UR mind did U think this through don’t bite
more than what U can chew cuz UR gonna choke
I’m gonna
get U I’m gonna get U 10X worse than U got me I’m gonna get U I gonna get
U. Oooo…. U are gonna wish U never
fucked with me O lets go!
2-sharks
O swimming-
O-E-O O-E-O
sharks O swimming hope one of those fuckers kill me quickly O-E-O sharks
O swimming
Don’t get
the jaws of life don’t revive me just let the dead sleep leave me be
Don’t
really care about the world today would rather just leave Don’t really want to
live in this world in the state it is today
O-E-O
sharks O swimming 1000 things it feels is out to get me Ooooo.. if you are going to kill me just do it
quickly!
Don’t get
the jaws of life don’t revive me just let the dead sleep leave me be
3-trauma-
I can’t fuction I’m so confused held on to all of
this anger for so many years I wasn’t really ok I wasns’t really fine but faked
it anyway
Avoiding
questions asked hiding the pain hiding the trauma some I guess was self
inflicted I come from a broken fragile family with all sorts of issues
Please
forgive me if some of this comes out inappropriately had a tough time
communicating some don’t understand me
I try to
speak up but find myself mumbling O why am I such a klutz so scared that
something is going to happen I keep falling over myself
I need to
let the anger go, let the anger go, cant let it consume me, can’t let it eat me
up anymore. Let the anger go. Let the anger go.
4-stand
alone- mothers weeping after she buries
here young signs ignored society of disreguard Junkies O.D. on a highway to
nowhere why did we get this far
We are giving away the pills. It is
like we are intentionally throwing it in peoples faces Does anybody even
bother? Does anybody care? I do even if I stand alone
Walking on the surface trying to find the core of the
rot in the mirror the reflection is me I guess I cant expect something to get
done tomorrow if I don’t start today
Maybe that is part of the problem doing nothing results
in nothing Don’t handout cheap trills to those who steal your pride
Don’t let is get this far do something fight back even
if you stand alone Ooo, I stand , I stand alone, Ooo I stand, I stand alone
5-not
love- it is not love it is pain O baby! It is not love it is pain. Why do you keep
doing it?
You are
addicted to the company but when the dawn comes it turns out to be one night
stands O baby it’s not love its addiction!
It is not
love and when the night is done you are left empty and alone You are addicted
to the dick and when he cums then he goes
O baby it’s
not love it’s a sham its not love why do you keep coming back to the same
situations
You end
up getting used and finding yourself alone. You don’t truly want this O baby
it’s not love its fiction!
Don’t
fall for it. It is a scam he doesn’t love you only what he can get from you. You should just say no and run!!!
6- this next song is dedicated to all those
who struggle with mental health and addiction issues help is out there
I too suffer
from this illness it is a never ending battle you are not alone.
Help is available national suicide hotline
1-800-273-8255 crisis text line 741 741
7-angels-I could never heal you I could never help you I could never
understand what was killing you
I could
never solve your issues or your problems cuz I had my share of my own I could
never be the one to heal your pain
It eats
me up now that you are gone felt like I could have should have done something
and I didn’t
May the
angels lift you up cuz I wasn’t able to May the angels love you cuz my heart
was empty May the angels give you peace from this war down below
And may
the angels give you closure ease the confusion and chaos and take it all away
Reminisce
from all of my family that came and past my biggest regret is I wish I could
have been there for them when they needed me
More
emotionally than physically I get the sense that none of them know me anymore
I left
you alone abandoned only to hear about you years later after I found out you
died
May the
angels ease your pain cuz I was never able to. I could never figure out what
was wrong
May the
angels lift you up cuz I wasn’t able to May the angels love you cuz my heart
was empty May the angels give you peace from this war down below
And may
the angels give you closure ease the confusion and chaos and take it all away
8-cut
the cord- I
feel like I need to pick up the scissors and start cutting
Idk what 2 say to u I’m so scared and feel like u are unapproachable
and I am expendable I don’t mean nothing 2 u
Like u don’t care and I am wasting my f’n time on a
free fall to my grave making my deathbed I know I cant carry on livin like this
Letting you beat me up emotionally while you take
everything guess I am the fool for letting this continue
But I keep feeding you and staving myself paying you
and robbing myself slaving for you while you sloth
Letting you steal from me and doing nothing about it
9- frozen
cold-
O baby! It feels so frozen cold what you do to me.
You promise me forever then give me a 1 night stand
O baby it
feels so frozen cold and I’m all alone I was better off alone than to be led by
fake love
O baby it
feels so frozen cold how when you are alone no one sticks up for you They believe
others word before yours
O baby it
feels so frozen cold in some way I guess I was probably asking for it
I never really
bothered to answer back so I guess it is expecting for you to do the same to me
I guess I know the reasons why and I’m to blame
Walking
alone in a winter storm with hurricane winds I should have known I was the fool
O baby it
feels so frozen cold what you do to be. You promise me forever then give me a 1 night
stand
10-departure-
they wont understand but I think this needs to
happen they will be shocked I cant put myself in this position again
I see how
you’ll probably label me the enemy and we probably wont be friends after this
I need
some space to myself and I think you need the same. there is really nothing or
anyone to blame.
But we
cant continue and I know you don’t understand. This knocks me to my feet this
decision was killing me to make but I have to walk on
You were
probably picturing me to spend the rest of our lives taking vacations but
unfortunely most of the time that only happens in fantasy
You were
making an ass of yourself by assuming I’d come rescue you after I was left high
and dry, Ooo no!, a no no.
I know
you don’t, maybe will never understand but this needs to happen I need to clear
my head
I see how
you’ll probably hate me and how you may come after me but I have to let you go
I need
some space to myself and I think you need the same. there is really nothing or
anyone to blame. But we cant continue and I know you don’t understand.
11-Star
in my eyes- U don’t need $ to be
with me all I need is UR love U don’t need a sports car or that diamond ring I
just want UR love
U don’t
need to be on a big silver screen U are already a Star in my eyes baby lets
dance like no one is watching
I want to
hold you tonight like there is no tomorrow if you like you are shining so
bright I don’t want to let you go
Boy I
don’t care what anybody says I want U I don’t know if you notice but U are a
star in my eyes
12-won’t
be turning back- I don’t
see a reason to go back anymore lately I have grown tired and bored I almost
don’t care what U think I’m so done
Sometimes
you act like you own me and that I am not supposed to have any rights Sometimes
you act like you’re better than me and that my life is a crime
You
should know that nothing is set in stone and I never made any promises just
want myself back and get you out of my head
You
should know to think better that I am a human being with feelings not a robot
you can manipulate use and control
When you
think you have me all figured out guess what you don’t know a single thing
about me I wont be turning back to your empty lies
I was
fine before I met you I’ll be fine without you I don’t need the bullshit of
what you think you can get me to do what you can get me to be
You are
the one who is going to end up being left behind And I won’t be turning back
for you
13-someone
else’s life- I
feel like I am living someone else’s life. this life I feel is no longer mine.
I let myself go carried up on you
I am living someone else’s life. I am living someone
else’s lie. Nothing seems or feels real anymore.
All the work I feel lie I am putting in is for everyone
else fueling the fire just to cut me down
Not matter what I do to please you I’ll never be good
enough for you. fake, Everything seems so fake.
14-break
a broken heart- you break me I’m already broken. You cant break an
already broken heart
Crash down bend N broken crushed N
ripped apart I was damaged from the start
If you want you can try to fix me
but i don’t want to drag you down you should know I have scars
am I crazy? Please say I’m not
crazy. I feel like I am crazy. Like I lost my fucking mind
15--I need to unclutter my mind get rid of the junk in my
life all of this baggage weighs me down I need to unload
No longer
want to feel obligated no longer want to be glued no longer want to give in I
want to resist
This
never worked for me only for everybody else this isn’t coming up with solutions
only creating more problems
Holding
all of this inside is holding me down and I don’t know if I can abide by
someone else’s guidelines of how to life my life I feel this is not right 4 me
16- slow down we don’t have to do
this right now. Slow down sometimes it is better off if we take a break. Do we
have to build Rome today?
Hurry up lets go, no just wait. I just want to slow
down shut down too much pressure does anybody else feel the same.
Tired of being put into a box of who what I am and not
supposed to be. Slow it down hit the brakes we don’t have to do this lets not
go there
17- the same stuck cycle repeated.
The same off pitched song distorted. The same god damn excuses shoved down my
throat
The same god damn lie time after time never a reason
why just got to dig thru the b.s.
Cant find an answer just more questions this line is
looking identical to the ones I wrote before
Should I throw my life away for someone else to do it
to someone else tick tock tick count the bodies.
The well drained dry. The lives expended. I feel your
apology is not true. You don’t mean what you say just take take take
18- I am not going to lie I worry all
the time thinking how I can save you but I don’t even save myself
I feel like I left a lot of things on the backburn but
this is kind of weighting on my mind
I can’t ignore and leave you in the gutter but at the
same time I have to take care of myself
20- how could you let this go on 4 so
long fall so hard does anybody even know? Does anybody who U are anymore?
How could you fall so far down in the gutter? I thought
you’d be strong enough to get past this.
I didn’t know you needed hep or I would have tried to
lend you my hand
I feel so selfish only thinking about my pain and did
not see yours I feel so blind
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