angel or devil by pwb0581 paul bundren

 -  I feel like an animal Never tame A little part insane Maybe demented Maybe derangedSometimes feel couped up in a cage

Angel or devil, I can’t decide Angel or devil, Can’t tell which side I’m on

I’m feeling like a monster Full of rage Sometimes feel like a freak Don’t know how to unleash

Angel or devil, I can’t decide Angel or devil, Can’t tell which side I’m on Angel or devil, I can’t decide Angel or devil, Can’t tell which side I’m on

Sometimes feel like being pushed off the edge And don’t have much of a choice Angel or devil, I can’t decide Angel or devil, Can’t tell which side I’m on

key to my heart by pwb0581 paul bundren

 Turning on wasted dead end,Washed up on shore on remote island,Never to be found

Driving for miles in circles,Still lost Seems to be the same story Going home alone every time

I gave you the key to my heart And you threw it in the bay I gave you the key to my heart Then you just left me to drown

I guess I’m empty emotionless Feel like nobody really gives a damn So I secluded myself So nobody can hurt me again

I gave you the key to my heart And you threw it in the bay I gave you the key to my heart Then you just left me to drown

I should not have put my faith In someone elses hands They always seem to crush it every time

I gave you the key to my heart And you threw it in the bay I gave you the key to my heart Then you left me to drown

I gave you the key to my heart And you threw it in the bay I gave you the key to my heart And you left me To watch me drown

fight inside by pwb0581 paul bundren

 The fight inside Brings out the warrior inside,Brings out things in me I didn’t think I had

The fight inside is never ending Like a machine It never sleeps The fight inside Is not giving up Is not going away

Does the issues force itself Or do you take action Do you try to call for help Or do you try to take it on alone

Do you get way ahead Or fall too far down the line Are you holding on Or are you letting go

The fight inside Brings out the warrior inside Brings out things in me I didn’t think I had The fight inside is never ending Like a machine It never sleeps

The fight inside Is not giving up Is not going away, I’m not giving up, I’m not going away

dead battery by pwb0581 paul bundren

 need to recharge, I feel dead and drained,no energy to fight this, the pain is overwelming

tell me where to see daylight, cuz I feel like a dead battery all my power is used up (wasted) 

dead battery, no juice, no spark,no light, dead battery, Dead battery!!!

workin' but not earnin' a slave to life carrying getting crushed really nothing new or special   

dead battery, no juice, no spark,no light, dead battery, Dead battery!!!

my imaginary friends by pwb0581 paul bundren

 - My imaginary friends They don’t put me down, They don’t put me down

My imaginary friends, They don’t put me down They don’t put me down

Sometimes I want to run and hide From this insane world.  My imaginary friends They are always around Even when I am at my worst

Hate has consumed me I just want to look away Everybody thinks they have a right to judge me But they really don’t know me

I want to escape Black everything out Drown the silence out Something to fill the void

The joke is on me The game played me I thought I could trust But that was a grave mistake

Clutter my mind with chaos and lies Hit me when I am at my lowest Sometimes I find I’m better off alone Away from you

My imaginary friends They don’t put me down, They don’t put me down My imaginary friends, They don’t put me down They don’t put me down

I just want to run and hide From this insane world My imaginary friends They are always around Even when I am at my lowest

making moves by pwb0581 paul bundren

making moves-I’m making moves And I really don’t give a Fuck What you think

I’m making moves And don’t really care anymore What people think

I have to do what is right for me Not necessary what is right for you They say kill or be killed And I am doing the killing  I’m not about to die  Under your evil  false delusions

Maybe I have to be the villain Maybe I have to be the bad guy And cut the cord Tides are turning Roles are being reversed Cut the bullshit Go straight to the chase

I don’t want to be the killer,I don’t want to be the enemy,I don’t want to be the killer,But I don’t want to be killed either

Ticking time bombs Are about to go off How long do you think Things will stay the same It is time to identify Threats and triggers And handle them accordingly

I don’t want to be the killer,I don’t want to be the enemy,I don’t want to be the killer, But I don’t want to be killed either

I’m making moves Left and right Side to side Watch out I will no longer be the quiet kid in corner I’m speaking out

please be mine by pwb0581 paul bundren

  I Try to play it cool but I have no fucking idea of how to do this it seems like I suck at this 

I want to try to find someone to spend the rest of my life with  but when I talk to people I get nervous and freeze up  I fear that I am making mistakes 

i guess I just need to be myself and not try to put on a show  the real true friends will stay around even though the darkest of times 

I am not really looking for something temporary I am looking for something long term but I don’t know if I can pull through  I just wish I had someone to help me along

Sometimes I feel like I had it in my hands then it slips away and breaks 

I’ll invite you into my life And should warn you I have demons inside me that beat me up I am not prepared for what people are going to do or say

Sometimes I feel like the fruit in a blender Coming apart I don’t want to lose you But sometimes I don’t have myself all together

I will try to be there for you If you are there for me I understand that sometimes things get in the way And promises can’t be kept

I want someone to spend the rest of my life with but have so much going on Will I meet someone loyal to me and will I be able to commit Everything is got me scared

But I don’t really want to be alone all my life I guess if I want something I don’t have I have to do something I have never done

I’ve been wondering in the darkness Never knowing where I end up Putting trust in blind faith Not seeing the light But hoping it is there

I want you to ride with me And please give me a chance I want you to please be mine and I want to be yours 

Will you come with me I think I want you But I am scared  What if this don’t work out I guess I just have to be myself And stop worrying what others think Maybe that is what is getting me in trouble

I don’t mean just getting in bed together I would like a friend to hang out with maybe play video games with or go on road trips

I was never the social butterfly I typically for the most part stay to myself for the most part

Although sometimes in life sometimes things can be complicated I rather enjoy the simple things. I would like someone to spend my life with if it is ok with you

Please be mine And I will be yours Let’s see where this goes Nobody likes to go alone I will try to never do you wrong

I guess I am a sucker for being a fool does that make me uncool, I am probably dreaming of what I can never have

I will probably end up home alone with my dick in my hand. My only friend seems to be myself it sometimes seems. i am just a geek, nobody wants me

stranger by pwb0581 paul bundren

 I try to do what I can on my own. but at times I feel overwelmed. it feels like I've got too much going on at once

and obivisly there is no on/off switch no way to slow things down when they seem to be going faster and faster sometimes I am freaking out but I try to put a poker face on fake like I'm calm

do you really know me? sometimes I dont know myself. am I insane? some probably say so. so say whay you want. cuz i'm a stranger to myself. I don't know who I am.

I am a stranger to myself and I can't recognize the danger and the threats. I am unaware. 

I am a stranger to myself and I am scared of what I can or could do. I'm a stranger to myself

brand new low by pwb0581 paul bundren

 - I don’t know if I will ever be me again Paralyzed by thoughts of you I’m trying to do what I need to do 

And you keep distracting me Putting the attention on you I really don’t know if I want to go through this anymore

Everyday seems to be a brand new low I don’t know how much more I can take I keep bending Trying not to break Things seem to get more confusing And I just can’t relate

Where did my mind go In outer space Trying to collect the pieces Scattered apart I am always lost Can’t seem to get things back to whole again

Everyday seems to be a brand new low I don’t know how much more I can take I keep bending Trying not to break  Things seem to get more confusing And I just can’t relate Who am I fighting for?

game over! by pwb0581 paul bundren

 -I lost before the game began. Game over! In the weeds to begin with, Game over! I should let you know I’m not good at this

It is game over right from the start I feel like a fish out of water I feel achored to the bottom(Drowning)

When it comes to meeting people Dates and interviews I feel so nervous and weird  Nothing seems to go out right I feel so different Way out in left field (So lost)

I pretend I got things under control But really I don’t. I work hard but is it for the right reasons. Am I playing smart  Or being played. I believe I’ve been through this Time and Time again before

They say,Sometimes you have to lose yourself To find the way Sometimes you have to fall Before you get back up

Game over! Meet your maker. Game over! Should I be a faker. Game over! Trying for something that is not there. Game over! I guess I knew that life is not fair.

Life is a bitter pill Suck a dick and swallow Cuz it seems like We are dragged by an upper hand Holding us down

Will we ever forfill our dreams If we never grow old? Will we ever get to love In a world so cold? Was hope dead Before we were born?

Don’t know who is the enemy Everything seems to turned evil It looks like I am a one man army  Fucked and cheated and left with nothing I guess that this is how things are going to be

where does our dreams go? by pwb0581 paul bundren

 when we fall where do we go? is there a bottom do we rise above or sink below

when we fall can we get back up again when we die when we fall,where does our dreams go? where does our dreams go?

when all hope ends and we are at the end of the rope where does our dreams go?

choking by our desire I guess it is the nature of the game sometimes sins seem self righteous we feel entitled while crossing the line  sometimes we feel safe while in danger

when we lose when we fall where does our dreams go? where does our dreams go? when hope ends and our lives are over, where does our dreams go? where does our dreams go?

houseless home by pwb0581 paul bundren

 a houseless home with a revolving door with open arms letting go

I just gather my things and guess sleep where i land i'm tired of where i am but scared of whats to come  i think i know that things need to change it is just taking the first step

i guess home is anywhere i crash i'm pressing buttons i really dont know what this does but I'm trying to do something new

wash away by pwb0581 paul bundren

 If you love someone would you let them go If you really cared for someone would you  Let them go

Maybe the feelings were not mutual Maybe there is something unknown Was there warning signs missed Maybe something just don’t feel right from the start

Was it you I wanted or was it missing out on friendships in my life and feeling empty  All i really wanted is to be loved but I guess maybe that was too much to ask for 

Was I begging for something that wasn’t there Guilty of wanting something I can’t have If you felt like I pushed you away I am sorry I was scared I am a little hesitant i don’t let people in that easily  

So if I choose you it means I thought that there was something special in you

I guess I misunderstood and am misunderstood sometimes I don’t mean to confuse you with my insecurities and my nervousness

I have been through a lot of shit in my life and maybe it is more than you can take I have made some mistakes and have some flaws I never said I was perfect but neither was you

Can we just wash away the stains of yesterday and start writing on a new page 

Stop dwelling on things can’t be controlled That have gone away and stop letting the demons eat us alive

Is there any closure to the haunted memories and regrets I would like to wash this all away Closure may never come As painful as it is I must accept it

Sometimes I long for  The things (answers) I will never know The people who are not right I Seem forever lost inside

Forgive and forget Live and let live Stop holding on to what isn’t there You can’t get yesterday back But you do have today Can we let this wash away try to move on with our lives

drifter boy by pwb0581 paul bundren

 He is a drifter boy.A love that will never be yours.He is a drifter boy.Here todayGone tomorrow You try to catch him But he is the bird that flies away

He is a drifter boy You look for him But he has disappeared You want what you can’t have He is a drifter boy you are craving what you cant taste

Seasons have changed and summer is gone He has moved away He was everything you thought you were looking for That you thought you wanted But you didn’t know who you are

Were you looking for the you that you lost Somewhere along the way Through the Rocky road Lost in the shuffle Looking at every face Looking for answers That are not there

I longed for a drifter boy. I couldn’t hold on to. that i couldnt have. who always belonged to somebody else.

heart of you by pwb0581 paul bundren

 to all the broken hearts out there this song is for you

i have a hard time looking at you. how can love be so cold. nothing hurts worse than a goodbye unspoken. falling4someone who doesnt love you back   

Giving the respirator to the breathless The sirens are going off and the lights are flashing It feels like I used life #9 

Facing the world feels like a total nightmare It could just be what I made things to be I don’t know When I am with you I feel like I have to be something I am not to impress you

Nothing ever seems to work If you can’t take me for who I am Then I guess this means the road 

I don’t know which way to go The heart of you I can’t seem to find Was it you or me that got left behind The ghost images still replay in my head Don’t know what I did right or wrong

Seemed that I got caught up in lies and broken promises that couldn’t be kept I felt I had no control over The puzzle pieces never seemed to fit And I was diving in a shallow bay

Sometimes I don’t listen to my own voice Something is telling me to stop This isn’t right Warning signs overlooked  Don’t know what is out to get me But the anxiety and fear of never knowing

We all point fingers at everyone else But nobody is an angel here I thought I knew the answers but I was clueless I didn’t know what I was looking for

I was just trying to reshape my life Into what I would like to be I am bending I guess what doesn’t break me makes me stronger

I don’t know which way to go The heart of you I can’t seem to find Was it you or me that got left behind The ghost images still replay in my head Don’t know what I did right or wrong

Seemed that I got caught up in lies and broken promises that couldn’t be kept I felt I had no control over The puzzle pieces never seemed to fit And I was diving in a shallow bay(drowning4nothing)

Didn’t know that things would be this cold Didn’t know that things would be this way Don’t know if there was anything I could have done to change this Or if it would even matter(just going2waste)

Didn’t know if this was even meant to be. Trying things that didn’t work.

I don’t know which way to go The heart of you I can’t seem to find Was it you or me that got left behind The ghost images still replay in my head Don’t know what I did right or wrong

Seemed that I got caught up in lies and broken promises that couldn’t be kept I felt I had no control over The puzzle pieces never seemed to fit And I was diving in a shallow bay

said&done by pwb0581 paul bundren

 -I feel the instant checkmate  of folding under pressure.Sometimes the worlds demands feels like a gun pointed at you.

Why must everything go so fast is there a way to slow things down. Can’t settle down when I am stuck in panic mode

I feel the constant torture is having to walk in someone else’s shoes When I have issues of my own that I am not dealing with I try to hide and fake it like I am going to succeed But in reality I am failing

I feel like it is hard to love when you are not loved back It is hard to put the faith in believing what you can’t see It is hard to be creative when everything has been said and done before

I feel like there is always more to the story than whats been told It is hard to tell people what you think when it feels like nobody is listening or cares  a lot of times that is why in the past I held things in

I have been talking to a wall but that wall has become my best friend at least it doesn’t judge me back Giving up only lets the enemy win They laugh at you and tell you that you are weak

I can’t let them have the satisfaction I have to get up againI'm not the first and probably won’t be the last to say these things I’ve just been fed up that the cycle stays stuck in repeat 

Who's really listening It feels like everything has been said&done over&over again

no promises by pwb0581 paul bundren

 I am just trying to hold things all together while everything seems to be falling apart  I am just trying to stay strong while the weight of the world is dragging me down

I am just trying to rise above and pull through what at times seems like a nightmare  I am just trying to fight and do the best I can with what was given to me

Sometimes life hands you a raw deal Nobody knows what to expect  Things can be fucked up and rough sometimes  But I am fighting I am trying The world can be a cold,cold,cold place sometimes

Sometimes not a soul seems to care about what you’re going through Some people laugh at you and kick you when you are down 

I wish i could be be the one to save you,I wish i could help you. we can all use a little help. lately everything has been out of order and dont see a way to fix it

I'm sorry,I can’t be the person you want me to be I'm sorry that I can’t give you what you are looking for.Maybe sometimes things are not meant to be  I'm sorry,I can’t save you I have to save myself 

I don’t know where the answers lie Maybe the destination is farther down the road or got left behind  Maybe plans and dreams got lost in the shuffle  Nobody knows what lies ahead 

I am sorry but I can’t make any promises, I can’t make any promises. no promises please that you know you can't keep

don't want to start over by pwb0581 paul bundren

 What if i don’t want to start over?What if I’d rather watch this burn?What if I want to erase this all and Not begin again.

I can’t bear to hear the silence So I scream out loud Could you hear me out For just this once 

I don’t want to be in the middle I don’t want to have to pick a side Don’t want to be the center of the drama That’s why i tend to avoid certain people and things

Don’t want to be the gopher Don’t want to be your guinea pig Don’t want to be your experiment That when things fail you toss me in the trash

What if I don’t want to start over What if I don’t want to rewind and revisit the childhood  I am desperately trying to run away from

Is it helpful to go back to what was hurting me What is the remedy to black out I guess I can’t permanently erase the pain

What if I don’t want to start over?What if I just want to let this die? No...,  I don’t want to start over.

underdog by pwb0581 paul bundren

 Sometimes to move forward means you have to make sacrifices Sometimes the answers lie hidden in plain sight Sometimes you never know unless you try What are you waiting for?

What if there was no tomorrow What if this was your only chance Would you give up or make the best of it

Sometimes I am panicking in fear. But I have to fight this instead of laying down and dying Sometimes you lose But you never win if you never play

I am trying to make something from nothing. Everybody tries to put me down. I might be the underdog But I’m trying to take your crown

Say what you want But I’m going to pull through this time You can never keep me down I may be the underdog But I am underestimated This time I am going to take your crown

Forget what you know Cuz everything is changing Sometimes losers win History was made to be rewritten So look down on me while I pull the rug from under your feet

All of this time I was flying under the radar But now the target will be on my back You hate what you can’t control

Cuz this time the tables are turning Cuz I am the underdog beating all odds The deck may be stacked against me But I will pull through this time. I am going to remove your crown.

reshaping by pwb0581 paul bundren

 I see the trouble surfacing.Most of the time I try to tackle it when it comes. Rather than put it off til later. It is hard to concentrate in a world full of distractions.

Alarm bells going off in all directions And I don’t know how to shut them off. There are still a lot of things I don’t understand (can't process)

We are trying to live while we are dying. We are trying to move on While wanting to give up. We’re trying to be strong Even when we feel weak.

We are trying to overcome the odds Even when things don’t seem to be in our favor We are dancing with serpents And selling our soul to the devil

We are breaking our backs Just trying to get by Leaving our sanity at the door No way to get ahead It seems like if you want peace You have to go to war There is no more fun and games 

People are getting hurt and sorry I don't want the next person to be me

There isn’t any winners only losers Sometimes it seems like life is one complete lie Everybody is trying to take each other out Nobody on your side Sometimes it feels like everyone is against you

It seems like they take advantage of you and take credit for the work you did Nothing is easy anymore And things only get crazier as you go

I am afraid I can’t give you any more free rides while leaving myself high and dry,Sorry I hate to say but you are on your own.  

I am just trying to adjust to the weather for the colder days ahead We are breaking and bending and reshaping Everything changes and we don’t know what lies ahead 

You think you knew me before But probably not now Probably not anymore I am reshaping Sometimes even myself I can’t tell what I am what the hell am I becoming 

Walking in forgien land Don’t know which roads lead to where I guess I am just learning as I go

die too young by pwb0581 paul bundren

 it’s a shame It isn’t the way things are supposed to be. What took years to build can come down in a split second. It is a shock to the system. I guess nothing lasts forever.

But I hate to see you go It hurts the way you left Moving on is hard sometimes But it’s what I’ve got to do Sometimes the best die too young We will be missing you (more than you know)

Don’t know if there is anything to take your pain away I wish I had the remedy But I admit I find myself struggling myself from here on out I have to help myself

I guess the times are hard and it is affecting everybody It is changing everybody Can’t recognize anything Nothing is what it seems People can put on a happy face but be suffering on the inside

You just don’t know anymore (i was completely lost and i didn't know anything)

Sometimes I say I’m ok when I am really not. It seems to be a stigma affecting everybody, but not really getting talked about. things keep getting swept under the rug. forgotten about until it is way too late

People like to run from the issues, But they are not going away. If I had the answers I wouldn’t be in the same boat. Sinking just like you.

how to go on by pwb0581 paul bundren

 -I feel like I’m too far gone,I can’t be saved,I’ve gone to a point of no return,Nothing will ever bring things back to good again

How to go on,When you lost everything you had   How do you stay strong,When everything in your world comes crashing down

How do you fight,When you are stripped of everything you had   How do you stay alive,When everything is dying around you

Hopes and dreams got washed away somewhere along the way,You’ve fallen from grace,You needed a shoulder to lean on, But that angel flew to heavenTheres nothing left Let go and save yourself

You have to be your own hero from here on out. Cuz you are only here for a moment. What would you want to be remembered for?

How to go on from this day forward How to find light out of the darkness How to turn tragedy into a work of art How to find beauty in the flaws

How to go on When it all seems to be ending How to write a new chapter On a blank page How to create something out of nothing How to smile through the sadness.

sacrifices by pwb0581paul bundren

 -I am trying to reinvent myself I am trying to rearrange and readjust I am trying to put my feet forward Through whatever comes my way

This time I am not backing down I missed out on too much in my life I am trying to break the cycle I am tired of being on the bottom so I am trying to make some changes It is no more Mr. nice guy

Sometimes sacrifices have to be made to move forward If that makes me the enemy,so be it. I can’t stay paralyzed by fear If I am not moving forward I am moving backwards

I have to try to experiment new things If I want different results I have to do things differently I have to try not to let my past determine my future I have to not let those things define me

I am more than what meets the eye But I have to believe in myself Cuz if I don’t who else will I am making some sacrifices Analyzing what I need and what I need to cut out

Say goodbye to the life you knew before Burn the book about the past and just live in the now

1000 wrongs by pwb0581 paul bundren

 Sometimes you have to go through 1000 wrongs until you find one right. Sometimes you have to step in the fire and burn the candle at both ends.

If you want to change the scenery you have to step out of the box. The bar is the new standard. Everything is going 1000 miles per hour it is too late to slow things down.

I can’t erase all the stupid things I’ve said and done. I can’t rewind to yesterday. I can only live for today

Answers sometimes come from the least likely of sources Sometimes you have to dig in the trash to succeed

I’ve been trying to read through the disguise Wondering through the great unknown Fighting through the pain Through whatever storms comes this way

Sometimes theres no reward without pain Sometimes theres no pleasure without responsibility There are no actions without consequences 

Sometimes you have to keep your own head in check and edit yourself

Sometimes you have to go through 1000 wrongs until you find one right I do believe that things happen for a reason I don’t believe that I am just a ghost of chance

Sometimes you have to cross the line to find out where the boundary lays 

Sometimes you have to tear down before you start building Sometimes new beginnings come from an ending

Sometimes a mistake has to be made before you can learn a lesson If you never try something you will never know Sometimes you have to go through 1000 wrongs to find one right

uneducated guesses by pwb0581 paul bundren

 I am making some uneducated guesses. We don’t always know where the road leads. Sometimes the light can shine the way. Sometimes it can blind you too.

Sometimes I miss the exit Gazing at the scenery. I got caught chasing a star falling in a black hole. I am holding on to what isn’t there. I’m hollow and empty.

Nobody knows how it is going to be. We learn through trial and error. I fell behind trying to get ahead. Maybe I am guilty of wanting something I can’t have.

I didn’t know that being so comfortable could be so dangerous. What was a safe zone has turned into a war zone. And there there doesn’t seem to be any going back to the way things used to be

should by pwb0581 paul bundren

 should i stay or run???......    Should I stay for you,Should I run away from you,Should I trust you or Should I be cautious around you. Every decision fucks with my head.

I can’t be too careful It feels like I am on pins and needles and I never have the answers why Doesn’t mean if you can do something that you should

I feel like I am living on the edge Not knowing where I stand I want to find love But I’m looking in all the wrong places All I get is feeling lonely Coming up empty handed Ending up feeling used

I don’t want to feel this way anymore.  Should I stay for you Should I run away from you Should I trust you or Should I be cautious around you I can’t be too careful Everything fucks with my head

It feels like I’m on pins and needles And never have the answers why Sometimes just feel lost and don’t know why 

It feels like love is a battlefield I am constantly worried about landmines Being told lies and tearing my heart apart Afraid of promises that can’t be kept I just feel so fragile 

Sometimes I feel like love is something hard to jump into

Should I stay for you Should I run away from you Should I trust you or Should I be cautious around you I can’t be too careful Everything fucks with my head

It feels like I’m on pins and needles And never have the answers why Sometimes just feel lost and don’t know why  Should I stay or should I go Sorry if you feel like I am cold But I am scared

I never know what I am walking into Cuz I never had a genuine long term relationship Should I pretend to be something I am not to get people to like me

Should I be constantly paranoid It feels like sometimes I can’t live my life

Should I stay for you Should I run away from you Should I trust you or Should I be cautious around you I can’t be too careful Everything fucks with my head

It feels like I’m on pins and needles And never have the answers why Sometimes just feel lost and don’t know why Doesn’t mean if you can do something that you should

changes and rearranges by pwb0581 paul bundren

 Welcome to a new phase of changes This is a new day dawning This time I am going all in Sometimes you have to take risks if you want rewards

Sometimes there is a price to pay but it is sometimes well worth it You can’t win if you don’t play You get nowhere sitting on the sidelines No more going back now

The bridge has been burned Maybe I might have made some enemies but fuck them

It is time to focus on my life And doing what I feel is right for me Maybe you’ve made some mistakes yourself nobody is perfect

but Who are you to throw my issues in my face and laugh about them Maybe one day you will find that you are on your own

Would you remember all of the times you took advantage of me But when I was seeking attention you turned your head and ignored me

Please don’t force yourself on me Just give me back what is mine and get the fuck out of my life All you ever did was sucked the life out of me like a broken toy you used and threw away

I regret all of the times wasted on you and not trying to fix myself I should be worrying about me and not trying to save everybody else A lot of times that is what is doing me in

So I am making some changes and doing some rearranging I am making some decisions that you might not like I am trying to make my environment a more comfortable place to live in

I am sorry not sorry if my plans doesn’t include you didnt mean for you I am making some changes and doing some rearranging I am making some decisions that you might not like 

I am sorry not sorry if my plans doesn’t include you

new day dawning by pwb0581 paul bundren

 -I am trying to adapt to the changes Trying not to fold under the pressure I am trying to stay strong even when things are rough and falling apart in my hands

I’m constantly bracing for disaster Wondering where I stand I have to fight through this even though at times I feel like I’m alone

I sometimes feel like my so called acquaintances are using me and are sharpening the knife and waiting for me to turn around and stab me Maybe I need to start cutting people out of my life

I realize that some things are not working for me It always feels like I am one step away from my grave but the journey must go on This is not the end of the story Just the beginning of a new chapter

Forget what you know before I’m trying to throw away the baggage and not let my issues get the best of me I’m not dead I was just under the weather But I’m fighting through this This is not the end of me

This is a new day dawning I’ll be the Phoenix that rises from the ashes I’ll shine light on the dark This is not the last of me The weak sometimes become the strong I am determined to carry the journey on

Even through troubling times I will keep marching on There was a lot of obstacles that got in the way But I kept pushing I’ll keep pushing If you don’t give up on me I won’t give up on you

We can make it through Just hold on for me I will hold on for you One day I believe that this storm will pass and the sun will shine again

Each day is a new day dawning I am washing my hands clean from yesterday I am through with living in the past Today is a new day dawning

new by pwb0581 paul bundren

 Do you want to leave? Are you tired of everything?Do you just want to pack your bags and disappear?

please take me with you

Lately things have been boring,Tired of the same old,Sometimes do you just want a change, Do you want to run away and never look back Just leave this DEAD town and all the memories behind

Things haven’t felt alive in such a long time Would you like to forget everything Do you want to hide From the evil world You can’t remember the last time Anyone was good to you

Do you want to leave Do you want to run away Take me with youI am tired and bored,Show me something new,Show me something I’ve never seen before,Send me somewhere I’ve never been

Give me a reason to live,Show me something to remember,I just feel so dead at times,Wanting to live a new life Leaving the old self behind And never looking back

I am tired and bored,Show me something new,Show me something I’ve never seen before,Send me somewhere I’ve never been

Give me a reason to live Show me something to remember I just want a place where I belong Somewhere to call home  Somewhere I’ll be loved and appreciated And never looked down on

I am tired and bored Show me something new Show me something I’ve never seen before Send me somewhere I’ve never been

Give me a reason to live Show me something I’ll remember For the rest of my life

would you still love me? by pwb0581 paul bundren

 Would you still love me when I am down and out Would you still love me at my worst

Would you still love me Even if I was ugly Even if I showed you all of my scars and mistakes Would you still love me Even after I am dead and gone 

Would you still love me Even though I am an outcast Would you still love me Even though I am different  Would you still love me Even though at times I don’t love myself

Would you still love me Even if I moved away Would you follow me Would you still be on my team Even if I was losing Would you be there to cheer me on Cuz I’d do the same for you

is this life just a waste?, why do I set myself up, why do I put myself out there, why do I inflict myself just to feel.

yield by pwb0581 paul bundren

 Yield to collision, Yield to my ever conflicting mind,Yield to uncertainty,Yield to the blind path ahead, i wish i could slow things down

Sometimes you just never know what lies ahead Anything can change at any given time Thoughts running back and forth they collide

Confusion spinning in circles I can’t confide It is a dark twisted ride No one would understand Unless they have been through it

Yield to collision, Yield to my ever conflicting mind, Yield to uncertainty, Yield to the blind path ahead, i wish i could slow it down, brace for impact

Sometimes you just never know what lies ahead Anything can change at any given time 

I should warn you,I am damaged. I should warn you,I am disturbed I should warn you, I am not alright(just faking it trying to be ok)

Yield to collision,Yield to my ever conflicting mind,Yield to uncertainty,Yield to the blind path ahead, i wish i could slow things down

Sometimes you just never know what lies ahead Anything can change at any given time

Yield to traffic,Yield to mixed emotions,Unaddressed, Not knowing where all of this is coming from

out of my head by pwb0581 paul bundren

 The more that I see, The less I like, and the more I want to leave. No, please don’t stay, Please just get out of my head

I won’t be fine. Living someone elses life. I won’t be fine. Trying to fix everyone and not myself

Somehow I need to get you out of my head,I need to get you out of my head,So I can work on me. I need to get you out of my head,Get you out of my head,So I can work on me

What works for you Might not be right for me Your plan might be wrong for me I would rather be able to make my own So please back off on your intentions of what you want me to be, I can’t be you

back to one by pwb0581 paul bundren

 i am starting back to one forget who you want me to be worry about yourself i was fine before all of your disbelief and your lies entered my life

i am trying to find who i am trying to do what is right for me some wont understand but this is what i think i have to do

i am becoming back to one trying to find out who i am this may mean i need to cut parts of you out 

i may need to let you go so i can find myself once again please dont take offense i am starting back to one trying to find me 

forget your false impressions and misjudgements think about what your actions say about you before you try to change me 

i am starting back to one trying to find out who i am this may mean i need to cut parts of you out i may need to let you go so i can find myself once again please dont take offense

leave it alone by pwb0581 paul bundren

 Sometimes I feel down and depressed Want to drive into another addiction 

Habits hard to break Voids hard to fill Through haunted memories Ghosts, Images that remind you of the past Sometimes the pain is hard to bear It is never easy But you got to let go.  

Leave it alone, Somethings are best left undone. let it go stop chasing. U don't need to change a single thing if you dont want to. if you feel it's right your instinct usually doesnt lie

Run away Take the fall But try to move on And make your life better There’s no easy answer to the questions on your mind

Sometimes you are the only one who really knows Just follow your heart And don’t give in to what others try to say   

Leave it alone, Somethings are best left undone. let it go stop chasing. U don't need to change a single thing if you dont want to if you feel it's right your instinct usually doesnt lie

disappear by pwb0581 paul bundren

 how can a star shining so bright just disappear here just yesterday and now is gone

running longing for the things that kept us safe they ain't here anymore gaping holes are where our hearts used to be

Certainly is never clear The future is not determined Nothing is forever Everything is meant to be broken I guess everything fades Nothing is meant to be forever

How can a star shining so bright disappear in a blink of an eye Here just yesterday and now is gone

Running, longing for the things that kept us safe They ain’t here any more Gaping holes are where our hearts used to be

Struggling to find the good Nowhere left to run from the demons that keeps following you

How can a star shining so bright disappear in a blink of an eye Here just yesterday and now is gone

How can a star so bright disappear How can something that seemed harmless be so bad Never know the damage caused until it is too late Can’t turn back to fix the mistakes

Sometimes it is better to let it go Running longing for the things and people that kept us safe They ain’t here anymore Gaping holes are where our hearts used to be

secretcy by pwb0581 paul bundren

  It is the secretcy that is killing, The secretcy that is killing, Lies in my head 

Depression, Frequent anxiety OCD, ADD.  What the fuck is wrong with me? Maybe more things than I know

It is the secretcy that is killing,The secretcy that is killing, Lies in my head

Constantly paranoid, Cannot sleep Maybe worried about things that don’t even matter Some things are hard to get off my chest

It is the secretcy that is killing,Secretcy that is killing,Lies in my head

I’m scared of what you would think of me if I told you about the dark parts of me would you stay or would you run  never want to see me again

My thoughts and feelings I sometimes keep hidden cuz I am scared if someone else was to know they would think that i was a freak or a monster and they'd want nothing to do with me

fall like dominoes by pwb0581 paul bundren

 You are looking for answers from someone just as lost as you are if not more so Sorry I can’t show you the way I can’t make any promises

Nobody has all of the answers Things seem to get scarier every day Things are not getting any easier only harder as we go You never know when it is your time

We all fall like dominoes We were not meant to win this fight Sometimes you can’t have it all Endings sometimes happen too soon and without warning

No one could ever predict this Change is always on the horizon Things and people you knew and loved got left behind and now they are gone

The things you relied on to get by no longer exists You’ve got to find another way It is getting harder and harder to make it Nothing lasts forever

Like the weather everything changes Clear one day stormy the next We never really know where we are going Finding our way in a field of blur

Can’t always tell what the future holds for us You just got to keep trying Sometimes we all fall like dominoes 

i dont want to say it but if I have to go, please, Don’t drown in sorrow because of me please keep this in your memories

heartless by pwb0581 paul bundren

in a world so heartless, only the good die, gone is everything you thought you knew

In a world so heartless, Only the good die Gone is everything you thought you knew Can’t get back Can’t replace what was lost Try to run away But it doesn’t change anything

I wish it wasn’t so There is no happy ending Someone is going to end up broken hearted Someone is going to end up getting hurt maybe even me There are no winners only losers

I’m trying to hold on to all I can Don’t know if I’ll ever be here again The ground is falling from under my feet Nothing is solid Everything is turning to sand

The world is flying by and I am standing still Running but going nowhere Sitting on the sidelines watching this scary movie unfold

Warning this could be graphic This may be ugly No one sees these scars They are inside of me

When does hopes and dreams matter Gone is everything you thought you knew. in a world so heartless only the good die gone is everything you thought you knew runaway in circles back at square one

someone to lean on by pwb0581 paul bundren

 I’ve been looking for someone to keep me in check To keep me in line I have been a mess at times 

Looking for an answer I may never find Maybe I am looking for something out in sea sailing in to the ocean

All I really want to someone to lean on, All anyone really wants is someone to lean on,Do you want someone to lean on

Do you get the drift,The boat I’m in,I wonder if you feel the same way,Or am I wasting my time

This is one of those things money can’t buy This is one of those things that is so hard to find Maybe I am trying to force something that isn’t there And I always find myself alone

the code by pwb0581 paul bundren

 i tryed to be cool play it safe tryed to avoid any trouble i played by the rules,i tryed to be nice,i tryed to be the guy that people liked,i used to be a nice boy,not anymore

what happened to the person i used to know?i tryed to be cool,tryed to be calm, but things seem to be exploding in my face

people dump thier bullshit at you leave you at the side of the road bleeding i've tryed to stuff it down,i am trying to be over it but it can't take it anymore.  fuck the rules,fuck the code

Forget all the impressions of what I’m supposed to be Forget the trends and the cliques forget These unwritten rules of how society says i am supposed to be

what the fuck am i supposed to be now that i no longer know who i am getting lost in you i cant abide in something that is working against me

so sorry if i can't live like the way you do (like what you want me to) what happened to the person i used to know? i used to be a nice boy,not anymore.   fuck the rules, fuck the code

they don't know me by pwb0581 paul bundren

 planet of zombies is all i see, faces keep staring back at me

All I ever wanted was to be the cool boy with the cool friends to fit in and be a part of something All I ever wanted was to be cool

I never really had a lot support when I was younger I was picked on and bullied a lot Sometimes I felt left out I missed out

Chunks of life are missing There are gaping holes I'm not the cool boy I isolate myself in my room to hide I have no friends 

I never feel like I belong So I withdraw from the crowd Feeling ever more alone

When I was in high school I sat at the end of the bus with my headphones listening to a rock CD on as loud as it would go to block out everything

I generally tried to stay to myself And avoid the drama I never wanted any problems I just wanted to be ok (i never felt ok)

Welcome to the nothingness inside of me There isn’t much to see A lot of empty gaps A lot of holes  I just wanted to be somebody To be a part of something To fit in

I don’t want to be alone I wanted a friend To hold on to To be there for each other I feel like that is missing i feel like a nobody dont fit in not adaptable i get scared talking to people

If I posted all my problems and issues On a highway billboard sign or online on facebook How many people would stick around Or still be my friend Or would just leave

It is not really cool to be me You really don’t know me I am nauseous Broke tired and hungry Wondering if there will be a roof over my head Scared and frieghted about what the future be

Can’t say that I am ok But I am trying to fake it Trying to stay strong for my family Trying not to let these demons get the best of me Trying to carry on even though everything is cutting me down

They don’t have to worry about where their next meal will come from They don’t have to worry about a roof over their head They don’t have to carry all their belongings by walking out in the rain

They don’t walk in my shoes They probably don’t care They don’t know the halves Even if I told them they would shake their heads They just don’t understand They really don’t know me

Walking in the rain in the cold all alone with no home No one to call no support no shelter only being cut down. Overloaded,Pissed off,Nothing seems to be working

Trying hard and getting kicked down the stairs Cannot justify or understand everything that is going on around me

They don’t have to worry about coming home to find a lock on the door and the house being repossessed by the bank

They don’t have to worry about being homeless having to sleep in a disabled vehicle in the middle of winter They really don’t know or seem to care

looking by pwb0581 paul bundren

 I'm looking for a miricle, I'm looking for faith, I'm having trouble believing the light seems so far away, looking for anyone to help me I think I've lost the way

I’m just trying to find something that is real Are you alive?,  Are you with me? I can’t seem to find anything Trying to find hope in dark places

I’m looking for a miracle I’m looking for faith I’m having trouble believing  The light seems so far away

I’m looking for anything to get through the day I’m looking for something to hold on to I think I lost the way

Please will you be my friend. I know I’ve made a few mistakes along the way  But I don’t intend to do any harm  Please give me another chance Hopefully it is not too late to turn this life around

in the hole by pwb0581 paul bundren

 Maybe too cautious, Maybe too scared, Maybe too afraid to make a stand, But if I don’t I am going off the deep end

People are backstabbing each other with double edged knives, See the blood, Never think twice.

Are you running, Too late, They got you in the hole. Right where they want you, Right where they want you. They got you in the hole. Ready to fuck you,Ready to fuck you

They are not trying to help They are just trying to take what they can and leave you for dead  They got you in the hole, Ready to fuck you,Ready to fuck you Again and again

Maybe I was too trusting Maybe I was too nice I was naive and taken advantage of Maybe I was too passive and leaniant

I should have known that this was going to happen It is way too hard without someone sabotaging and stealing

Things should not be this way There is no understanding Sometimes I feel like burning the bridge I never want to end up in this situation again

Are you running, Too late They got you in the hole Right where they want you,Right where they want you.  They got you in the hole Ready to fuck you,Ready to fuck you

They are not trying to help They are just trying to take what they can and leave you for dead They got you in the hole, Ready to fuck you, Ready to fuck you Again and again

I need to fix me before I can fix anybody else That is my problem I’ve been worrying too much about everyone else and not taking care of myself

the edge by pwb0581 paul bundren

 Please don’t forget me It is too easy to die Please don’t leave me Hang out to dry Sometimes I am guilty of 2nd guessing Sometimes getting burned in the end

They say I don’t stand a chance But I don’t care I’ll keep fighting until the end I’ll beat the odds or die trying I won’t give in  You could choose to watch Or cover your eyes

Danger is everywhere But I show no fear My biggest enemy is myself If I fall apart where will I land I have been trying to overcome all of the obsticiles

Please don’t forget me It is too easy to die And please don’t leave me To hang out to dry Sometimes Im guilty of 2nd guessing Sometimes getting burned in the end

Meet me at the edge of the world, If we fall off where do we land? Sometimes it feels like We are being dragged by a hand, I don’t want to disappear

My biggest fear is myself I don’t know what the future holds But I step forward and keep fighting Though not confident But I try to shake it off

Please don’t forget me It is too easy to die And please don’t leave me To hang out to dry Sometimes I am guilty of 2nd guessing Sometimes getting burned in the end

firey crash scene by pwb0581 paul bundren

 watch it burn, everything's burning down, its all burning down, would anything even matter anyway? everything's burning down its all burning down nothing matters anyway

Love hate war Played over and over again In a firey crash scene The highs and lows or every extreme  Pushing daisys Spilling beans And everything in between

Here we go Destination unknown Fighting for the only thing we’ve ever known Right or wrong We don’t care We’ve been pushed around long enough

Why can’t we see that we are suffering No more games I’m tired of people getting hurt But I guess that is how the story goes

Is there any justification or clarity? I don’t know. Probably not in this evil world

It’s a tragedy Why did this had to happen It’s a tragedy Could this be avoided Is there any ending  It’s a tragedy Played over and over again In a firey crash scene Where our hearts grow cold

Is there anything to say While everything is taken away Is there anything to say For all the lives taken away It’s all played over and over again In a firey crash scene Where everyone don’t grow old

free by pwb0581 paul bundren

 I begin to wonder what things are really meant for me Is it worth it to throw things all away After all the fighting that I’ve done just to give up and end up with nothing again

I just want to be free Want to be untied Just want to be able to do my own thing Just want to explore And weigh out the options Don’t want to rush

I want to find out what is best for me I know that it is not a easy road But I don’t want others to make their decisions for me

I hate for anyone to get hurt But I have to do what is best for me It is not so easy to run away from everything that you know just to learn things over again

I can’t love anyone until I love myself I’m not trying to be selfish

I just want to be free Want to be untied Just want to be able to do my own thing Just want to explore And weigh out the options Don’t want to rush (making the same mistakes)

I want to find out what is best for me I know that it is not a easy road But I don’t want others to make their decisions for me

Wishing on a falling star Hiding from the scars On the inside that don’t seem to heal 

Wondering where I am Against the odds How they are stacked against me Trying to figure out where I stand Trying to rebuild my life

never give up by pwb0581 paul bundren

 It started out simple But then things got complicated,It started out safe But then we got thrown in the crossfire

It started out clean But things got messy, I wish I could fix it and make things better It started out clear Then things got blurry, It started as a dream And turned in to a nightmare 

I can’t turn back time To make things alright I try to be strong Even if I am losing the fight I’m never certain anymore Where anything can change when you least expect

We right now could use some hope right now Cuz right now it looks glim  We right now could use a player Cuz our life is in disarray

We try to tackle these problems alone with no help We get the cold shoulder when we are hurting the most

They say grin and bear it That is what we are going to try to do We’ve been underdogs our whole lives But we are going to pull through We are here to prove them wrong Never give up! eventually we'll win

They pushed and shoved us and bullied us around But guess who is getting the last laugh now What happens when you have no one left to pick on

You only got yourself to blame Maybe something inside of you is hurting too

We right now could use some hope Cuz right now it looks glim We right now could use a player Cuz our life is in disarray

We try to tackle these problems alone with no help We get the cold shoulder when we are hurting the most

They say grin and bear it That is what we are going to try to do We’ve been underdogs our whole lives But we are going to pull through

We are here to prove them wrong Never give up eventually we'll win

Things used to be clear but now are frayed and blurred Things used to be clean But now we got blood on our hands

We lost our training wheels Now we are riding on the edge We can’t turn back now

Please stay with me and don’t let go will we have each other’s backs while riding through the storm

This world can be a dark cold lonely scary place no one wants to face it alone Things are unfortunately not getting any easier I feel we should hold on to eachother

We right now could use some hope Cuz right now it looks glim We right now could use a player Cuz our life is in disarray

We try to tackle these problems alone with no help We get the cold shoulder when we are hurting the most

They say grin and bear it That is what we are going to try to do We’ve been underdogs our whole lives But we are going to pull through

We are here to prove them wrong Never give up! Eventually we’ll win

always 4 never by pwb0581 paul bundren

 I always say no but can’t seem to back away Like a scary movie,You don’t know who’s the killer until it’s too late

I always tell myself that this is the last time I ever come back But somehow I wind up at the door I never learn my lesson I guess I am a fool Falling in the same trap Over and over again

Not being able to get myself out of the mess I got myself into I am always obsessed Wanting what I can’t have Just out of reach Always for never

I always think that maybe I can try to let you come in But you are the big fish in the pond that is hard to catch I can’t seem to reel you in

It seems the more I try to get you to come to me The more I chase you away It seems like I never learn 

I’m just a fool who keeps on falling for something that doesn’t exist wanting what I can’t touch Always for never

always4never Forever is never I am getting myself in trouble again Wanting something I can’t have Always for never Forever is never It don’t exist

what really matters by pwb0581 paul bundren

 What really matters? I don’t know. I am lost trying to find the way Out in the world on my own No one to help

They just stab you in the back Out to get you again and again No one cares

They just fuck the other person Every man for themselves No one on your side Instead trying to knock you down You can’t get back up is the way it seems

H8rz liars thieves everywhere, Painting targets on your back, Bang bang bang bang, 1234, Is this what it takes to win? I don’t want to play.

This is out for the dogs Things have gone sour What does it take to be alive again And get back on the right track

I have lost the way There is no control It feels like I’ve fallen under I just want my life back I wish I knew how But I don’t have the answers

I wish I had a safe home And open arms But I am finding it hard So I stay alone What really matters I don’t know Yesterday is gone Tomorrow may never come

Here is a story of a boy Who tries so hard He is gunning for it But maybe he tries too hard And he overworks himself He tries so hard But you can try and not win

The world is so cold And it is not going to get easy from this point on What really matters I don’t know Yesterday is gone Tomorrow may never come

try2die by pwb0581 paul bundren

 Song of the ages for you to sing We all die It’s out of our control We can’t turn back the hands of time We’d like to forget things But it is all too real

We all share the same misery of not knowing where the future lies We’re entering uncertainty It’s unpredictable hostile and constantly changing leaving us forever in the dark

I cannot see,I cannot breathe,I cannot live,I cannot die Constantly suffocating Don’t know if by your hands or by mine I feel like I am biting on a bullet just to survive, trying only to die

Song of the ages For a ghost to sing Cuz no one is listening or cares With times so hard It is so cut throat They are watching their necks to survive They run you over and never look back

I’m scared to know the truth But can’t keep living a lie Forever alone Upside down and twisted around At a crossroads Any move we make could be fatal anymore

There is no safe answers Nowhere to hide We fall behind Longing for something that got left behind that can’t be replaced

We try to numb the pain But we can’t keep running away Nothing ever seems to fill the void

I cannot see,I cannot breathe,I cannot live,I cannot die,Constantly suffocating,Don’t know if by your hands or by mine, I feel like I am biting on a bullet to survive we try to die

Please don’t go,Say it ain’t so,I guess we all go But sometimes too soon We needed you more than you know Why did things end up this way

Say goodbye for now Maybe we can meet again on the other side Hopefully in a better place Free of the demons that has been haunting you

I cannot see,I cannot breathe,I cannot live,I cannot die,Constantly suffocating,Don’t know if by your hands or by mine, I feel like I’m biting on a bullet to survive

We try to survive Caught in the crosshairs of demands Sometimes it feels like our hands are forced Sometimes we don’t make it out of this nightmare

Sometimes we are not prepared and it takes a toll,Sometimes the strong die,Sometimes the good don’t survive,Cut short before it is time

Wish it wasn’t so Nothing can brace ourselves for this Fighting a never ending battle a war that cant be won

I cannot see,I cannot breathe,I cannot live,I cannot die,Constantly suffocating,Don’t know if by your hands or by mine, I feel like I am biting on a bullet to survive trying just to die

dead town by pwb0581 paul bundren

 intro- I don’t want to live anymore If I have to go back to this hell hole. It used to be a place I called home But lately it has been tired and old and volitale.)

Sometimes I want to disappear and forget about the pain Forget about the problems Forget everything

Things aren’t so simple Hard to explain It feels like people are out to get me I feel like I’m dead Living someone else’s dream

Sometimes I pretend I’m ok I wish I could go back to a time when I didn’t have to be afraid I didn’t have to look over my shoulder to see if I am being stabbed

Everything seems dark and gloomy And the sky always seems so grey Even when the sun shines It don’t feel that way

Who do I trust I am basically on my own No one is going to help show you the way Instead they will kick you in the dirt and put you in the grave Something needs to change

I need a way out I need to escape This is too much How much more do you think I can take Maybe this ain’t meant for me

I need to get away to a place far away To collect my mind Need some peace in mind Seems so hard to find sometimes

Maybe they want me to disappear, I can grant their wish In this dead town I want to erase everything I’ve grown sick of this place

Just want to start off new from scratch and leave the rest behind There is nothing left to salvage Everything that is good is gone

I feel like I’m above troubled waters on a bridge that is on fire there is no turning back now

Fuck this place I don’t ever want to go back Sometimes I want it to burn to the ground

Sometimes I wish I could make it all disappear Maybe I could disappear  Find a reason To not come back To stay gone forever

find a way by pwb0581 paul bundren

 Find a way to get by Look inside my mind Don’t know which way to go Trying to find what is real

Trying to divide myself from the negativity that brings me down Try to move forward with my life  Sometimes seems like a long shot It feels like the gun is at my head

So many dangerous places to go I need some kind of lifeline Don’t know how much farther I can make it It won’t be far if I get no help

Maybe they enjoy to hate And bring me down Bet they wouldn’t feel the same way if it happened to them

But what does it matter They don’t listen to a thing you say Just brush you off like dirt And sweep you under the rug

I will find a way to leave things behind To move forward with my life Put the past away and take control of my life I’m moving forward with or without you

black hole by pwb0581 paul bundren

 sometimes i feel like i am wishing on a falling star. sometimes i feel like i am wasting my time.

i wonder what is real or what side i am on these days i cant tell anymore. (god i am such a whore)

i keep searching but there is no clear answers in sight. trying to find a reason but my head is in doubt. (i am so boring)

I just fall straight  down in a big black hole it swallows me whole in a bottomless pit the cycle never ends i cant seem to get out of it

i keep fighting the battle that never ends sometimes i dont even remember what i am fighting for just trying to find a reason to live

everytime, i find myself questioning is this right or is this wrong or where do i even belong nothing is making sense once again i find myself lost again

I just fall straight  down in a big black hole it swallows me whole in a bottomless pit the cycle never ends i cant seem to get out of it

i keep fighting the battle that never ends sometimes i dont even remember what i am fighting for just trying to find a reason to live

i find myself trying to get out, trying to get out getting sucked back in again i find myself trying to get out, trying to get out getting sucked back in again

I just fall straight  down in a big black hole it swallows me whole in a bottomless pit the cycle never ends i cant seem to get out of it

i keep fighting the battle that never ends sometimes i dont even remember what i am fighting for just trying to find a reason to live

if this is the end by pwb0581 paul bundren

 if this is the end then i better be off to somewhere else it is not worth it for me to stay for nothing if this is the end then i better have something else to rely on i need to have a plan

cant always rely on or trust other people having my back some are trying to hurt you instead i have to help myself

if this is the end then i need to be off to somewhere new. if this is the end then i guess i am on my way out of here

gen X meltdown by pwb0581 paul bundren

 this could be the end of the world as we know it the beginning of responsablity entering uncertainty a lot of anguish build up from miscommunication and disagreement

dont remember all of this things eachother said just wish we can put all of this behind us

it's so scary and the trust is gone everyone is fighting there never seems to be a solution we all querrel in such debate we cant relate filled with hate it's so sad in this day of age

generation x meltdown we are trying to learn our identity everyone is caught off guard and brought to thier knees

i keep praying for unity but no really getting any answers no one seems to care it feels as if i am walking alone

it's a long way home there is no going back everything is left behind the bridges have burned the pages have turned years have gone by and everything has changed

i dont know why i feel this hate it just consumes me if i could just let all of this go

i've been mean i've been selfish i dont know why it has gone on for so long this need to end right now

if we can love eachother be kind to eachother rather than tear eachother down this world would be a better place

still not healed by pwb0581 paul bundren

  hello. are you there? do you care? everything is f-d up still the same years gone by but nothing had changed

still no answers still being promised lies you cant keep still being short changed still being left behind still being left dangling by a thread still being left in the cold and in the dark

still being petrified being filled full of fear. a nation still demoralized. still not healed.

are you going to do something about it or just let everything sit around and rot and gather dust watch everything fall apart and crumble and lay to waste.

sometimes i have no idea why i feel this way but lately i feel like i have been on edge still left empty. still unjustified. still confused and left with no answers. still not knowing being told only lies

still petrified full of fear a nation still demoralized still not healed

still not acceptable i still wonder why how could this go on for so long no more excuses i just want the truth

still left empty. still unjustified. still confused and left with no answers. still not knowing being told only lies

still no answers still being promised lies you cant keep still being short changed still being left behind still being left dangling by a thread still being left in the cold and in the dark

still being petrified being filled full of fear. a nation still demoralized. still not healed.

reckless abandon by pwb0581 paul bundren

 reckless abandon roaming around all trace of innocence is long gone 

so now where do we do as we are at the end of the road we cant go back we cant change the past

reckless abandon are you lonely did you lose yourself to no return lately and blindly it seems as if no one cares and lately and jaded and frustrating

i know how you feel cuz i've been there too but you got to get back up and rise above and not back down 

maybe it is not too late maybe there is a chance. i dont know why everyone is so cold

i know it may be hard to get back on your feet but you cant lay there and accept defeat they will devour you

reckless abandon are you lost have you gone off your rails no one can save you you are a bad wreck all used up and burned out

dont ever feel like you are the only one cuz there are millions just like you that are scared that feel alone that are afraid to get out of there shell

reckless abandon you can pick your wheels and start again if you wanted to

good enough by pwb0581 paul bundren

 nothing ever seems good enough for you...  I want to change But I can’t seem to throw away All of this hatred inside of me

Someone please kill me It would be easier than to go Face to face with my head Oh no it goes again Switching back and forth In my head I can’t comprehend

Sometimes I wanted to die Cuz I get sick of trying Feeling like nothing I do Gets appreciated And I am left on my own With no support

Oh no here it goes again My thoughts are Switching back and forth In my head I can’t comprehend

Because nothing is ever good enough, So why try? Nothing is ever good enough, Why should I do it for you? Nothing is ever good enough Maybe I’m moving on to something new

I brace myself for another meltdown This time longer than any time before Anything I say seems to get ignored Sometimes I feel like I am half dead Is there anything to live for

Because nothing is ever good enough, So why try? Nothing is ever good enough Why should I do it for you? Nothing is ever good enough I am trying to find something new

run don't walk by pwb0581 paul bundren

 Everything is all scrambled and fucked up.  We are the ones left sorting it out Cleaning up the mess

It is run don’t walk in this crazy world It feels like we are being chased down While picking up the pieces by ourselves

What we had has left and gone away,Not coming back again,Thrown all away,Down the drain We need to come up with a plan to fix the problem But we are running out of time

Everything is out of place,Try to organize,Try to realign,There is nothing left Get out while you can,Run don’t walk!

Disappear in the night May never return Trying to find a right In all of the wrongs

Trying to find a reason What really makes sense in this mass confusion Don’t really want to be going back to this situation

I just wonder if there is something more And why am I still here Sometimes I feel like I am making no progress and my life is on hold

Maybe it is time to go Got to get away from this place And try something new This isn’t working for me anymore I’ve got to let this go

So long goodbye, I hate for things to go out this way But maybe it is the only way.  So long goodbye,Maybe I need to run away.

What we had has left and gone away,Not coming back again,Thrown all away,Down the drain We need to come up with a plan to fix the problem But we are running out of time 

Everything is out of place,Try to organize,Try to realign,There is nothing left,Get out while you can,Run don’t walk!

way too fast by pwb0581 paul bundren

 please help me understand, nothing makes sense to me. can we make a U turn? try to get out of this mess

We grew up way too fast We never really had a chance Our childhood way swept away in a blink of an eye We had to learn the hard way

There wasn’t always someone there There was a lack of guidence and support We were left on our own to battle it out  We were never taught we had to figure out by ourselves

The world is so cold People are quick to push you off the edge and not think twice about it Nothing is safe or given You got to earn it Nothing is fair anymore

Beware there are a bunch of loins in the den all searching for raw meat You are not the only one who is hungry Hate to say but it’s a damn cold world (damn cold cold war)

Nobody seems to care they’re quick to take advantage of you and leave you on the curb No more free rides You’ve got to skate on your own

It seems like things are going way too fast Please just make it stop Where did the time go

It seems like people are trying to push you down the stairs then They give you a mountain to climb then knock you back down

They say the bigger you are the harder you fall One day you will get your turn Over the corner everywhere you face There are demons inside you can’t escape 

It seems like things follow you wherever you go It seems like things are going way too fast

You just want to slow things down  Before you know time flies by way too quick You wonder where it went You can’t get it back  It seems like things are happening way too fast

Take two seconds to breathe I need to figure out where I stand Need to readjust Need to reavaluate Need a break

The noise in the air and the traffic is distracting It is hard to stay focused There is too much going on at once

You wish you could slow things down and quiet things down Everything is too frieghtening and happening in a flash Going way too fast

world on fire by pwb0581 paul bundren

 there is nowhere safe left to run,there is no chance, there is no future (there is no chance, there is no future) no lives matter they are going to kill us all...

world on fire such a disgrace babies crying without a face no mother no dad to tend to them no life no future ahead

just a bunch of what ifs no chance no love. no there is no love just bitterness emptyness & resentment

i wish i was able to fix everything but sometimes i cant even fix myself. this life is sitting on empty sometimes i wish someone could fill me up

world on fire such a disgrace innocence dead on arrival everyone is to blame  so much confusion so much hate who's the culprit we may never know but we all know this has got to change

i need amazing grace this is it all or nothing crash or burn live or die i risk it all to save the world i might fail i might die but i give it all

world on fire engulfed in flames so much tension no one can relate everyone for themselves nothing left but apathy anger fear & hatred

world on fire such a disgrace. innocence dead on arrival without a trace. world on fire engulfed in flames. so much tension no one can relate. hope seems to be disappearing there is nothing left

new start by pwb0581 paul bundren

 Lets get away, Leave for a while, Maybe never come back.  Drive aimlessly into the sunset With no planned destination

Things haven’t been working out for a very long time Can’t force something if it ain’t there

Sometimes you can’t fix everything that is broken There are days where I go in circles Making no progress I just want to be anywhere but here

I got off on the wrong exit And can’t find my way back to the road the I was on, I got lost again

The future is as blurry as ever I don’t know what lies ahead Days have been rockyThey are still rocky ahead I am just looking for a brand new start

I am just looking for a way to get by Will you come with me Are you with me or not

Things aren’t getting as easier as time goes on I have been trying to find the light I have been trying to get back on the right page

I am trying to find the hope I lost I don’t know where I am going Things happen unexpectedly The future can be unpredictable

Days have been rocky They are still rocky ahead I am just looking for a fresh new start

coming home by pwb0581 paul bundren

 hey I think i've gone away and I don't think i'll be coming home. hey I think i'm losing it and I don't think i'll ever be coming home

i'm losing it i'm coming apart don't know who i am from the start.  i'm losing it i'm torn apart i'm afraid this relationship has come to a bitter end

i torture myself to make things work i'm lying to myself to stay alive for the last time i wont be coming home

i torture myself to make this work i'm lying to myself to stay alive for the last time i am not coming home

going down in flames by pwb0581 paul bundren

  I’m holding on to darkness Cuz it is all I’ve ever known Maybe it is my crutch But it is what made me felt safe 

Maybe in a way I am sort of detached from reality Daydreaming of a better life that I can’t seem to have Addicted to things that are hurting me 

can’t seem to break away Repeated in the same cycles and the same mistakes  need changes What is going on now isn’t working

I’m going down in flames I couldn’t understand I can’t relate I am lost in space  Trapped inside of a world I don’t understand Seems so twisted and messed up Problems I can’t seem to fix

It is supposed to be a new day But I seem to be stuck paralyzed Maybe these demons in my head can’t escape Sometimes there doesn’t seem to be a good outlet

Looking for some quick temporary fix To ease the pain It doesnt really erase the problems Just makes them worse & I keep falling in the same traps again

I’m going down in flames I couldn’t understand I can’t relate I am lost in space  Trapped inside of a world I don’t understand  so twisted and messed up Problems I can’t seem to fix

Maybe I allowed this confusion linger for too long Maybe I need to address this rather than stuff it down which is what I am used to doing

Maybe I need to cut the cord Understand though results don’t come overnight and take time Maybe you are not patient enough to see it

Sometimes it seems like I am walking on eggshells Can’t do anything right to impress you Maybe I had enough trying I don’t think anything I do is good enough for you so i'll fix myself instead

Sometimes I feel like you don’t seem to want to listen You seem to be stuck on yesterday Therefore things seem to stay the same And I am not sure I can abide with that anymore

I’m going down in flames I couldn’t understand I can’t relate lost in space Trapped inside of a world Seems so twisted and messed up Problems that can’t seem to be fixed

Maybe if I didn’t procrastinate Maybe if I stopped putting things off to the last second Things would be better I don’t know

I’m going down in flames I couldn’t understand I can’t relate I am lost in my own space Trapped inside of a world Seems so twisted and messed up Problems I can’t seem to fix

I’m going down in flames I couldn’t understand I can’t relate I am lost in my own space Trapped inside of a world Seems so twisted and messed up Problems i need to fix

racing against yourself by pwb0581 paul bundren

 Sometimes do you get the feeling that someone is watching you and breathing down your neck Sometimes does it feel that someone is out to get you, You can’t escape

Sometimes does it feel like there is no use That you are doomed no matter what you do Sometimes does it feel like you are going down Six feet under this time Can’t revive

Don’t you get sick of trying Feeling like you want to be something else Don’t you feel all alone Feeling like you need some help But don’t know where to go

You feel like you are racing against yourself, You can’t win the race against yourself

You are trying to be the best you can be But you are trying too hard and worring too much You try to do things too perfectly Making you feel more like a failure But we all know you are not

You just need some time to figure out yourself To find out who you are and who are you not

Sometimes do you get the feeling that your heart is pounding through your chest Sometimes do you get the feeling like your head is going to explode

Sometimes do you get the feeling like your stomach is going to turn  It is ok, we all get that way sometimes, Just breathe in and breathe out You are not alone

dumb by pwb0581 paul bundren

 am i on drugs?am i insane?have i lost my brain? what was i thinking?when i let you take control over my life

i don't know i swear i'm so dumb i couldnt protect myself now will i overcome the long hard fall that i took and shook everything apart

am i out of my  fucking mind did i lose track of time i let time tick by while i was still bleeding what was i thinking?

i don't know i swear i'm so dumb i couldnt protect myself now will i overcome the long hard fall that i took and shook everything apart

i am back to where i start i'm bleeding and broken and crippled i can't stand up, i fall down i dont know i swear i'm so dumb now i will brace for my fall

run for cover by pwb0581 paul bundren

 - i guess we are guilty of one thing or another but how do you carry on  when everthing is wrong and you have to turn and run for cover

hows come you can get to pinpoint me and we cant get you back you think you are so perfect ruining peoples lives

i guess i just take everything and stride just stuff it down along with everything else like the anger and sadness and it never really gets addressed

this hate gets us nowhere avoiding the issues usually just make it worse i dont see a solution why cant we talk it out anymore

forgive by pwb0581 paul bundren

 This is not another love song But a stone thrown to my back Paranoia is under control I’m under attack

Nowhere to go,Nowhere to run,Nowhere to hide Cannot lie The truth is I’ve been running away from me

This is not an apology But expression of guilt and anger Out on myself I don’t want to hurt anyone else So I take it out on myself Now look at myself I can’t even control myself

And I’m falling out,I’m breaking down,I’ve lost myself,Can’t forgive myself Maybe that is where it all boils down, I can’t give up on myself,I must learn to forgive

This is another statement This time for myself A little reminder That there is always hope Even on the stormiest day And in this life of pain There is some love But I seem to forget

And I’m falling out,I’m breaking down,I’ve lost myself,Can’t forgive myself Maybe that is where it all boils down,I can’t give up on myself,I must learn to forgive

The light at the end of the tunnel Don’t come to those who fail to try And the ones who put no outcome Are the ones who fail and die

I guess that this is my wake up call To stand up and do what’s right And I won’t get any sleep Til I win this fight Sometimes I can’t please everyone when they get in the way of what I need

Sometimes people get disappointed But that’s how the story goes Sorry if I offend you I’m just being myself I can’t change who I am

part of me by pwb0581 paul bundren

 A part of me wants to run away, While a part of me wants to reach out.

A part of me wants to trust, But a part of me is scared. A part of me wants to give up, While a part of me wants to move on.

And I don’t know I’m on this road. I wondered so far I can’t go back home. I am lost Hoping someone can save me. Cuz I’m all alone.

A part of me wants to give in,A part of me wants to push away. A part of me wants to shut you out,While a part of me wants to listen A part of me wants to care,While a part of me doesn’t

And I don’t know I’m on this road I wondered so far I can’t go back home I am lost Hoping someone can save me Cuz I’m all alone And I don’t know what I want anymore

I waste away, By myself, Incomplete, Only a part of me

I hope someone can save me Cuz I’m falling apart I can’t tell who I am from the start I’ve fallen back I’ve fallen behind And I can’t tell who I am I am not whole I’m incomplete Only a part of me

A part of me wants to hate, a  part of me wants to love A part of me is here, While the other part is gone

A part of me is whole, While the other part is shattered apart A part of me is disconnected,A part of me is lost

And I don’t know I’m on this road I wondered so far I can’t go back home I am lost Hoping someone can save me Cuz I’m all alone    I waste away By myself Incomplete Only a part of me

the pieces are on the floor, cant glue them togather anymore, 

apology by pwb0581 paul bundren

  i am so empty (so empty) simply incomplete i am breaking down and there is no one to save when i fall

i don't know i thought you'd lead right through me i was deeply mistakened to think that way

and i was liable for all of the failures everything that didnt go right was account of me i brought your world down and turned it upside down and there is no way now to bring things back to good

you probably hate me for my taking when i shouldnt have but there is no apology that'll ever bring things back to good

i was liable for all of the failures everything that didnt go right was account of me i brought this world down and turned it upside down and there is no way now to bring things back to good

if i could take back everything, if i could change everything, i would.   if i could erase everything,i would